now

what are you waiting for?

are you in terror/denial of your Infinite Beauty?

what if you just put it out there? 

now

all of it

everywhere you could

in everyway?

no blocks

no excuses

no story

just express the Infinite Beauty!!!

no more drama

let the ego die

let the Beauty  reign!

let the terror happen

go for it anyway

everywhere

Give only this:

Everything

and Everything 

is yours

now!

my biggest mistake

my biggest mistake 

is that most of the time

i think i know something

i think 

i am 

a woman

human

body

American

53

friend

Joy Schultz

daughter....

hair

jogger

teacher

drawer

anxious

hungry

sincere

blogger

honest

asleep

procrasinator

afraid

happy

playful

rejected

at one

passionate

friendly

fearful

doubtful

uncertain

selfish

singer

hopeless

excited

wavering

introspective

special

am i kidding myself????!

i know nothing!

i am absolutely blind

and unaware of it most of the time!!!

WOW!!!

here is the end of the road

i come to the place of drop off...

 everything i thought

behind...

i place one toe

into the unknown

the unimagined

the nowhere

wholly empty (of the ego and everything)

carrying nothing

the only way

here

is 

the 

bridge

the unseen

here

is everything of value

everything i ever truly wanted

and more....

Face of God

How could I know?

while anything else

was in my sight...

Come, give God a Hug

only the insane with guilt

would choose specialness

instead of the Love of God

in terror of punishment

they seek but a tiny illusion

of reprieve

that only binds them tighter

to the mistaken illusion of guilt

the terrorized are not thinking rationally

stop running

you ran with that idea of guilt

stop now, child

be still

breathe

honey

sweetheart

sssh...

so long ago

we go back in time...

come,

 put your dear head/thoughts on My Shoulder

i would comfort you

sssssshhhhhh....

just  rest

you have been running a very long time

you are tired

i will give you drink

here

is the clearest of water

he leadeth me beside

the perfectly still 

water--without anything else

he restoreth my soul

i will dwell

in this house

of

Love

Joy

Reality

Sanity

Truth

ever

now

only insanity could 

think the Source of Life Itself

is  destructive  by nature

Extension is not contraction

Joy ever wills to bloom

in technicolor!

a smile is not

a sign of grief

amen,

J

impartial

the Holy Spirit is impartial:

sees the whole picture

your Holiness

the Innocence in us 

cannot see anything else

Joy can't waste time

on nothing

Joy sees value

only in Joy

who would choose to mope

instead of dance to that fabulous music?

who would bind up his body like a mummy

instead of ride a bike or swim in the ocean

or fly like a bird?

who would die up his own happiness--

bind her to a tree

when she could put her hands

on her daughter's face

and dry her tears?

Oh Joy!

we but rejoice

and give thanks

that our true nature

is to dance!

promises

to promise

to love someone

is a denial of what love is

and keeps us distracted from the real thing

love is not an act

that can be started and stopped

and it must include everyone and everything

it's not a doing

but a being

it's what we are

forever and ever

unchangeable

we  did not create it

we cannot destroy it

we all remain forever

what we are

here is all peace

conception

it is not possible for anything in the world

 to ever satisfy a mind that believes in lack.

the concept of lack remains what it is.

a concept cannot be filled

the only answer

 is a brand new

 very different concept: wholeness

before your sister's wholeness 

the world disappears beneath your feet

before your sister's wholeness

 the world disappears from your desire

there is nothing else to want

who could want a temporary thing that is soon to fall apart

in place of the endless Joy we truly are?

who would possibly choose anything 

over complete release from guilt and self attack?

who would not choose ecstasy over the denial of it?

who would choose isolation over Reality--that we love to laugh,

we love to hug

we love to see God in our brother?

there is no one on the face of this earth

who would choose to be betrayed

rather than be loved truly

today we give true Love to ourself

we joyfully give

our true Identity back to our Self

and see  truly the concept of betrayal/lack/loss

is a joke.

mirror

i simply mirror your dance step

stepping away

we move apart

more space between us

open space

space opens up 

inside me

i follow your lead

i agree with you

give you

exactly what you desire

to see

it is the only possibility

consistency

as i see you wander off

i am standing here

whole

intact

completely free to be

to sing

to remain

exactly all i am

strong

whole 

 healed

unbroken

one with the world

one with myself

the ice cream truck drives away

the popsicle was delicious

now i run to play at the creek

grateful

for all the good in the world

the devil

the "devil"

is the thought that we need 

to get something

here is the cause of all war

all hatred

all greed

all scarcity

all self hatred

it is not true

it is only a thought

an untrue thought

we do not need to get

we need  only to let go of this thought

sssssshhhhhh...

