radiance

From you salvation radiates

with gifts beyond all meansure,

given and returned. (wbp357)

i smile and wave at the thoughts

of "not enough"

and "not worthy".

we used to be good friends

and spent a lot of time together.

now i smile and wave.

we needn't get into it any more

we've agreed to disagree

now i'm free

to go out and live

she is not dangerous

she is no longer threatening

no longer holds attraction

though sometimes she dresses up

and invites me to spend the night

i have new friends now

i have Truth and Majesty

and Radiance and Joy

and Beauty

and Glory!

and Wholeness

Relaxation

and

Being

i have Rest now

and Suppleness--

a supple mind,

not rigid

stuck and attached

my thoughts can flow

and radiate out into the world

bringing healing peace

and reminding us of our Godness

junior high was fun,

but its not a place for adults

we would manuver the Universe

flying freely from star to star

from joyous moment to joyous moment

on beams of light

effortless

timeless

gleefully

surprised

and delighted

at our Innocence!

radical honesty

"rescue invites recognition that the assumptions

we so stubbornly cling to

are in fact

decisions we made (long long ago)

about what should be true". Brad Blanton from Radical Honesty

we took a "picture" of "Jack" doing something once

a million years ago

and that's what we assume he should be doing forever...

that's who he is for us...

that's who we are for us

because we did something one time

and took a picture of it

forever to be shining in our mind.....

WOW!!

what an infantile

maladaptive

imprisoning

operating system

we truly don't know anyone

the past is gone!!!

"roles and rules are just thoughts

which when grasped as principles,

are hard for people to get over, get beyond,

or let change...." bb

when we call them principles

somehow we think they are different--

more true, solid...

yada yada yada...

NOT SO!

like Katie says,

it's gossip!

would you repeat it?

live by it?

be defined by it?

encourage the mind to see you that way?

is there one joyful reason to keep that thought?

"People choke the life out of themselves by

tying themselves to a chosen "self-image"--

any self image whatsoever." bb

today we remember

"we see only the past." (L7 acim)

and now are we radically honest!

the perfect plan

the perfect plan for unhappiness

is to expect someone else

to give happiness to you!

it's an absolutely ridiculous plan

we sit passively and expect someone else

to come stock our cupboards

it's the craziest thing i ever heard of

is there something wrong with us

that we can't see our cupboards are

already full and overflowing?!@

today we get off our butts

stand up

and stretch our mind

we peek over the fence

of our beliefs

and

we

see

we are it!

we

are

full time radiators of Joy

we need to get nothing

Our only function

is the one God gave us.

no black holes

thought is power

it is something

it cannot be a black hole

absence

loss

negative

if a thought/idea/circumstance

doesn't seem loving

it is simply must be misunderstood

only Love is possible

soothing

Truth is soothing

we let it soak in

deep

to the deepest places

where we have never gone

before

we let them relax

those hidden knots

the darkest moments

we let them open

nothing left hidden

that's truth: everything out in the open

i see what is

space

as far as i can see

i see myself

as i am

without a past

without a body

without one speck unrevealed

soothing

no fear of the unknown

a soothing

juicy

supple

mind

what a gift!

doubt your mind

your ego mind is exactly like your digital camera

with a full memory card

it's already taken all the pictures

there is no more room for new information

it can only show you the past

it tells you the past is true

it can only show you an image of the past in the present

it can only show you an image of the past in the future

it's a mechanical device

you are the viewer

remember this!

are you looking through the lens of the ego/past

or are you seeing present reality?

if you are not seeing Joy,

doubt your mind.

joy!

Joy asks absolutely nothing of me!

She wills but to shine

and i love Her dearly for it!

simply drop everything else

and who wouldn't drop everything

for astonishing overwhelming Joy?!@

today

leave all roads behind

all paths

all goals

all plans

behind

only

Joy

now!

movement

if it feels easier with another person

why wouldn't you be with another person?

there is no right or wrong

there is only guidance in this moment

what are you moved to do?

if you need stillness

be it

light, peace and joy

ask nothing of me

they but give themselves to me

in the stillness

all else gone

it is but they

Who live

always

forever

unchanging

whole

Substance

robotic

the ego thought system is robotic

it reacts

the same way

everytime

it is very predictable

it will never have an original response

attack

defend

attack

defend

attack

defend....

the program is already written and closed

it likes you to believe it is free

nothing is farther from the truth

it is a broken record

i'm a victim

i'm a sinner

i deserve to be punished

you are a victim

you are a sinner

you are the problem

if something outside me were

different i would be happy

it is never happy...

never satisfied....

like Chatty Cathy (the old talking doll)

it has a few basic lines

they never change

new doll: same exact lines

from the same factory

consider the source!

we watch Chatty Cathy

in our mind

we condemn no one for her

we watch her in others in the same

way we watch her in ourselves

we give no reaction

in either place

for they are

the same thing

we simply watch her

now is the pattern broken

in this is freedom found

now we can remember

that though we push this baby doll

all over the world with us

in her special little stroller....

