doorstep of her birth

resting

floating

on the still

clear

water

held

forever

in my birthplace

i can never leave

this stillness

born of stillness

it is my nature

my inheritance forever and always

this is my Home always

my growing up

my true acceptance of my real role

that i was born for

my name is Stillness

given

by God/Reality

i have finally come to see

my role in life

in the world

my purpose

my endless gift

the treasure i am:

stillness

the world over

finally she has returned to the doorstep

of her birth

and seen her future

as Herself

innocence

no change

ever

the pristine stillness...

only at you, God

i would not look ahead

nor behind

but only at you, God,

only at you

Joy of Being

sit still

to receive

how can you open a package

when you are on the run?

what is your goal:

some unknown fantastic destination

or the beautiful baby girl

in your hands

right now?

stop, please,

I love you

take this in

allow it to be true

for you

as you

show me how,

Love,

show me how

it takes a minute

to scratch through

the black crayon

on top of the colors underneath

remember always

you are worth it

pink

has never lost her luster

nor

have you

mousy advertising

no new ideas!

crazy little mouse

running frantically around

screaming

scared for his life: the tiny mad idea/thought

is not new...

just like advertising:

having nothing to offer...no new content;

only the ancient mistake

it's only tactic is to do

everything to get and keep your attention,

to convince you of its false claims

to shock you

louder

faster...more and more commercials per hour,

catchy...so it sticks in your mind (uses great music to help you remember and associate it with something good...

deceptive advertising

"cheaper"

unbelievable prices!...you bet they are unbelievable!

the cost is the unawareness of your life

your happiness

everything you truly value hidden from you

in exchange for this tiny idol/substitute/belief/fantasy/complete alienation

colorful

and funny

with the same old message:

you are not enough

you will never be enough

try this

try this

try this!

NOW!

do not delay!

hurry

hurry

hurry!

do not stop !!!!

to pause

and ask yourself if

this is what you really want

or if these claims hold any truth...

be not still

do not contemplate

take no time

to ask

just GO!

NOW!

LEAVE!

whatever you are doing

whoever you are

whereever you are

RUN away

as fast as you can

to the nearest store/outlet

and GET

a new cover/outfit/distraction

cover up

the emptiness

again

and

again

and

again

do everything you can

NOT

to look inside

run away from Home

forever

be you bankrupt!

the announcer within and without

advises over and over and over

today

we would see

this mousy/lousy plan

for what it is

and

pause

but an instant

rest

be

you/we already are

Heaven (have everything)

ahhhh....

topsy turvy

topsy turvy

which way is up?

tumbling around

under water

i am not sure where the light is

it comes at first in flashes

a peek into Eternity

a head above water!

oh

oh

oh

air to breathe!!!

all the time!

WOW!

who would have thought...

from underneath the sea...

that the whole sky existed!

enlightened to this

i can never return

to breathe

through gills

walking on solid ground

my feet

are no longer flippers

freedom is not

imprisonment

within a body

once you have flown

you will never walk

the same way again

loss is not possible

sacrifice

is not

love

the movie maker

holds all the parts

in his mind

and far more than all the parts

of this one movie

so the movie maker

is but one particle

in the mind of Love

one particular transmitter

to all the others

signals

awareness

light

shining

reflectors

we rest

in the mind of Love

and allow its messages

to be received

imbibed

and expired: breathed out

given away

shared with every breath we take

dear Friend

my weightlessness is yours!

have this with me!

feel this delight

this barenakedness: my hiddeness exposed

this freedom

from ancient constraints/believing

feel

my

joy

thankyou

thankyou

thankyou

for yourlight

yourhelp

ourjointwill

how easy this all is

when there is only one team

and the purpose is clearly seen

the perfect child

the perfect child:

autism

suicide

the perfect child

is not the heisman trophy winner

not straight A's

handsome

with girlfriends

and a resume

the perfect child

is not the stepford child

the success

the glory

the required smile

and popularity

i can claim

can bask in

as a result of my holy parenting

the perfect child/friend/spouse/mirror of all kinds

does wear

the crown of thorns

my thorns

the perfect child

in the perfect life

in this perfect city

and perfect family

shows me

perfectly

what beliefs i hold

and will not let go of

that pierce

and nauseate

and poison

my perception

the perfect child

shows me

the game plan

where to attend to

where the defense is

the blockers

the goal tenders

that keep love at bay

always waiting for

another day

another game

another performance

to see

if love

will ever show up

the perfect child

touches

every scrape

every bruise

shows me

where i am hurting

so i can own it

the perfect child

leaves no facet of me

hidden

no place left to hide

we finally must heal

there are no orphan thoughts

finally

growing up

i recognize

they all

are mine

and welcome them

back home....

