radiance

i don't need anyone's "approval"

of my radiance!:-))) (girls, listen up!)

nor their appreciation

nor their love

I am so blessed

by my radiance

I love

so much

my radiance

this inner purity

this state of mind

brings me so much joy

it

is

my

true love

it's funny/comical

to even think of using the word

approval

i am overjoyed

in love

with

my radiance,

Jesusmind,

as me/in me

it is but compassion

i have

for anyone

who doesn't see it...

doesn't appreciate it...

and that includes me

when i am

sleeping...

make room

for Heaven

only this

my best friend

defenselessness

holds me so tenderly

in her arms

lays her lips so

gently all over

my body

erases

all traces

of mistakes

She is my dearest friend

defenselessness

opens her arms so wide

to welcome

all

that is

she has no end

to her acceptance

and receiving

her depth is limitless

being wholly without judgement

open

open

open

Open

letting in

allowing

to be

without reaction

watching

ah.....

welcome, brother/thought

welcome, sister/thought

i see you

thank you

for

coming

i've been waiting for you

for such a long time

i am so glad i finally came to my senses

to let

you in

and see

your harmlessness,

your innocence

of a child--

to welcome you

at my table...

O how happy is this day

the homecoming of all thoughts

under the sun

under one roof

no divisiveness

one nation

under God

indivisible

with liberty

and justice

for all

guns at the door

leave your guns at the door

today we rest

in every situation

in every circumstance

we lay down

take off all our clothes

lay down every thought

and simply rest

we let pure Love

hold us

wrap Itself

around us

we let it penetrate

every part of us

we relax

we open

we receive

we accept

Love

in every moment

Love is

have you hugged

your Self

today?

have you

made love

with your Self

today?

that is the purpose

of every single instant!

lay down your guns

at the door....

limp

the body

world

limp

motionless

a puppet

dangling

on

a

string

Love is

empty handed

gifts rain down

upon us

everywhere

only

total effortlessness

complete surrender

of every idea

is

the

multitude

known

you decide for everyone

you cannot make a decision by yourself

or for yourself alone (text276.9.3)

every decision you make

or have ever made

is for everyone

for the whole

when you choose hell

you are actively strengthening/

choosing to keep

the dream of hell

going

for everyone

just like in a family

so in the world

family dynamics:

only two choices,

the attack game--trying to get

something

you believe

you lack

from a family member

or

release!

i own/

take responsibility for

all

my thoughts

and feelings

and experiences

thank you!

for helping me

learn

my innocence

please

forgive me

my mistakes,

my blindspots,

as i learn

to see

what

they

are...

it is not true

that you can make

a decision

for yourself alone

kooky!

"in lightness

and in laughter

will sin's absurdity

be seen

at last" (acim...)

kookiness

remains

as God

created it!!!!:-)

today we celebrate

the kookiness of the

ego thought system...

and

that kookiness

in the hands of the Jolly Spirit

is our freedom

the very idea

that guilt = love,

that sacrifice

loss

and deprivation

are "gifts"

we give to another.....

chow baby!

and goofiness only!

we love

that Kookiness remains

to light up

Life

in a way sacrifice only opposed

kooky

zany

off the wall

goofy!

we thank God in this kooky moment

we are so free

to be as kooky as we wish

and happier than anything "normal"!!!

there is nothing my kookiness cannot do!

take nothing

seriously

in this brand new

kooky

year

love love love,

Joy

talk!

the ego just wants to be heard

and we keep trying to

suppress it

let her speak her doubt

let her

confess

her loneliness

let her

shout

her sins that plague her

day and night

and when she

has finished speaking

silence

will

be

heard

the auditorium

forever unhurt

by the actors

on the stage

simply listen

simply listen

let the words

fall

catch

his words

like a game of catch

he needs you

he needs a receiver

to love

to accept

everything

he is

without judgement

right or happy?

if you choose to make someone wrong,

you will have nothing left

even if he is wrong

about himself

tell him he is right

agree with him

find it

in you

to see his way of looking at things

if he is fearful

deny not what is true for him

see it as a stepping stone

to his way home

and yours

here

you have intersected

on this single stone

only if you desert him now

could he be alone

it is not his dreams you would take from him,

but your own dreams

of rightness

of other

of differences

give it away now

see this brother

is you,

your mirror image,

not one hair changed

you must embrace your terror

before

she will leave

terror demands a hug,

not denial

only a hug

will calm

the beast

seek no more

to be right

give up your right to be right,

and your right to happiness

will return...