She is not us.

We are truly MotherLove

we are silent

we are still

we are very very very

patient

we remain as God

created us

homework

my Defenselessness

is my Teacher

i sit still in the classroom

giving Her the opportunity to enter

to speak wordlessly

to let Her Presence fill the room

this is my Home work

all day long

amen

consider the source

it is never about what you should or shouldn't do

it is only the old biddy in you

the school marm

who is speaking

she is not a happy camper!!!

an unhappy outcome is inevitable

from either "choice"

consider the source!!!!

Spirit says always

i will be humble

i will to fly above the world of should and shouldn't

i will to transcend everything i have been taught

Spirit always says, I will

ego/old biddy speaks the ancient language of "should"

we are bilingual

but there is only one true Interpreter

release

i let go of concepts like helium balloons

i open my hand

and let them go

there is nothing else to do

no other work

i let go

i decide

i don't want the blues balloon

any longer

the red hot balloon of anger

the sour lemon yellow

the slimy green

nor the deadly black widow poison

all concepts that love could be something else

only openness

can ever experience freedom

nothing to fear

we no longer turn away from fear

but simply

stop

we stand

perfectly still

we breathe

we watch

the illusion of fear

shout

and dance

and scream at the top of its lungs

and tantrum

we watch the old performance

until she tires out

and lays down on the floor

and goes back to sleep

with a little less energy

than she had before

and each time we watch this performance

she grows a bit smaller

her clothes a bit duller

her bite a bit weaker

we no longer call for an encore

we still attend the show,

but now we recognize

we are always safely sitting in the audience

and there is no real threat ever

and never was

make love with everything

there is no inch of sidewalk that is the same as any other

nor any square inch of grass that doesn't hold it's own exciting design of growth

and connection

have you really looked lately?

have you given your full attention to your world?

to

the railroad tracks,

to the endless amazing design of rust ?

and the closer you look

the more you see

the gravel

the skin

the smile like no other

the bark

swirling in the motion of growth

the scars and broken irregular beauty

the bubbles the yeast formed in your bread

all different sizes

textures

directions

tastes

give it your full attention

it is amazing!

it is you!

make love with it

come from a bigger place

i have invented this situation as i see it (L32)

moralistic

scarcity

not love

bodies

personality

Come from a bigger place

come from Infinite Space

open

open

open

open up

back away

back off

further

further

further still

See the tiny crumb

you were focused on

in the midst of Infinity

it's not all there is!!!

only the Allness

is true

mind is not in your head!

Spirit is not form

Joy is in everything

and could never be contained

in a tiny scrap

think not your happiness

is in any specific form

Come from a bigger place

a bigger plan

a Creation you

did not make up

falling in love

the miracle is about falling in love with ourself!!!

we are Everything

because

as we let the ego illusional thoughts go

we deny nothing

we stop living out of old ideas

old books

ancient writing/language

laws

morals

love is not dusty

She doesn't come out of a book...

though She may live in the cracks

in the spaces

between the words

and She does!

the page is light

the background

the stage

upon which the words sit

is owned by Joy

behind the words

the Source remains

forever lit

She shines through it all

the transparency of everything is seen at last

as light shines through

every possible idea/form

Here is all Joy

Here

we do fall

effortlessly

head over heels

in love

with

Our One True Self

as we see

there really is

nothing else at all

responsibility

i stole something from me,

hid something from me

i hid my Joy

my truth

my true Self

my freedom to be me with wild abandon

to laugh at what is funny

to not take seriously what i think

i tried to steal my ability to laugh

PURE JOY

i inhibited my Self

by fear of disapproval

and abandonment

i turned against my own inner Joy

i left her

i did not support her,

value her

i pretended not to have her,

that she did not exist

i've been pretending that my wings are clipped

i've been pretending

to fit in

to be "normal"

to have "friends"

how funny and deathly ill is this at the same time

what kind of "friends" could these possibly be,

but fellow death walkers,

corpses

also in denial of true Joy

today we would be abnormal,

paranormal

by this world's standards

we would flaunt our Joy

hold it high above our head--

we would value it high above our thinking

we would love it

and give it all away

more and more and more and more and more...

