holy answers
the whole answer
has never left our mind
today i request eternity
the eternal
which is already always mine
joy is constant
or it is not joy
memories:
the so incredibly sweet smell (i wrote smile at first, which also is lovely)
of alfalfa
on an early morning walk
along some narrow country road
the shiny melting reflections
of colored lights
on cement
as rain falls at a truck stop
the smell of gasoline
the deep low vibrating song
of a cow
mooing
and
me
breathing
thinking
feeling
taking this in
through joy
because only joy
can accept
such goodness!
and suicide
a dead body
in the same picture
i ask
where is the joy in this?
the joy behind it?
that i couldn't see at the time
and now
i do see
perfect joy
willing to show herself to me
a bad haircut
was not enough for me
to recognize the futility
the uselessness
of my own thinking
joy said,
i will get right to the point
let's waste no more time on this:
your thinking is taking you nowhere
all your current thinking
is worshipping this thought
of
suicide
here i am
in your face
because
i love you so much!
i want to give you
the greatest gift i know,
i want to give you freedom
from this constant mistake,
the thought of death
lack
judgement
see joy now,
see what you believe
and the end of suffering
is now
joy is constant
or it is not joy
the only mistake you ever think
is to think joy can pause
oh dearest child
it is not so
your joy
all joy
is
unceasing
murder is but to show you
your mistake
when we ignore a whisper
the universe will shout,
watch out!
for that car!
stop!
(thinking that way....!)
you'll get hit!
joy is constant
or it is not joy
our nature of joy
cannot leave...
ever