be still a moment

Here is all peace

here is the answer to every problem

there is nothing to get

only something to let go of

i let go of the thought i need to get something

and i let God be

it is an illusion we have believed:

we upset ourselves

by screaming it at ourselves 

and crying and moaning

it is a lie

we need nothing

we are enthusiasm

we are light

and joy

and peace

it's what we ARE

there is nothing we need to get

i loose the world of all i thought it was

i loose myself of all i thought i was

finally,

peace

true joy

i absolutely don't want to think/believe i  ever  want  to change anyone or anything help me wake up from that dream/illusion i just want to remember I AM JOY!!! this is truly Everything i want what could possibly be better than this? here is all Happiness/all Freedom now I love Joy with all my Heart :-)))))) this is my only function!! i love Reality!!!!

Power Full Joy

Joy is the Power of the Universe--

the only Power of the Universe

when you deny it not

All Power is

All Joy is your experience

we are here 

only to be truly

joyful

Joy need not worry

what to say

where to go

what to say 

or to whom

Joy will tell you exactly

what to do

where to go

what to say and to whom

Joy simply bursts forth

fountains

grows

blossoms

constantly

with Joy and beauty and grace

up in the trees

down at the creek

in the middle of I-25

or Park Meadows mall

Joy is shining with all Her might!!!!

tenderly

today we continue

with/for/supporting/loving/attending 

tending to the garden

the soil (the natural resource)

of our mind...

from which all grows

we lovingly approach it

take in the earthy aroma

the rich texture

we gently hold a clump of soil

in our hands

and check in with its consistency--

is it moist enough to hold together,

or is more more water/flow/flexibility called for?

perhaps more air, more light, more space...?

a loosing up of "clods"?

are there tiny rocks and debris from old projects

calling to be removed?

so  cour tenderest new thoughts can 

easily grow

without any gap of nourishment?

Oh happiness!

oh garden of happy thoughts!

every morning

would i come to you

to appreciate the life here

the nourishment

 all the scents

colors

and tastes

of Joy

without loving attention

my Self-awareness dies away--

a barren parking lot

when i return

no place of joy

to hang out in

to soak up 

under the trellis

no haven

in my heart

today i tend to my Self

with the most loving care

all that i give

is truly given to myself

and all that i don't give

is everything

that i seem to be missing

(singing)

"shower the people you love with love,

yes, and show them the way that you feel...

things are gonna be much better...

if you only will..." (James Taylor....:-)))

and we always

start with ourself :-)

growing up

growing up

saying good-bye to childish thoughts

they let go of us

we can't make them leave

(fighting with our children

only brings on a tantrum)

they grow up

mature

simply and naturally

and see things differently

childish toys/idols are left behind

the blanket that held so much security,

so much approval

 specialness

and security

is simply forgotten

it no longer holds any attraction

the pacifier loses its luster

 we realize 

that peace 

is of the  mind--

only of the mind,

and not of the body

we see no thing in this world

could possibly pacify

our  mind

growing up

we remember

Pure Joy

is already given

now

joy is bigger

Joy is bigger than me :-)))))

Joy doesn't care 

what your story is

how long you have suffered

or how special, difficult and convinced

you are that you are right

Joy sees none of it

Joy sees no obstacles

She is only Herself

Bigger than this world

bigger than me

bigger than you

bigger than anyone

Joy rises to every occasion

she dances literally on every gravestone

as death is seen to be the nothingness it is

Joy shines through the heaviest of fog

eternally

now

brighter than She's ever been

and I love Her with all  of my Heart

"there is one thought in particular that

should be remembered throughout the day.

It is a  thought of pure joy;...a thought of limitless

release, limitless because all things are freed in it." (p41m)

not in a million years!

Truth is Absolute.

period.

there are no conditions

there are no ""ifs"

Truth simply remains

always

forever

You: "you remain radiant as a star,

pure as light,

innocent as love itself" (p?)

Infinite Joy

is what you are

nothing else is possible

"if" is a nap

"if" is a sign you are nodding off....

if....God weren't God....

we think....and I was....

the snoring has begun

"if only"...we hypothesize about a million tiny things....

not in a million years!!!!

save yourself a million years  of heartache right now

it will never work

God is Absolute

 We are Infinite Joy right now

if only

"if only"

are fighting words

a fighting thought

an attack up reality/yourself

if x was different, reality/life would be better

we are seeing through illusions eyes

whenever we think the word/thought "if"

reality is wholly perfect

from the viewpoint inside God

perfect peace, joy, love, laughter

there is no thought of "better"

we are so happy now

so full

so undenied

to be totally happy

is  to be totally undenied

the thought "if" is a neon sign

we are in denial of what we are

when we are truly in love

there are no ifs

there is only ecstatic love

thinking "if" comes from a very small viewpoint

it only has so much

a small set amount

and can't afford to lose

anything

it counts its change carefully

and says it will pay,

i will trade you this small thing

if you will give me that small thing

and we all remain tiny

God knows no "ifs"

