delay

last night I had the cookie dream

i was upset because Hank 

had not moved the filing cabinet :-)))))))))))

i called the place where it had been left

and the owners had already dumped

the contents 

into the mud/landfill

i SCREAMED and 

SCREAMED and 

SCREAMED

and THATS how i woke up

all filled with anger

and intensity

and frustration 

and loss

in the middle of the night

the gift was recognizing it was the cookie dream

right there before my eyes

inside my tiny  little mindset

i want a filing cabinet

i want a filing cabinet

i want a filing cabinet.......

and I hated Hank for not giving it to me.....

it was a GIFT  to see

how much i still think that way

how much i believe i am a filing cabinet,

numbers, IMPORTANT PAPERS!  a body

 it is a blessing to  see it  and choose differently

it was literally a wake up dream!

Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Louiseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

what crap!!!!!!

what am i thinking???

how totally empty 

(like a friggin' filing cabinet could ever give me a hug........:-))))))))))))))))))

IT IS NOT A FILING CABINET i really want--it is GOD!!!!!! Only God!!!!!

a filing cabinet   

and we fill in the blank with allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll other forms of nothing 

 can never make me happy

OR UNHAPPY!!!!!!!

see how fast a cookie crumbles!!!!!!!!!

see it  now

depend on nothing outside of God!

 IT WILL FAIL YOU

delay not your happiness an instant longer

nothing outside of us can give or take away our Happiness

here is the greatest nonsecret of all

ONLY GOD CAN SATISFY

because

WE ARE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!

today 

we simply love God

and LET Everything shine!

love, j