no mistake

there are no accidents

no mistakes

it is impossible that we could have done a single thing differently

given our belief

our behavior is inevitable

one with our thought

a mind identified as body must do body things

a mind identified as Love must be happy

behavior is a distraction

all Freedom, Joy, Peace

is

Thought

we own the Universe

no mistake

about it

pre-recorded

we don't take the ego thought system seriously

because

it's a pre-recorded message

it reacts the same way to everything....

it's never enough

in the end, god damn it!

it's not alive

it's not concious

there's no real thought in it

nothing new can ever come of it

would you really believe

listen to

and react to

a talking doll?

next time you are tempted....

remember

it's a pre-recorded message

all you did was push the button again

safe or happy?

do you want to be safe

or happy?

i had a very vivid dream last night

right at the edge of a beautiful golden cliff

overlooking incredibly beautiful sparkling water

far far below

there's a glider or something that i can hang onto

and fly out into the sky

away from the cliff

into an experience of freedom and beauty and height and breadth

and i know this is a choice

between holding onto fear (safety/the ground)

or

letting go of fear (happiness)

i am certain that if i fear

i will sink

i will drop

immediately

if i am without fear

i will remain completely capable

of soaring freely

solidly upheld

filled with wonder and joy

in this ecstatic moment

a gift far beyond the ordinary (safety)

is ancient "safety"

really more fabulous

than present joy?

realistic

Love is Source

we reSource ourself

giving back

what we denied

to remember

is to reSource

ever re-Source-full

we are always able

to fully recover Source

Power-filled

our natural reSources are infinite (not finite! not finished.....never ending.....ever increasing....expanding...extending....

we need not clearcut anyone or anything

we need never take or get

still part of Source

our nature is infinitely Joyfull

overflowing

cannot possibly be contained

or detained

even for an instant

it is unrealistic

to think we could ever get

anything by taking

it is but a statement of lack

that can produce nothing but more of itself

it is unrealistic to think

a thought of lack

could bring happiness and fullness

it is unrealistic to think

anyone could ever give you more

than you already have

here is all freedom!

i am

that i am

my life is what i am

no one

no thing

can ever

substitute

for

me

we are

as Love created us

Love is Source

of everything!

ignite!

what would Joy do?

what would a mind do

that was completely without fear?!

oh, honey!

she would dance dance dance!!!

and sing!

all around the room

lighting fires everywhere she went!

effervescent news!

stop everything for just a minute!

do you realize this is a day of and for Paradise!

absolutely no more waiting

not one second

now is here

the moment we have all been waiting for

you can have anything you want

what would you give yourself today?!

right now?

Go wild!

How much God are you willing to accept?

how much happiness will you give yourself?

how much love will you give to yourself today?

heap it on!

way over the top

go completely far and beyond what you ever considered

possible!

see it

feel it

it is real

it is what we are

it is true

i love this!!!

i love sharing this!!!!

i love

that all power in Heaven and earth is us

for our eternal Joy!!!!

i give all of us happiness beyond our wildest

imagination right now!

we are free

and so it is

One

today i watch my concepts

is it true?

am i hurt?

am i a body?

am i lacking?

all the same concept

who am i without that concept?

free

me

i am not a body

there are not two "mes"

i am the watcher

completely whole and at peace

forever

let me stay Home today

and remember i am simply watching a movie

let me remember

i am Joy

let me laugh

at any other idea

let me laugh at my ideas of

bank robbers

thieves

bandits

good guys and bad

villains

and superheros

and "damsels in distress" :-)

oh, most Loving God of All that IS

my deepest truest desire is to

remember

there is

just

One

completion

we see only the past

all past learning

past associations

memories

friendships

all relationships...

we know nothing of them

everything is brand new in this moment

nothing has gone before

we would open our eyes/mind today

for the first time

and see

what really is

truly Infinity is everywhere

depth and meaning

grace and beauty

so vast

we need not look far and wide

indeed, don't

we but place our eyes

give

our love

and attention

to but the one tiniest thing

closest to us

and see

how it holds

all we really need

all God is

when we give it our Love

it is complete

and we see

that all we ever thought

was lacking

was but so patiently

and innocently waiting

to receive our love

vision

is

completion

stairway to Heaven

do you ever think you are going nowhere?

up and down?

around in circles?

back and forth?

making no real progress at all?

do you ever feel like you are losing ground?

starting over after many years of work?

having setbacks and delays?

like you will never get it?

little child,

it is not so

there is only upward

your experience is truly but a stairway to Heaven

every step

every thought

every trial

good or bad

happy, sad

intense with rage or fear

but brings you closer

to the Face of God

judge not where you are on the path

if you judge anything as but upward,

it is not true

God's Love is too intense

to let a child wander alone in the dark

without His Help

everpresent

For time does stand still

and only waits for us

to get off the elevator

and see

that it

is so.