we would feel the flow of Joy all day long....

we are responsible....

and we would not live under false pretenses anymore

enlightenment

"what kills us is intense attachment to our interpretations

and failure to distinguish these interpretations

from sensate reality.

this process of learning to categorize experiences,

and then forgetting the distinction between

categories and experience itself,

is what i call learning how to lie."

(Brad Blanton in Radical Honesty)

lay not the past upon the present

all your past is a mental construct

it's an illusion

it's not happening right now

it's completely over

it has nothing to do with the present moment

the purpose of the present moment is only Joy

if you don't see it

if you aren't experiencing it

it's because you haven't dropped all your concepts

look again...

cleanly

Joy is very clean

She always sparkles now

only Love

is true

this experience

is nothing you have ever experienced before

what is it?

chaos

in the midst of chaos

God is

bold

bright

and quick

the sea can open wide in a moment

it is in the mud

that seeds are stored

it is from the mud

amazing new life

crisp and golden

literally eyepopping

arises naturally

we simply watch

it is happening all the time :-)))

where do your thoughts come from?

they come to you

and for you

and through you

but where to they actually originate?

out of chaos

God arises

bright

and beautiful

so strong

His magnetism is irresistable

it pulls the flowers up and out of the soil toward Itself

we are drawn to the light just like the moths in this world

Love will arise out of chaos

the moment you really want it

peace is in the midst of violent self hatred

you cannot leave God

She lives in you

She lands without a sound

and so gracefully and lovingly waits

for us to look up and remember

spellbound by Her Kindness

It is She

that calls you forth

It is She that calls for every seed

and bulb

and every possibility to gleam in this instant

you are not weak, you are love

you are not tired, you are love

you are not afraid, you are love

you are not miserable! you are love!!!!!

you are not powerless, you are love

weakness could never have caused the big bang!

Weakness doesn't exist

It is power beyond this world that created it

and power beyond this world that will let it go!

There is absolutely no lack of power anywhere

in anything or anyone

There is no chaos in our vision anymore

God is!

there is no effort

we simply let be

what is so natural

mirage

if you knew without a doubt

that behind the fear

was Love

would you go toward it

or run away?

shoes

shoes are very different

the only way to find out what fits is to try them on

so every experience is a shoe

is it too big for us still?

have we not grown into it?

does it still feel beyond our capacity

to understand?

is it rubbing a sore spot somewhere

that calls for immediate attention and care?

do we need to give ourselves a bit more cushion

for every time we slap the pavement

and hit the hard stuff?

does it look fantastic

and feel like shit???@! :-))))))

(one of our most popular styles....)

or

is this situation so easy and relaxed

we forget we even have shoes on?

every situation is a shoe

we have decided to put on

and all it ever asks is

how does it feel?

do i keep this one on

or

leave it behind?

and as we leave all our choices behind

we find

the bare truth

is beyond compare

extreme friendship

did you hug all your friends at breakfast?

did you even see them?

think of them?

we are never alone

how many hands put just my coffee cup in front of me?

millions?

who dug the clay

found the clay

transported the clay

designed the clay

mined the glaze

learned about how to glaze

designed the machines

the kiln

the cardboard boxes

the trucks

the drivers

the rubber for the tires

the engines

all the parts

farmed the trees

worked the soil

found the gasoline

processed the oil

the electricity

who built the dam

the wires

the plastics

the clothes for the workers

who fed them

who raised their food

who raised them

who were their friends

and entertainment

who told them what time it was to go to work

who built their bicycles and their toys

who truly loved them?

it takes way more than a village to raise a child

it takes the Universe

and it has been given us

with literally Everyone working for us

who can possibly be against us?

the Universe is an extremely loving place!!!

did you ever even think to ask

for the mountains, sky, and rivers?

or were they ever present at the moment of your birth?

today we extend gobs and gobs and gobs

of Love

to Everyone and Everything we are

and our deepest gratitude

is given unto God

for this reminder

opening!

who are you

without my story?

what a gift to have this question?

this possibility

in our awareness

now is Joy made ready to jump into our lap!!!!!

this question alone

is all the light we ever need

we accept we are blinded by our own filter

we no longer insist it is reality

we do not have any idea of what we are looking at :-)

we must ask for help!