you

there is a place in you

where time has gone

and left you beauty

un disturbed

un confused

straightened out

all gaps

in understanding

bridged

there is a place

in you

where beauty

reigns

never fails

to shine

never

not for a

fraction of

an instant

is peace

in question

nor

does beauty

fail

harmony

never

fails

to work

joy is

forever

uncompromising!

her toes

so very light

on the ground

her laughter

as natural

as sunlight

can be heard

all hours

of the day

and night

dancing on

dawn forever

on the horizon...

star light

i

let

the star light

reach

me

i must

open

my windows

for the starlight

to enter

to penetrate

through

me

all defenses

laid aside

only openness

remains

now

the starlight fills it

continuously entering

and traveling on

to all parts of the Universe

lightyears away

here

and extended everywhere

all at once

Bethlehem

Bethlehem

this Child

is your Defenselessness

seek nothing in the world

to place

your faith in

it will fail you

hold on to nothing

for there is nothing here

seek no counterfeit

identity

what higher

function/identity

could you possibly

have

than

the Holy Son of God,

Defenselessness Itself?

there is nothing

more precious

than this

merry Christmas

inner smile

only happiness

can be said to cure

anything else

is a statement of lack

my life

verifies

the truth

light

is

truth

lightheartedness

carries nothing else

but Itself

where ever it goes

and so brings lightheartedness

to every thought

every person

every situation

laughter has no worries

its as natural as can be

like a waterfall

it spills out

in the sun

in the ice

in the clouds

the hottest day of the year

holds as much laughter as the iciest

because

the warmth

is not of this place

deep below

the blankets

of gravity

lies

levity

always

smiling

Mona Lisa

knows

the

joke.....

always ask

Humor

for the

correct interpretation....

and if you can't find any

just wait....

because

it is there

and you will

see it

eventually....

the hunter

the ego is hunting always

for your flaws

we see the hunter

lay down

our arms

and say yes!

here it is!

take what you want

i am Infinite

the more i give to you

the richer i am

i have nothing to hide

so healing

is

inevitable

give whatever anyone asks of you

show all of yourself to them

and so learn

that giving/opening

means only increase

friendship

friendship

rich

gravy

and

the

deepest

darkest

ingredient

buried under all the flavors

a carpet

the twisted

yarn

standing

upright

on the

floor

all night

to keep the cold away

from bare feet

friendship

rests

snoozes

in the

hammock

gently

bouncing

while the feet

run

around

friendship

the

crumbling

dirty

mortar

between

the

bricks

holding

tall towers

in the dark

and

in

damp

dark

cellars

under

moss

and

mold

and

trickling

seeping

moisture

friendship

drying out towels

hanging

in the sun

the breeze

blowing

through them

right between

and

inside

every

thread

of

cotton

no place

un ex posed

to

the

wind

and

the

heat

and

the

music

of

the

drippling

storm

now

soaking

wet

through the wall

breaking

through the wall

the veil

of plaster

just like drywall

in the old bathroom

something unseen

is scraping

through

the fists not mine

are

doing it

yes

something

unseen

but felt

like

i don't have the word

from the inside

it blazes

and charges

and then

it is done

a new view

a higher spire

to peek at

the streets

the comings

and

goings

of thoughts

and colors

and harmonies

and rhythms

and patternings

and repatternings

and repatternings

and repattterningings

like

in the old

kaleideschope ( i like this better.....)...a new....pattern////....lllll.....

laughing

and

laughing

and

laughing

all the way!

measuring love

the ego/personality believes

that love isn't possible without the body/it

it's all about what the body does

or doesn't

do

how much you smile

or call

or email

or shop

or work

how close or how far away in space

how much you touch

and how frequently

and how well :0=-)

love is quantified

you have to prove you love

by your actions

or it's not true:

love is a lie!

Love will not be accepted

as a Fact

until you do this little thing,

like say, "i love you"

carved in stone

the ego's laws state/demand

(oh yes, the ego's "love" is very demanding!)

if you do not say these three words or....

