Trust worthy

Trust worthy:

only Defenselessness

end of shields

shielding

blocking off

hiding

behind my wall

where i don't

let you in

to my "fortress"

because i

am not safe there

you would see

my criminal

idols

i worship

my rituals

i keep solely for

myself

in place of peace/God/Truth/Reality

in this darkness

where i cannot see me,

where God

does not exist

you, too, would be devoured,

raped

by this sucking vacuum

of emptiness/denial

Trust worthy:

i lay down my shield

i open my darkest places

i tell you every tiny detail/image/belief

that i worship/fear/identify with

and holding hands,

my willingness to be open,

to share

to be totally honest

this heaviness

is relieved

alone

i am buried

under the weight

but with your presence

I, too, arrive,

the teller,

not the tale,

and light

at last

is free

to reach

me

loneliness

has no where to sit

in Defenselessness,

so

she

just

goes...

Trust worthy:

Light...

never stop

telling the truth

and the face of loneliness

is forever facing away