fully alive

the bottom drops out

free falling

in God

nothing to hold onto

no point of reference

no past

no future

hyperawareness

wide awake

cause and effect simultaneous

Godrush

no beginning

no end

beyond words

grace

grace is Home

our natural state

open

free

grace is before

we identify with our thinking

breathe it out

in silence is all sound

in space

everything there is

fullness

behind my thinking,

God

i would not make a god

of my thinking

glory

the world bows

to your glory

it lays

at your feet

it waits

but for your greeting

for your loving eyes to lay upon it

its watching your every move

so ready to give you

overwhelming love

the moment

you give it a chance

just like a devoted dog

just waiting for the moment

when you pat its head

and look into its eyes

and acknowledge your love

for it

the world but waits for your openness,

your love,

to jump up

and hug you

wagging its tail

forever ready

to jump

your arms

clarity

sitting in the pool

i notice

perfect clarity
through the water
to the bottom of the pool

or

shifting my focus
to the surface of the water

i see

the reflection
of the bars
of a fence

focus on one,
the other completely disappears

purity
or
obstacle

my desire
births
my reality

everything i look upon
teaches me

how

to come
home

if i open

all i am

to it

trust

palo verde tree,

how can i trust my brother?

open your eyes

swaying so gently in the breeze

do you see any resistance in me at all?

only softness
only beauty
only ease
only grace

i have no fight against myself

i am you

do you see my flexibility?
my relaxation
my abundance
my green green green color of life?

do you see my solid trunk?

do you see i am fully fed
gleaming in the sun
even in the desert?

do you see every tiny leaf
holds nothing but love
and gratitude?

what is there
you could possibly fear
about me?

i am your brother
i am you
there is no difference--
only life
pouring out of me
to soothe
your tired eyes
and open heart

i am you
loose
breezy
and so happy to receive
the sun's heat
pouring down on me

i have no need or desire
to know which way the wind will blow
or when it will rain next

this moment
has more beauty
more love
more life
than i can put into words

i simply open

Infinite Universes

so sweet
so sweet
so very very very sweet

to open
to
what
is

end of story

hi again all you beautiful sparks!

back from katie's

(i wrote this there)

nothing is autistic

(this is the end of my story that i was the mother of an autistic son.

my son was not autistic

autism doesn't exist

there is only love)

who dares?

to tear the petals off the blossom

that is born

who dares?

to paint it black

and teach us it is so

who dares?

to break its stem

so it will match our own

who dares?

to carve its heart

so it will fit the book

who dares?

to call it wrong

when there is nothing but brightness to see

who dares?

to close its ears

and call this singer deaf

who dares

to open his heart

as wide as it can go

and wider still

and wider still

and still you have more to go

who of us

would dare

to shed

our deepest inner skin

and feel the pain

we have pursued

by not seeing

we are dreaming

him?

clarity

there is no confusion

my Holiness

Clarity

Purity

Radiance

cannot dissipate

vaporizing

dispersing

vanishing

into nothingness

as a puddle

in the light of the sun

we simply lay the problem

the uncertainty

the misunderstanding

before God

we surrender all desire

for the hidden

and unhidden benefits

of holding on to unhappiness

in that instant

in the willingness to totally let go

of our side of the story

our truth

our defenses

and justification for fear

GOD IS

we are

the shining white knight

whole

radiant

powerful

and JOYOUS!!!

owning every inch

heighth

width

and

depth

of Creation

oh what a happy

happy

brilliant

day!

the way of it

when i no longer asked for anything

it poured out before me

clear as day

happiness

i am free from asking for what can never happen,

from arguing with reality

no one can ever give me love and happiness

because i already have it

i am it!!!

i love this!

i need never ask anyone for anything

i only see mySelf full and radiant before me

and boy! do i ever rejoice!!!!

holiness

projection makes perception (t445)

here's what i see

everyone's truest deepest desire is total/perfect honesty

to know themselves

clarity

no obstacles

no hidden crap

everything out in the open

no defenses against love/truth

there is nothing else to want

but holiness

nothing but this could ever satisfy

Holiness Itself

the end of all lies

confusion

obscuring

misunderstanding

constant clear communication

light

from Father to Son

one and the same

endless increasing light

Joy only gives increase

i am under no laws but God's--only increase

Truth remains in us

radiant as a star

pure as light

innocent as love (p?)

it's the only place

we can ever truly meet!!!!

and we ARE

there!

now!

AMEN!!!!

troubling

reality cannot possibly fight itself

love does not fight love

oneness does not fight oneness

it is in total agreement

total sameness

it is impossible truth could attack truth

truth is identical to truth

my nature

cannot fight what it is

it simply is

what it is--all of it

i am

that

i am

Joy is Joy.

Period.

nothing else makes sense

that's why the mind is troubled

it has a story

that doesn't coincide with reality

and it simply can't make any sense of it

they both can't be true

so the mind

is continually

trying to figure out

what is

really going on--

how to reconcile two completely different views of reality.

and now it has come

to the very logical conclusion

that is it impossible

that opposites are true.

Only One is.

It is the only possibility.

When this conclusion is finally reached

there is no possibility

the mind

can ever be troubled

this is growing up

we see the childish viewpoint

was but a limited perspective

now is the Whole Picture

Shining Clearly

in Our Mind

end

of

story

end

of

all

troubles

everything

is it really possible that you know

how God will show up at your door today?

everywhere you look

God is

every face

every thought

every question

all taking you

Home

be not content with future happiness.

it has no meaning

and is not your just reward.(t566)

sacrifice now no longer

behind everything,

God

the only possible response

is

gratitude

we let go

and let it flow

to us

from us

through us

all around us

not-doing

"practice not-doing,

and everything will fall into place."

reality unfolds without desire (you did not create God!!!)

bringing with it

more beauty

more luxury

more exquisite surprises

than imagination could ever devise!(bk in 1000 names for Joy)

anger

sadness

frustration

let us know we are fighting reality

our very nature

at odds with

at war with

in disagreement

with God

we are fighting Love

we are fighting Truth

even when we get what we "wanted"

we want it to last (bk)...

to clamp on to it

forever still in time

when you allow life to flow like water

you become that water

and you watch life

lived to the ultimate,

always

giving you

more

than

you

need (bk)