Love does not exist

WOW!!!!!

what a tiny tiny tiny idea

(a tiny mad idea....)

what a shabby

substitute

for

the Real Thing...

for

Infinity

what would you say to God today?

what would you say to God today?

everywhere you look

is your opportunity

whatever you

tell yourself

about it

whatever you say

to others

it is your view of God

looking at you

between the lines

between the lines

from far beyond this thought system

nothing rubs it

nothing scratches it

nothing irritates it

it is so pure

untouchable

invulnerable

it simply comes to shine

so we can see

what we once thought was love

was not

the end

inherent

in the beginning

now

we simply

walk out of the graveyard

leaving death

behind

forever

look In

look in

in

in

in

how can i look inward

while i am looking outside?

what impossible goals

they both become

to have two opposite goals

is to have constant war

constant failure

always unhappy

never achieving anything

nor ever coming any closer

just the hell

of constant

opposition

effort

against itself

no wonder we feel exhausted

war has been our career

today

the soldier

sees his fate

can only be

death

for there is no end to war...

you must choose

one

completely

or war/warrior

is your position

right and crazy....

your defenses hold tight to the shield

and screaming

will not let it go

or lower it

so love can penetrate

God wills you know

your Self

and you

but cling

for fear of death

to your self image

"i can't trust the universe"

is the image we have made

and from inside this image

it is all we can see

but in Reality

no such image exists

You are Everything

There is nothing you do not have

right now

no person

place

or thing

is outside your

affection

appreciation

and approval

we would not

defend against

the Friendliness

of the Universe :-))))

Invite all you see

to open

in the complete safety

of no judgement

against yourself

death

did he actually go

or

did

he

stay?

in my mind

he lives

forever

i met a 25 year old

a few days ago

and my heart

had a dream

of what might have been

had he stayed

he would be 23

but oh

he is so here

in this newer person

i am now

i have lived

not died

he is still

my saviour

from thoughtlessness

he is so a force

a power

in who i am

this moment

did he actually go

or

did

he

stay?

of course

he is here

as me

my heart is open wider

my evolution occurs

with him

my mirror of autism

still

reminding me

to grow

no one

ever

leaves us

it is done

it is not true

you are pitiful,

but such a bright light

and beautiful

you are

but the phoenix

rising from the ashes

oh darling of the Universe

with eyes that see

and ears that hear

and a heart of God

where lives only truth

this

is the wonder you are

not an image made by guilt,

but glory!

is your name

fields of glory!

only this

is you

let no other thought fool you

it is not so

This is but Jesus

and in Jesus mind

there are not two,

but One

only this

this is Life

this is the Wisdom

that speaks to you

day and night

from deep deep deep

within

this is the Presence

of the ages

ever present

no death possible

i have overcome guilt

i did it for you

it is done

i am the Way Shower

i watched it melt away

simply watching

she no longer held any sway

over me

could not persuade me

to jump

on her wagon

to worship her

to believe

she held out anything

i wanted

i saw through her

to the other side

to what was beyond

what life is without her

and no more

did she exist...

only Clarity

crystal ball

people take off

their masks

the instant

you do

the mirror

is a fact

watch yourself

as you

look

around...

here is everything

you could ever want to know

about yourself!!!

generosity exposed

generous:

far far far more

than just enough

generate: create

opening:

i am able

to receive

opening

the world reflects/i perceive

openness

open heart

open mind

open hands

open pockets

generosity of spirit experiences generosity of spirit

the bars are gone

nothing between us

at last

i hold no stake at your throat

because

i hold no stake at mine

there is only One Way to See

things in the Light

everything is totally exposed

Truth is totally exposed

Love is exposed

at last

under the pain

under the covers

of war

and deprivation

scarcity

of you and me

under the illusion of divorce

and the continual scraping of old wounds

that never seem to heal

Love is exposed at last

the ancient river of blood

has gone dry

for where it came from

was darkness

and as the door of my mind

and heart

opened

wider

and wider

and wider still

the Son

could find

no more places

to hide

fully exposed

at last...

we laugh!