the perfect child

takes me there...

and so it is

unstuff the turkey (me:-)

it's okay

to be unhappy

it's even help-full

to be unhappy

unhappy is how

we learn

what makes us happy

and what doesn't

oh oh oh

how stuffed i have been

to want everyone in my life to be happy all the time!

give everyone a break, Joy,

a thanksgiving break

today i finally realized

i'm grateful

for unhappiness

it's honest

it is real

it is true intimacy

when someone can tell you

or you can admit to yourself

how deeply unhappy you are

when you feel that way...

it is a true gift of trust...

i let down all my walls

in front of you

bare naked

i cry

and you

are there

feel no shame in anything less than

total happiness

we are

as we are

in this moment

and only honesty

will take us home

where we are free

to finally be

what we are...

re-lief...re-leaf

re-lieved

of guilt/mis-take

is

to be

re-lived

literally

to come alive

again

free

to shine

express

unblocked

undenied

unobliterated

unhidden by jilted feelings

the stone rolled away from the grave

the light

hitting every angle of rock

inside

the cave

the dead man

arises

lit

from within

this light

has never dulled

for a moment

this light

gave all life

this light

gently carried you

through all the misty mornings

and terrible thunder

in the night

this light

even held your hand

as you drove the knife

into your very own heart

inhaled the poison gas

that stopped your body's

breath

but never

for an instant

has this Love

not held you safely

in its everloving Arms

never for an instant

have you not been

what you are

never for an instant

has joy not been your sail

and your mast not

a cross of crucifixion,

but an upward spire

ever re-minding you

that you are not

of this world alone

and your eyes

are a gift

to behold

the newborn

innocence

right here

right now

in the very mud

in which you stand

see no one

nor any situation

as anything less

than the greatest

pearl of wisdom

you could ever receive

everything

is for

your greatest joy

in ever awakening

appreciation,

Joy

attendance

without hopelessness

the tender green tips

push through the soil

emerge

amidst rocks

in shadows

no knowledge of future rain

or weather patterns

they simply arrive

come what will

hello hello hello!

never stopping

life appears

and appears

and appears

constant blooming

opening

unfolding

unfold your thought...

what is inside it?

under it?

behind it?

what do you feel?

unfold it all the way

explore it--

walk its peaks

its valleys

its hidden caverns

is there a past occurence

still dripping there?

maybe even a river

or a flood...

are you holding up the dam...?

is there a closet

that remains locked?

is there discomfort

that calls for a listener?

life

calls you

to attend

right on time

everything happens

right on time

bodies begin

bodies stop

right on time

the moment of conception

the outward picture/symbol

of an inward condition...

there is

only

the present

the thought/concept

on stage in this moment

how can it possibly be "wrong"?

it's just

what is

in your mind

right now

can you plan

when an idea will come to you?

can you plan

when an idea will leave you?

when you can't think of it anymore?

breathe...

watch...

our function

is to look,

without judgement

someone "leaves"

it must

be a gift

i don't know

where his body went...

but i know

he never really

can leave me...

he lives with me forever--

every instant of love

is now part of me

that continues

to grow

and be given

to everyone in my world...

i can never forget

what lives

as me

i will not to repeat the mis-takes

i made

with this student/teacher

i see what i did

and the world/i

now benefits

forever more

from my realization...

everything happens

right

on time...

for

everyone

connecting

how can you possibly snap a band

that connects you to Reality/Love?

what but a comedy

could suggest such a concept?

can you really make us believe

your story

that somehow you are not connected

to earth

to your brothers?

let's see you not breathe

for a moment

your story is all made up--

imagined

where is the proof?

take just one footstep

that is not governed by gravity

do you see how foolish your thought

looks

to God?