it's over

special

specific

concrete

hard

separate

breakable

ego identification

with

body

body

body

body

body

personality

the past

curtain

today we celebrate to see it's just a painted curtain!

what a trick!

how amazing we could do this to ourselves

our own mind could devise a way to fool us

to put up a scene

"out there"

for us to look upon

and glue our attention to it

like an incredibly powerful

magnet

under the power of our own hypnosis

we couldn't take our eyes/mind

off the body

the world

the fear

for more than an instant

we thank God that's all that's needed

for us to see the whole game

from a different perspective

we thank God

from the depths of our soul

and unto Eternity

that Reality is not this trick

and that we are on to it.

today we would remember

as we look around

we are not bodies

we are free

we are the dreamer

we are behind the curtain

All Power in Heaven and earth is Us

for our Eternal Joy

enough already!

would really leave your happiness up to someone else!!@#$

have you been hoping and praying all your life for an apple in your life to turn into an orange

and start producing orange juice?

oh sugarbaby!

you come down here right now!

you must be higher than a kite

thinking such things!

would you really let go of the leash of that darling

amazing luscious new puppy

you welcomed into your heart?

would you just let her run

lost in the dark?!

would you not

care for her?

would you not care

for you

as much as a puppy?

then

take hold of the reins!

one more time....

because we cannot hear this too much...

take

hold

of

the

reins!

take possession of/responsibility for

your Happiness!!!!

no one will or can ever give it to you

because

it

already

belongs

to

you

the apple will continue to produce apple juice forever!!!!!

your job

yours alone

(absolutely no one else's)

is to so tenderly care for your Child,

your Beloved Joy,

with all your Heart

and you will be amazed

when you look again at that apple

how wonderful apple juice tastes....

for the very first time....

amen!

no idea!

i am not a body

and

there is no past....

WOW!!!

that just wiped out everything!

what am i?

i have no idea!!!!

today

i would be open

what am i, Father?

i clearly have no idea!!!

deficit or surplus?

the search for the special relationship is the textbook sign

of emotional immaturity

it's a bumper sticker

that says

"i am lacking!"

i (body) need you (body) to tell me i am not.

i need your approval

i need your thanks

i need this specific condition

this very rigid microscopic view

this job

this body

this money

this attention and interest

instead of God

infinite Joy

fullness

mind

thought

kindness

laughter

here is the bumper sticker that says

"i am overflowing... overjoyed..."

hey, you lovely happy angel

flying all about

and lighting up my mind,

would you like to play with me?

looking FOR

do you conveniently "forget"

certain facts?

leave out all the evidence to the contrary?

when you want to be depressed?

well,

God conveniently remembers--

holds all the facts

pressed and clean for you

in the cupboard

just as soon as you are ready:

Your Identity never changes

Are you looking for loving kindness in you?

then you are sure to find it

Are you looking for/at emptiness?

then you have conveniently forgotten

everything you know

decide!

the question you pose

already has the answer in it

asking from fear will always be answered with fear

asking from Joy will always be answered with Joy!!!!

you are the decision maker

before

you even

ask

dating

it is me, my Defenselessness,

i want to date

to spend time with

to court

to look for and

seek out

to get to know intimately

to be wholly in love with

cherish

and to invite to share my life with

i would not have one speck of my True Identity be unknown

hidden

denied

from me

what a gift of freedom

and joy

to know this!

Reality is always better!

just a suggestion

everything that has seemed to happen to you was just a suggestion/possibility--

the mind thought,

"what if we play it out/think of it this way?"

"what if we think of God this way?"

just like playing house....

oh....what if she was really "afraid"? (laughing wildly)

what if she was really "petty"?.....

what if God were afraid?

how could

All Power/Creator be afraid--not what it is?

it is a nonsensical question--impossible to figure out

this is the state of oblivion we(our thinking) find ourselves in now--

still trying to figure out what can never be figured out

lost in analyzation

and trying to fit God into the ego's paradigm

this is the "enchanted forest trance"

and watching all this...

Joy says, "Wake Up!!!!"

don't waste your time on this!

don't you see what you are doing?

God isn't fear, she laughs, and never will be!

Reality is wholly kind!! you silly geese

Let's dance! now

listen to that music!

we're free and joyous right now!