at last

at last

i am filled

defenselessness is my drink

the absolutely sweetest drink in all the world

here is no attack at all ever

no fear

absolutely clear water

not one microscopic impurity

nowhere the light isn't

under what seems to be everything else

lies defenselessness

perfectly still

nothing else can possibly hold any attraction at all

behind everything you ever think you want

lies defenselessness

where all suffering is completely washed away

come

lay down

all your homemade recipes

for sweets

and desserts

defenselessness

continues

to rise

and hold open

your mind

God is

we are

filled

at last

emptied of all

that never was

stillness watches

stillness watches

all things

without judgement

stillness sees only stillness

wholeness

the necessity of every small part

in relation to the whole

this moment in time

this change of thought

this "lesson"--seeing it is not so....

everything

in service to the Light

oh dear Master

of my Soul

Who is in charge

and is asking me in every moment

is that true?

the Wisewoman Spiritkeeper within

always there,

"is that what's really going on?"

her holy eyes know

and see

of course

it is not

a grocery store

a date

a beach

a cat

but a question

of truth....

what are you?

Spirit

or

flesh?

and from the Depths

the Answer

always

echoing

echoing

echoing

Home

Home

Home

remember

your Home....

stillness

bargains

what bargain

can take the place of God?

something for nothing

is a plan of guilt--

stealing

and so hell

and damnation

i give nothing,

but take what you have

poverty thinking

demands poverty be maintained

a black hole

but wills to suck in

no comfort can ever be found here

this is the dream

that must be recognized

for what it is

death can never

bear life

and

you are not dead

crucifixion is only an idea

in your mind

an error in your perception

of Reality

Joy being the Source of Creation,

where can crucifixion be found?

Joy but holds out her hands to you

She wills but to touch

your Heart

so gently

so lightly

the Hush of Heaven

is all

you

ever

hear....

and so

it is

through the eyes of a fool

what is lunacy,

luna see?

but to see the light

shining

in the darkness

and the path that is our own

primitive societies,

pre-civilized,

called their

strange thinkers

strange seers

but shaman

seeing the world through

the eyes of a lunatic

someone whose axis

is shifted just a few more degrees

than average

is to see everything

from a new perspective

looking in through an open window

instead of looking out

from inside the mind of the dreamer

sleep is revealed

what is strangeness

but a different point of view(ing)

habit eats breakfast everyday at a table

sitting down

never

experiencing

what it is

to sit

on a cloud...

rising indeed from the bedcovers

and instead of placing bare feet

on to the cold stone floor

the fool unfolds her wings

and is lifted

without effort

to break her fast

in the clear blue sky

high above the level of all problems

with a vista

that bends

around

all curves...

rotation

of the mind

must occur

for a full

view

of

reality...

this is the

revolution

inside

each

of

us

slowly

slowly

slowly

we turn....

Mount Self

the mountain emerges

from under the snow

feel the massive movement

within your mind

yes, truth rises

again

like no other

tiny idea

Truth fills the scene

the Mountain

holds it all

all else rests upon this

mountain

whereupon the commandments

live

there is but God,

no other gods are possible

this

is the mountain

i am

simply Light

without anything else

at all

aromatherapy

Truth is true

there are no alternatives

no different "rooms"

no body of you

different

from the body of this

and the body of that

containers partway filled--

some more

some less

but always holding

different

ingredients

Only Truth is true

each bottle

overflowing

with

the same Life

filling the air

with

the delicious aromas

that do ignite

our fire

and make it grow

brighter

the aroma of Truth

even without our awareness

it is all

there

ever

is

Joy is open

Joy opens wide her door

and here is Eternity at last

Heaven's gate

has never been closed

no fence at all exists

the truth is seen at last

imaginary thoughts

are not real

Holiness is the only judgement

that is true

earth quakes

the earth

quivers

and shakes

quakes

the towers

crumble

and fall

the world is rocked

where fear has tiptoed away

what remains

where fear has gone?

no hard fast rules

no nets for catching people up

no entrapment

nothing to trip up on

only

crystal clarity

sparkling in the sun

perhaps at first

we have to squint

because our eyes are so used to

dark thoughts and deception

drawn blinds

but now

there is no denying it

any longer

birds do sing in our hearts all day long

unstoppable

and the Light

of constant Joy

is not a figment

of our imagination...