"i am king--

and i declare

i

am not

taken care of!..."

ha ha ha ha!

look again, dear child!

when have you ever gone

hunting for air

or water

or invented seeds

of your own

to grow

your own food...?

perhaps you think you came up

with the blueprint

for friends....

oh oh oh

it is time for waking,

dear one

i hold you in my Heart

where only Love

is the Harvest....

never never never never

can there be

lack

of any kind

thanksgiving

is

the only sound

on

and

on

and

on

and...

connection

i am connection

what are hands for

but to touch?

eyes

to see

everything about me says

you are free

you are free

you are free

you are innocent

here is the invitation

the irresistable invitation

to the world

to me

symbols/pictures

of my beliefs/concepts

to come home

to be cleaned off

showered in love

the ancient soot

lifted by the breeze

and all my shining friends

sit happily before me

and i am delighted

Tell your brother,

he is free

today!

and you

will rejoice

treat yourself....

year round

Easter eggs....:-)

free transportation

Clarity

Radiance

spreads Her Wings

takes flight

lifted up

she spirals

glides

coasts

feel God

carry you

relax

ride the wind

ride

the flow

ride

the stream of Joy

of Laughter

It pulls you

toward it

irresistable

relief

from stress

strain

effort

thinking/believing

you

are in control

listen: God is singing

your favorite song

you are my Baby

I'll always love you

One Song

we all love

Ride it!

share it!

let it spill out of your pockets

all day

as you traipse the world

that all may find it

and keep it

and rejoice

we can play now

free

transporation

in

every

moment...

You are it!

no hug

no kiss

no kind word

no compliment

no raise in salary

no reward

of any kind

no trip

no physical condition

can ever make you feel better (or worse)

than you do right now

it can't give you anything

you don't already have

nothing can make you more than you are right now

you'll never be more

than you are right now

stop waiting for the "relationship"

with anything,

for the future,

to give you the love

you are denying yourself

You are it!

You are the Love--

All of it!

that's how simple the answer is

to every problem

You

are Infinite Love

You

automatically go out to all that is

You

can't stop this

You

can't change this

herein

lies the Peace of God

thank you,

Reality

one big wet kiss

a string

connecting you

to God

you cannot ever leave your Source

awareness of God

is in your mind

forever

the Thought of God

can not be put out

no matter what you think

do, or say

nothing you can ever do

can change this

you are powerless against God/Reality/your Nature

awareness of Love

remains

forever

awareness of Love

appreciation of Loveliness

awe

remains

your natural condition/state

thanksgiving,

the stars in the sky

but symbols

of the endless thanks

we give to our fatherRealityLove

of our joy

our celebration

our kisses

to what is

One Thing

kisses

Kisses

all over

everywhere

everything

the world/Us:

One Big Wet Kiss

:-))))

all things

our Fatherhood

of all that is

hallowed

Whole

all inclusive

is thy Name

all inclusive

is thy Will

Whole,

integrity

in everything

all things---pointers

stepping stones toward/of truth

no other possibility exists

everything

a messenger

of light

neon signs

only truth

only authenticity

exists

"i am fear"

but says,

please...give

me

some love

Love,

i know you are there

i call on you now

i call you forth

i would see you

now

i remember you

Love

Wholeness

i call for the return of naturalness

open eyes

the whole picture

the whole universe is very involved

in everything

have you forgotten how much energy there is

in

existence?

oh my my my

what is this joke

of energy

shortage?

there is no one

that can sit still

while this music plays!

my heart never

misses

a beat

only this is true

nothing else is

there is no shortage

of bliss...

conduit

i looked in the mirror last night

and i was struck

by such beauty

and i realized i had nothing at all to do with it

this beautiful being/creation

body

mind

spirit

i am but an observer

a listener

a willingness to hear

to question

to act

to follow

the simple direction

a conduit

for wisdom

light

understanding

to act it out

to live it

that's all there is to this path

it's really very simple

listen,

and

follow

the simple direction