Heaven gates have opened oh so wide!

joking!

we play with interpretation!

not as work,

but at fun

what is a joke

but playing with interpretation?

a new perception is fun

we would see our "work"

as play and joy and joking around!

now that's what our brothers are really for

"God, help me to see this differently"

is not serious!

we but ask to leave seriousness behind!

don't you get it? :-))))

God

if God is our father

what

are

we?

Live this moment as if it matters!

Live this moment as God!

holy cow!

amazing...

more adventures in the word "stop" :-) (i love the how infinitely playful the Voice for God is!)

shapes have rhythm

we flow smoothly

slinking and swaying through the "s"

then abruptly halt and pause

for space and stillness

at the "t"

the vertical

the wall

we hit the "t"

we see the cross

what does this mean to us?

here at this "t"

this crossroads

of vertical and horizontal

at the four directions

at this birthplace of choice

do we choose to see death/crucifixion

or get off?

do we stay here awhile

or move on with grace

to the pool of clarity below?

the "o"

it invites

this pool of clarity

it is wide open

or is it a steel band?

or

the ring

of eternity?

so many choices

and yet only One

for what is false

does not exist

so only Truth remains

well, what can the "p" show/reflect to us

now?

to remind us to be present?

that round and straight are not opposites

but work together

as one

the circle

simply a bending line....

no difference at all

from this perspective of Truth

fully engaged

fully engaged

i look at the letter "s"

the way it curves,

the little round things at each end,

how curvy it looks next to the tall straight "t"

and then i notice

the joyful fullness of the "o"

so round

bulging

pregnant

whole

like an egg

holding life

holding this amazing potential

and then i see how it has been

attached to a stick to form "p"

just like the old hobo sacks

we used to make as kids--

tying a filled bandana to a stick

and hanging it over our shoulder

wow!

fabulous

amazing

what a gift of joy

all this in the word "stop"

how funny "stop" could hold infinity....:-)

only being fully engaged

will we see all there is to see...

seeing

pause

look at what is right in front of you

see what is

the colors grow richer

and deeper

they draw me in

everyday this is in front of me

i've never seen it like this before

i've never had this experience

i've never appreciated

these colors

forms

relationships

the beauty

like this

i love this is me!

it glows in the sunlight

it is brand new!

beauty is continually blooming

when we stop

to see what is

blossoms

my carpet bloomed!!!!

what a beautiful thought as i came down the stairs

my beautiful new rosy carpet bloomed right in front of my eyes

out of the ashes of the fire.

the old colorless carpet has vanished

and in its place

new life

everything is alive

because it's our thought

and thought is life!

All Power!

for crying out loud!

watch it!

it's amazing!

thoughts

thoughts

thoughts

keep blooming!

(boy am i having fun today....:-)

new song

old song made new....

"...with two cats in the yard,

life used to be so hard,

but now everything is easy

'cuz of meeeeeeee!"

true freedom

i look around my living room

and the meaning is given

coffee table, rug, the room itself

symbols

of God

of Fire in the belly

Truth

space in mind made available

by letting go of old relationships to myself

to my self concept

so a new space was reflected in the world

the new rushes in

to fill the gap

made available by willingness/trust

the coffee table rushes in! :-)

the carpet rushes in!:-)

to this brand new space!

symbols

of mind

the Holy Spirit rushes in

at the tiniest crack of willingness

Love rushes into our mind

to greet us

you darling little child

come

give Mommy a hug and a kiss

i love you with all of my heart

you, Love of my life

today, let's go play

all cares left behind

it's mom and baby

falling in love all over again...

symbols

what do you see?

fireworks!

attraction/distraction

we seek not to attract

but to let go

(of any faulty self concepts)

we seek nothing

but to be who we are

without anything else

(without thoughts of attracting anything!!!!)

to let go of everything we are not

We are God

We are God

We are God!!!

the Universe sparkles inside of us

inner electricity is its own reward

like the fireworks

life

snaps

crackles

and pops

we burst forth

thoughts explode

love and joy abound

and burst forth

into the fresh night air

for the JOYOFALLcreation!

only this is true!

a firework has no thought of attraction

She is completely in the moment

She simply LOVES

is ecstatic

to be Herself

to fly fly fly fly

through space

glowing

sparkling

and squealing :-))))))

with Joy and

deLight

(we see but ourselves....everywhere we look!)

sending all of us

sparkling squealing delight!