God is everywhere all the time

Love is always maximal

abounding

infinite

more than we can imagine

overflow

overflow

overflow

rushing to us

gushing in our hearts

no one in the world really hates ecstasy

and that's what we believe every time we think "if"

we have denied the infinite ecstasy we are

instead of "if"

we are overflowing with gratitude

crystal clarity sees only itself

there is nothing here that doesn't sparkle

and nothing we would desire to change

you better start kissing me!

(today a guest speaker: our dearest self, Hafiz)

you better start kissing me

throw away 

all your begging bowls at God's door,

for i have heard the Beloved

prefers sweet threatening shouts,

something on the order of:

"hey, Beloved,

my heart is a raging volcano 

of love for you!

you better start kissing me--

or else!"

:-)))))))))))))))))))!!!

unconstrict it

Love is not personal

it gives itself 

to everyone and everything

sees itself in everyone

and everything

there is nowhere possible

that Love doesn't see itself

if you don't see Love somewhere

take the constriction off your own mind

let Love circulate again

to every part of you

--your thinking

take off the bandage...

it's way too tight!

for Love

Let Love be

what it is...

button pushing

where do you stab yourself?

what is it that gets your most

emotional gut reaction--

where you want to kill?

now, see it for what it is

isn't it the best strongest defense

argument

witness

evidence

trick

tool

case

story

illusion

to try to convince you that you are a body?

be glad now

that we can see it for what it is

not truth,

but a trick of the mind

we've been playing

on ourself

to convince us we are not

what we are

thank God for Light

thank God for Grace!

the God in us is never hurt

never touched

never changes

God in us remains unmoved

stillness never moves

light is always light

Joy is a state of mind

not a condition of the body--any kind of form

 mind is always mind

think not you are a body!

ever

no matter how blissful

or savage 

is the seeming evidence

only Joy will ever satisfy

i don't know how

Help me, Father

i don't know how

nor what to do

take this from me,

 this constant aching 

for something outside myself

to fill me

i don't want it

i would be done with it

and immediately the Answer is given

this Joy you seek

 is in you already

it is you

the relationship you seek 

is in you

it is a very valid desire

to seek for this ecstatic Joy

we instinctively know

 from our  deepest core

it exists

and we would return to it

it is simply a mistake

to search for it

outside 

our Self

there is no problem

there is nothing to fear

I am pure Joy

and incredibly grateful

without self doubt...

who would i be if i was incapable of self doubt?

i would be a flower

so delicate

so gentle

so beautiful

just being what it is

no need to go anywhere

do anything

get anything

simply

being

beauti-full

having no purpose

but to be fully what it is

more than enough

and no possibility

ever crossing my  mind

that I'm not

what I am...

God Dance

this is the God dance

every thought a movement

flowing one to another

all thoughts of God

our thinking dances

stretches

circles

repeats

pounces

sways

OPENS

kicks

sashays

prances

and so gently taps in rhythm with all thoughts of Love

we would no more be frozen

 in one position of the body

than we would freeze/attach ourselves 

to one specific form of anything in this world

every possibility in time and space is a blessing!

let go 

let go 

let go

let go

let go!

hold on to nothing!

question your version of Reality/reality

we remain the dancer, not the dance

forever whole

whether leaping on the mountain top

or crawling on our hands and knees in the gutter

what i am is invisible

always the same

and always here

nothing is "mine"

it's all the dance

Yes

i say Yes! to me

and i am surrounded by mirrors

doing exactly the same thing!

they face toward me, not away

with a big smile in their mind

fully engaged

fully interested

fully willing

wholly happy

and we all say YES!

together

One Voice

and we laugh

simultaneously

without a moment's 

hesitation!

