listen

feeling incompleteness

is one

and the same

with identifying with body/physical

true joy

is only possible

when we truly realize

the body is a picture

of a thought

that is not true

body/physical

is not

our identity

yes, Virginia!

there must be something bigger going on!

you are so right...

i loose the world

my self

my body

you

all my thinking

this war zone

from what "i" thought it was--

physical

limited

solid

fixed

causal

reality is streaming

flow

merging

all one

all fitting perfectly

no gaps

no contradictions

imagination

we perceive it in slow motion

byte

by

byte

so we can see it

and come home

focus on "our" little byte

blinds us to

the stream

this feels like pain

peace

to my mind

let all my thoughts be still

allow,

not force,

not command,

no efforting

and

they come

like little children

to their mats

and lay down

quietly

so innocently

the wild puppy

sleeps soundly

in front of the fire

warm, cozy,

so safe and content

her master

sitting close beside her/

deep

within

her

ever here

ever there

everywhere

MotherLove

Truth

be not fooled

by the flicker

on the tv screen

of course

there is something behind it

and

what's

behind that?

so...every thing we look upon

including the one looking out...

what's the source you are an expression of...?

behind

behind

behind

be still

and listen

eye-lusion

space

the void

black hole

where not one of your beliefs

has any

foundation

can find any

support

it falls flat

empty claims

unsubstantiated evidence

manufactured

doesn't hold up

to investigation

witnesses fall apart

when questioned

nothing to stand on

they truly

simply

fall

away

where "you" don't hold up

under the microscope

your cells

but a river

flowing

emerging and sloughing off

here today

and gone tomorrow

nothing

to hold on to

words, thoughts emerge

emerge

emerge

no such thing as a point in time

is the river ever still?

so "you"

are poured

forever

never into a cup

the cup itself

is liquid

do you see see see

the flow flow flow?

there is nothing

you can claim

even for a second

there is

no

solid

ground :-)

amen

i'm not there

i'm not there...enlightened

is it true?

no

the un-conscious

is the guiding force of your life

the un-concious

what i don't conciously think

is where enlightenment lives...

spirit

the invisible

unknowable

untouchable

the only reality there is

the changeless

behind

everything

it is but "your thoughts"

that hide it from your awareness of it

your memory of it

your realization

it is but "your thoughts"

that are the fence

the defense

the veil

think not

there is anything you can do

only this

see

what you are believing

and question it

these beliefs

are who you think you are

it's not true now

nor ever has been

your stories

are the lie

you cherish

in place

of the invisible

the real

the vacuum

where not one of your thoughts

is believed

nothing but a trash pile

recycling thought after thought after thought

like a hoarder

our mind

is clogged up

temporarily

each thought holds our attention

while all around us

is infinite space

is something/anything really better than nothing?

the breath

shows us...

hang on to nothing

in

out

in

out

to stop for a moment

brings discomfort

anything in the way

brings stress

there is nothing we want

more than

empty space

space

for

anything

what

are

you

believing/holding on to

in place

of space?

tears to clear

have you ever seen radiance cry?

only tears of joy

only a river of purity

gushing through

to clear out all the flotsam

in the most graceful way possible

see her glistening fingers

not miss

one detail

of impurity

of scum

remaining on the bank

see how she scours

every cranny

so no decay blocks

the reflection of light

back to her

oh such dear attention

to even the tiniest discomfort

who wouldn't cry

at such a love as this?

only Infinite Perfect Love

would be so kind

so thorough

so free of effort

resting for no moment

in this image of time

every tick on the clock

brings but another kiss

another kiss

another kiss

from the One Who

watches over us

without sleep,

the true,

the lovely,

the Infinite,

Mystery

deeper

i give my mind to clarity/sanity

without the thought "i need him"

i am the fire

the flame

my own life

flame is

warm heart

bread rising in the oven

levitating

can't stop yeast from rising

it's what it does

contracting, a silly thought

Heaven

is the expansion,

extension

of purity,

innocence,

wholly without resistance, friction, conflict

the lit mind

extends forever

can fire really know darkness?

ever be

dark?

that's a joke

so light,

is all there is

vision isn't blindness

home is never strange

no one is a stranger

because

you are Home

the deeper you go

the clearer you see

the clearer you see

there is no other,

nor any possibility of loss

look in

in

in

it's only when i focus "outside" me

do i miss home

my Self

Creator

Mother

Father

my Love

my Heart

i give my mind

to Clarity

amen

funny to imagine...

how funny to imagine

someone can travel far away

sail round the world

be

out of sight

out of mind

out of reach

out of touch

outside

me

i image

space

a symbol of separation

or

fresh air

flexibility

stillness

nonattachment

infinity

what does space mean?

what meaning do "i"

give it?

is it empty

or full?

room to dance and fly

or absence

of love

a lap

a kiss

a hug?

oh holy mind,

dreamer of all it sees,

how funny to imagine

anyone can sail away

from my Heart

all encompassing

of every thought

every symbol

every action

blessed

com-passion

i am for you

always

always

all ways

for you

and that's the truth

not imagination

giving and receiving,

all there is

mind calling

and responding

song,

mama

and

child...

hush little baby,

don't you cry,

mama's gonna sing you

a lullabye...

i thank me

i thank me

for all i gave myself

and

for letting him go

i thank me

for not teaching he is guilty,

for letting him of "scottfree"

i celebrate my new found freedom

from blame

lightness

lightness

lightness

arms rise of themselves

as if coming up from the depths of the sea

the pressure is gone

chest expands

honestly,

lungs have double capacity

for oxygen,

happy healthy blood cells restored

to "normal"

natural state of saturation

euphoria

relief

ah the blessed mary has watched over me

through all my resistance

sadness

pattern

ancient stuckness

dependency

she has held me fast

giving me what i tantrummed and fought against,

yet truly wanted

let him go

and you are free

clinging is insanity,

an affirmation i am lacking

it is not so

he goes

i bloom

he goes

i live again

he goes

i come home

he goes away

i come near and dear to me

i thank me now

for this long awaited rite of passage

wholeness of the flower

do you notice flowers don't hang out as couples?

they each offer all their beauty to everyone

violet, turquoise, pink, yellow, lime

glowing in the sunlight

what am i

but a rainbow?

the light of God

coming through me

appearing for a moment

after the rain

beauty

no future

no past

just

beauty

now...

it's time for me

to see it,

yes,

it's time for

me

to see

me

to thank

me

for

my

beauty