impostor

impostor
is a lot of work

the costume
the face paint
the accent
the exaggerated gestures
and painstaking postures
held long enough (endlessly)
to convince another
a lie is true

how long will that take?
how long has it been attempted?

it's really a wonder
we're all still walking around,
laughing--
good thing for humor--

the good Humor Man
that can laugh,
that can't be fooled
by a halloween costume

trick or treat?
i pose to myself
each moment

denial
or integrity?

death or life?

poisoned candy, my darling?!
or would i place my fingers
gently on the buttons of
this costume,
and one by one
open,
reveal
what's been hidden
under
this heavy layer of whitewashing

would i let the soil
show itself to the world/me?

i
am not what i have claimed to be, sir

let me wear nothing now
but a window,
a clear transparent window,
that the sun can penetrate
and  the dark cannot hide

let me do nothing
to convince you
i am what i am not

the fullerbrush salesman
would retire

your hair is already oh so naturally brilliant