J

happy 4th: freedom

art is noticing what is

writing is listening

it says thank you

for the dishes in the sink

the water

the pipes

the flow with a slight movement of hand

how supportive

of my happiness

"your every need will be met"

before you ask, it is given

yes, a cupboard of plates

a drawer of spoons

a heart of gold

a friend of softness

a light in the window

a bed of rest

a thought without effort

a word unannounced

a healing unspoken of

a freedom

just breezed in the door

wisdom ever present in the closets of our mind

ever watching

ever waiting

in silence

behind the shiny outfits

we are awakened before we ever awaken

watching from behind the scenes

a play we wrote so long ago

as kids we made it up

one rainy afternoon

as kids we built the blanket forts

camped out in the yard

and made signals with flashlights

all preparation for adulthood

all things

before you need them

ideas in our mind

forever there

are everything we've ever needed

freedom

all there is

what can possibly hide in light?

if Light is all there is

it must be

nothing can hide

there must be another explanation

and indeed, there is

it must be

you don't see Joy/Light as it is

it's a simple mistake in interpretation

because light must always remains what it is

today i would see the light in all things

i would see all things must be light

if that is all there is

no detail

no detail could be different

i am seeing my thoughts

every crumb

every scrap

jam on my face

is showing me mind

in stillness

i just look

to see the reflection

just as it is

without giving it any meaning

wholly open

in awe

just being

no names

simply looking

born in this instant

not knowing a thing

just waiting to be told

loveliness

Loveliness is always kept safe for you

undisturbable

unchangeable

Loveliness sings

always

to you

Loveliness was given to me

by God

it's my Identity

truly lovely

the Voice for God sings, of course

whispers such sweet, sweet, sweet

funny things

i am completely taken

what could possibly be more "charming"

more attractive

more desirable

than God?

the Master of Love

completely captivating

Total Harmlessness Herself

only Here

can All be known/seen

Loveliness is the highest wisdom

She sees only Loveliness

and so shines evermore lovely

in every moment

blind

Love is here for you right now, Joy

She is sitting on your lap

She has her Arms around you

Her Lips on your face

She adores you

there is nowhere else She would rather be

She watches you

as you get up and walk away

around the room

to the kitchen

to the computer

outside

to other worlds

She goes with you

always

where do you think you are going?

what else could you possibly want?

Love is you

Love is in your face

right now!

call and response

the world is a conversation

we asked an innocent question....is God dead? is there something else besides Happiness?

and right now we are answering it

everything is a call and response to this question

guilt is always a call for the response of innocence/defenselessness

overeating

overdrinking

oversexing

overworking

overthinking

anything that causes

or is an attempt to cover guilt/discomfort

is there to show us the depth of our need for healing

it's helpful

guilt

is the mistake( not the behavior)

it calls for

the correct response/thought

of innocence

our responsibility

is simply to answer

the original question

as God would

break the loop

break the loop!

big time

don't do it!

you don't have to pull the trigger!

don't feed your guilt

pull back on the reins

NOW!

you are the one in control

there is but one rider

in this moment

we break the ancient loop

we pause

we don't react

the way we always have

the way the world would teach us

where our safety lies--

in not being too trusting

in being wary...

don't let anyone take advantage of you,

rip you off

better safe than sorry...

NO MORE!

we give our trust back to God

to our brother

to our Self

to the certainty of Happiness

today we break the loop

of attack

and completely trust

in the unseen

the unknown

the unfamiliar

the illogical

the scariest thing

we have ever done

all hands on deck

honesty is safety

when i repress, bury, hide, neglect, deny, refuse to look at my thoughts and feelings i suffer

we clear the decks

from all the clutter

we could trip over

in an emergency

in our rush to find safety

we but trip and fall over misplaced

mistaken

identities

concepts

masks

that but lay scattered

in our mind

just waiting for us to light on one

for this instant

and hold up to the mirror

for us to suddenly fall in love with

in place of Reality

oh mighty mops of the Holy Spirit

we would bring you out of the closet now

and let you do your work

we would let "love blaze a pathway of itself"

that we might easily and effortlessly find

our freedom

honesty is clean