Joy doesn't think

Joy just is!

if the mind must pose a question...

let's give it this...

what if

only Love

was possible?

enchanted forest

i am not the thing i suggested

guessed

hypothesized....

i tried it out

but it didn't feel right

i never could get peace with it

something else must be going on

it didn't make sense that the nature of life

would be suffering

no, actually "happily ever after"

IS not the fairy tale

as the ego would have us believe--

it is the timeless

story of ourselves loving/find our true Selves,

coming home, waking up to REALITY

from the enchanted forest--

where we were banished

to repeat something over and over and over

in a trance-like state

until we are awakened

the clock has struck twelve--

the birth of time

contains also it's end

as we look around today

we remember this is the enchanted forest!!!

and our only real job

is to

wake up!

being right

being right keeps us blind

it's a concept of separation

there is no benefit to being right

i would let go of all hidden desire to be right

about anything

all dusty pockets of thinking that this holds

something of value

power

worth

to be right

about wrongness

to be right

that an illusion is true

to be right

tha i am not what i really am

and neither is anyone else

Help me today from falling asleep

Help me to stay awake and remember

that i know absolutely nothing at all

that Truth is far beyond what i can now conceive of

that in Truth only constant Joy is possible

and i am wrong about everything else

drop it

i love holding on to nothing

how light it feels at the end of a day of backpacking

to drop your baggage to the ground

so in every moment

what Joy!

what feeling of flight and freedom does not leap up

when we lay everything down?

just for a moment

remember

nothing

but

God

still

today i sit in a perfectly clean house

a perfectly clean and clear state of mind

the past is gone

no future yet

just brand new in this moment

exactly as it is

all walls freshly painted

floors sparkling new

not a bit of clutter

there's no call

to move here or there

boxes of stuff

sit totally still

they are silent

deep peace

i am Home in the deep sense of the word

i don't really live here

i don't really need any of this

i see but the reflection of

internal stillness

internal being

calling for nothing

simply shining

in all its glory

exactly as it is

there is nothing to do

but give thanks

maturity

maturity is when we recognize we don't have to act on our thoughts

we question them instead....

we question

i have to

i need to

i want to

i can't

i can't stop

i always...

they are all defenses

ego stories

they are not the Voice for God

they are just guesses

hypotheses about reality

it is true?

i really need that in this moment?

God wants us to have more

immaturity is unwillingness

immaturity thinks it knows

and believes this thought

the immature person has no choice about their behavior

because they don't question their thoughts

they don't question their perspective

they believe themselves

instead of God!

in defenselessness (without my thoughts and beliefs)

lies all safety, joy and truth

i do not know the thing i am

what i am doing

or where i am going...

now

am i free

to learn

rain

rain doesn't hurt....ever...

not even a hurricane....

nothing hurts

if we don't fight it

resilience

i found my heart again

just the other day

she was

laying in the mud

slightly bruised

under a huge old cottowood

in the middle of thunder and lightning

at first i thought that she

should have been somewhere else

but then i remembered that

she always did like the rain

and

she always did have a thing for mud

so i saw

she was really quite comfortable

and i got down on my knees

and lay down beside her

and put my arm around her

just like old friends

and we lay there together

looking up into the rain

it was pinging!

and

it

smacked

us

suddenly

right

in

the

eye!

we jumped up!

and then we looked at each other

and laughed

and laughed

just like kids who get goofy...

and then she said

that this is what resilience is

one day

after a long hard night

you find yourself laying on the ground

in the mud

and instead of getting up

and cleaning off all the debri

you just lie there

in it

you feel it

you take it in

everything !

you just get soaked in it

and after you have soaked up everything

you could possibly get out of it....

you watch

as

the story

simply

starts

to

evaporate

and always

at some point after that...

a moment of laughter

jumps into existence!

just right

i love being "messy"

not "cleaning up" after myself

not "putting things away"

hiding them

getting them out of sight!--out of mind!

i love having my things/thoughts

in front of me

in my face

to remind me

what's important

who i am

and what i LOVE!

i love being surrounded by me

my papers

my ideas

my writing

my books....

God's books

God's thoughts

God's Joy

and creativity and flow

and regeneration

all over the place!

not confined

to one specific drawer

or cabinet

i love that my life spills all over the place

i love that it all merges--

being the One that It Is

no artifical separation

of Art from Life

drawing from music

writing from dancing

joy from tears

helpfulness from danger and risk

falling from rising

i love the all directioness

of Everything

the inability to judge

that when it seems

like i am rising

i am really falling

and falling,

rising

and gaining,

but losing

and in losing,

gaining Everything

i love

that my perspective

is skewed

and that only by

tumbling

and twirling about

and loving this

Heavenly Mess

will i ever

gain

Clarity

i love you

a million glances

and all of them blind

how many times have i looked in the mirror

and not seen what is there?

i never just sat there

being present

seeing the beauty before me

today

for the first time

i looked in the mirror

and saw

God

saw

Defenselessness

so beautiful

so innocent

just being

what it is

i saw something i didn't make

i saw creation

i saw extension

i saw purity

just being

i sat there

just looking

and saw

only Love

i saw the Peace

i offer to the world

while being blind to it myself

i saw the dichotomy

of looking at me from the outside

and looking at me from within

and i saw

how blind

i have been

today we would see ourselves

as God sees us

when we look in the mirror

all we can see is God

God is the only one there

because God

is

the

only One here

God looking out

sees only God

and all She can say is

i love you

i love you

i love you

i love you

i love you.................