cancer free!

the cancer is gone!!!

but we don't believe it!

it's already done for us!!!

and we  don't believe it

it's not true

we see only the past

we're still telling ourselves we're guilty

we're looking back on it

from the End

wholly forgiven

from Sanity

from Clarity

I still am

Sanity looks upon it and sees it is not so, not true....

we are acting and thinking like we are really separate from God

we lose the weight, but still think like we used to...

we learn a new skill, but still perceive ourselves the way we used to...

because of  an old image

old thought patterns

the mind keeps replaying

the mind hasn't changed...

even though it has been proved to the contrary!

unconciously 

something doesn't believe it

something desires to suffer

this something

needs educating!!!!

so we teach this self, it is not so,

and that self cannot help but come along

when it sees such joy!!!!

we connect the two parts

in experience

now 

we let new images

new experiences

new actions

new thoughts

BE

we cherish them

we give them our time

and attention

we LOVE ON THEM!!!!!!

 we sit  with them on the sofa

and open completely 

to this total bliss

we massage them....:-))))

we let peace and trust

and quiet 

and oneness

and enthusiasm

be one with us

where it already IS

our thinking is cancer free

Only Joy is our deepest Love

Only this is true

speed limit

writing helps to educate the mind

it gives it a new experience

it slows it down

so it can really look

at one thing

we love to open the window

on one thing--

 one thought at a time

without writing

thoughts shoot by

literally faster than bullets

they whiz

unseen

out of our awareness

and produce form and actions

that seem to have no connection to us

electrons are very hard to see

thoughts are even faster!!!

if you are really really really seeking an answer

try writing  down your question...

...i do not know what this pencil is really for....:-)))

still wagging

"we travel light and journey lightly" (p?)

we light upon thoughts, ideas

they sit quietly

and patiently

waiting

like a cat or dog

on the hearth

waiting for her owner

to come home

we open the door of our mind

and there they are

gladly welcoming us

wagging their tails

rubbing our leg

purring with deep contentment  

we see them

we touch them

embrace them

our heart warms and melts 

we relax

and appreciation happens

without effort on our part

we did not create these warm loving ideas

nor ourselves 

they simply are

love is

the Love we are just loves

we were born that way

and the Universe 

being the same as us

does the same

It rushes out to greet us!

"welcomes us,

sings our praises,

and rejoices

that we came" ...p?

there is no where we can go to escape 

our true nature

we've all tried a 1000 million different ways,

but it hasn't worked :-)))))))!

God's tail is still wagging.....in us :-)

He doesn't care what story you tell....

He loves You!!!!

and so do I!

"Open the Holy place that you closed off

by valuing "something else" 

and what was never lost

will quietly return. 

It has been saved for you." t441

free fall

"Father, I do not know the way to you,

but you do know the way to me...."(p?)

go ahead!!!!

JUMP!!!!

off the cliff!!!!!!

free fall!

with God

fullness

lightness

wholeness

free fall!

into the idea of Love :-)

let everything else go

hold onto no thing!

and complete trust is yours

only this will ever fully satisfy

only this will ever hold you up

only this will ever fully fill your heart to overflowing

here is the end of all doubt

no possibility of turning back

of leaning on some old illusion of security

free fall!

falling freely away from the old old old illusions of life

quickly

effortlessly

we don't do it!

we simply jump!

like a kid

into our Daddy's Arms!

strength

might

wisdom

protection

power

HOME!

beyond rich

no one who loves

can judge (t441)

i am so incredibly rich

everything is mine

i own it!!!!

everything is me

what a mind!

what a heart!

everything is for me

has a very very loving purpose

it would show me only love

this is the purpose of the world!!!

soup

it's all

 just a thought

 being 

acted out

everywhere we look

we see our very own heart

is this what we would be?

our desire held before us speaks

oh me!

what wonder is this

to meet myself

in this way

oh my

what abundance you are

how very many images can show me myself

can show me love and beauty 

or lack and scarcity

oh my my  my MY!

mountains and rivers

women and men

insects and sky

paychecks and blankets

and cans of soup!!!

all show me my heart!

thank you dear world

how intimate is this...

we sleep with cans of soup :-)

everything is our love

they do indeed show us 

the very deepest part of ourself

being nothing of themselves

they simply whisper

over and over and over to us

the innersmost stirrings of our heart

here is true intimacy

nothing between me 

and myself

radical enthusiasm

enthusiasm sparkles

 rejoices

 hops

skips

jumps

slaps the ground in playful joy

take that!

you beautiful thing upon which i walk! :-)))

take that, sky!

take that, tree!

take that, you man

 who cries out in his imagined pain!

oh you love,

that cannot be hidden!

we meet now

we join,

only this!

Ahhh!

amazing grace

amazing gratitude!

rapture

spunk

enthusiasm

radical enthusiasm!

enthusiasm is  completely without harm

it is %100 for everything

it is an unsoiled idea

love has grown murky in our mind

clouded by illusions and deception

enthusiasm is wholly without opposition in our mind

it needs no object

we feel it

we glow

it lights the enthusiasm in our brothers and grows in us 

just by its presence

there is nothing our enthusiasm cannot do

there is nothing else when enthusiasm is

enthusiasm : (en theos) God within

is the answer to everything

it is the power of God

doubt is impossible within enthusiasm

we dreamed we gave our enthusiasm to death, to murder, to pain,

and being %100,

 we enthusiastically gave our belief to it

we love it

we cherish it

and we deny it

get honest

enthusiastically!

if you want to kill someone

don't lie

irritation is a lie to keep your enthusiastic devotion to death hidden from you

so you can suffer

and keep the suffering going

you can delay in your denial

of your hatred

addiction is actually a shortcut

it shows us quickly where we are headed

and what could have taken  us a very long time to see

if we acted out our poison in small spread out doses

instead of overdosing all at once.

there is no small hate

no small projection

we love God %100:

enthusiasm

or we love death %100:

enthusiasm

enthusiasm

is not wishy washy

enthusiasm is always %100 (duality does not exist in enthusiasm)

wishy washy

indecision

apathy

is denial of enthusiasm

our  devotion

to the death of God/Joy

go for it

%100 !!! 

 we already have

it is our nature...

we are powerful beyond our conception...

whatever it is you think/believe you want

you must go for it

until you 

see  the result

 and find out if it is the real thing you are looking for

or 

nothing

truth is restored to you through your desire to see the harmless

enthusiasm is completely without harm/opposition

it is always for everything

herein lies the peace of God