God is our Source

Everything starts and ends here

we cannot see apart from our mind

come

just watch it

don't fight it

is it true?

even that sick feeling is doing it's job

is helpful

it loves you

it is communication

of you

with you

just stop

and be with it!

hold the child on your lap

just be

 

just embrace her

no where to go

no thing to do

look at her

look deep in her eyes

see her pain

and hold her

accept her

up on your lap

let her lay her head 

on your heart

but a moment

all she wants  is a smile

a moment of your time

your attention

feel it

feel the LOVE

ownership

stress is always a lie!

and it's always about

not giving love

to  myself

or someone else

Love is our nature

denial of our nature hurts

it doesn't matter what anyone else does

or what the situation is

there is nothing anyone else

can ever do 

to make me happy 

or unhappy

to love myself 

or not

is strictly

between me

and myself

and here is where ALL happiness exists

happy mother's day to all of us!

let us celebrate  

 adore

 caress

and cherish

the holy innocence we all are

cancer free!

the cancer is gone!!!

but we don't believe it!

it's already done for us!!!

and we  don't believe it

it's not true

we see only the past

we're still telling ourselves we're guilty

we're looking back on it

from the End

wholly forgiven

from Sanity

from Clarity

I still am

Sanity looks upon it and sees it is not so, not true....

we are acting and thinking like we are really separate from God

we lose the weight, but still think like we used to...

we learn a new skill, but still perceive ourselves the way we used to...

because of  an old image

old thought patterns

the mind keeps replaying

the mind hasn't changed...

even though it has been proved to the contrary!

unconciously 

something doesn't believe it

something desires to suffer

this something

needs educating!!!!

so we teach this self, it is not so,

and that self cannot help but come along

when it sees such joy!!!!

we connect the two parts

in experience

now 

we let new images

new experiences

new actions

new thoughts

BE

we cherish them

we give them our time

and attention

we LOVE ON THEM!!!!!!

 we sit  with them on the sofa

and open completely 

to this total bliss

we massage them....:-))))

we let peace and trust

and quiet 

and oneness

and enthusiasm

be one with us

where it already IS

our thinking is cancer free

Only Joy is our deepest Love

Only this is true

speed limit

writing helps to educate the mind

it gives it a new experience

it slows it down

so it can really look

at one thing

we love to open the window

on one thing--

 one thought at a time

without writing

thoughts shoot by

literally faster than bullets

they whiz

unseen

out of our awareness

and produce form and actions

that seem to have no connection to us

electrons are very hard to see

thoughts are even faster!!!

if you are really really really seeking an answer

try writing  down your question...

...i do not know what this pencil is really for....:-)))

still wagging

"we travel light and journey lightly" (p?)

we light upon thoughts, ideas

they sit quietly

and patiently

waiting

like a cat or dog

on the hearth

waiting for her owner

to come home

we open the door of our mind

and there they are

gladly welcoming us

wagging their tails

rubbing our leg

purring with deep contentment  

we see them

we touch them

embrace them

our heart warms and melts 

we relax

and appreciation happens

without effort on our part

we did not create these warm loving ideas

nor ourselves 

they simply are

love is

the Love we are just loves

we were born that way

and the Universe 

being the same as us

does the same

It rushes out to greet us!

"welcomes us,

sings our praises,

and rejoices

that we came" ...p?

there is no where we can go to escape 

our true nature

we've all tried a 1000 million different ways,

but it hasn't worked :-)))))))!

God's tail is still wagging.....in us :-)

He doesn't care what story you tell....

He loves You!!!!

and so do I!

"Open the Holy place that you closed off

by valuing "something else" 

and what was never lost

will quietly return. 

It has been saved for you." t441

free fall

"Father, I do not know the way to you,

but you do know the way to me...."(p?)

go ahead!!!!

JUMP!!!!

off the cliff!!!!!!

free fall!

with God

fullness

lightness

wholeness

free fall!

into the idea of Love :-)

let everything else go

hold onto no thing!

and complete trust is yours

only this will ever fully satisfy

only this will ever hold you up

only this will ever fully fill your heart to overflowing

here is the end of all doubt

no possibility of turning back

of leaning on some old illusion of security

free fall!

falling freely away from the old old old illusions of life

quickly

effortlessly

we don't do it!

we simply jump!

like a kid

into our Daddy's Arms!

strength

might

wisdom

protection

power

HOME!

beyond rich

no one who loves

can judge (t441)

i am so incredibly rich

everything is mine

i own it!!!!

everything is me

what a mind!

what a heart!

everything is for me

has a very very loving purpose

it would show me only love

this is the purpose of the world!!!

soup

it's all

 just a thought

 being 

acted out

everywhere we look

we see our very own heart

is this what we would be?

our desire held before us speaks

oh me!

what wonder is this

to meet myself

in this way

oh my

what abundance you are

how very many images can show me myself

can show me love and beauty 

or lack and scarcity

oh my my  my MY!

mountains and rivers

women and men

insects and sky

paychecks and blankets

and cans of soup!!!

all show me my heart!

thank you dear world

how intimate is this...

we sleep with cans of soup :-)

everything is our love

they do indeed show us 

the very deepest part of ourself

being nothing of themselves

they simply whisper

over and over and over to us

the innersmost stirrings of our heart

here is true intimacy

nothing between me 

and myself