radiance

i don't need anyone's "approval"

of my radiance!:-))) (girls, listen up!)

nor their appreciation

nor their love

I am so blessed

by my radiance

I love

so much

my radiance

this inner purity

this state of mind

brings me so much joy

it

is

my

true love

it's funny/comical

to even think of using the word

approval

i am overjoyed

in love

with

my radiance,

Jesusmind,

as me/in me

it is but compassion

i have

for anyone

who doesn't see it...

doesn't appreciate it...

and that includes me

when i am

sleeping...

make room

for Heaven

only this

my best friend

defenselessness

holds me so tenderly

in her arms

lays her lips so

gently all over

my body

erases

all traces

of mistakes

She is my dearest friend

defenselessness

opens her arms so wide

to welcome

all

that is

she has no end

to her acceptance

and receiving

her depth is limitless

being wholly without judgement

open

open

open

Open

letting in

allowing

to be

without reaction

watching

ah.....

welcome, brother/thought

welcome, sister/thought

i see you

thank you

for

coming

i've been waiting for you

for such a long time

i am so glad i finally came to my senses

to let

you in

and see

your harmlessness,

your innocence

of a child--

to welcome you

at my table...

O how happy is this day

the homecoming of all thoughts

under the sun

under one roof

no divisiveness

one nation

under God

indivisible

with liberty

and justice

for all

guns at the door

leave your guns at the door

today we rest

in every situation

in every circumstance

we lay down

take off all our clothes

lay down every thought

and simply rest

we let pure Love

hold us

wrap Itself

around us

we let it penetrate

every part of us

we relax

we open

we receive

we accept

Love

in every moment

Love is

have you hugged

your Self

today?

have you

made love

with your Self

today?

that is the purpose

of every single instant!

lay down your guns

at the door....

limp

the body

world

limp

motionless

a puppet

dangling

on

a

string

Love is

empty handed

gifts rain down

upon us

everywhere

only

total effortlessness

complete surrender

of every idea

is

the

multitude

known

you decide for everyone

you cannot make a decision by yourself

or for yourself alone (text276.9.3)

every decision you make

or have ever made

is for everyone

for the whole

when you choose hell

you are actively strengthening/

choosing to keep

the dream of hell

going

for everyone

just like in a family

so in the world

family dynamics:

only two choices,

the attack game--trying to get

something

you believe

you lack

from a family member

or

release!

i own/

take responsibility for

all

my thoughts

and feelings

and experiences

thank you!

for helping me

learn

my innocence

please

forgive me

my mistakes,

my blindspots,

as i learn

to see

what

they

are...

it is not true

that you can make

a decision

for yourself alone

kooky!

"in lightness

and in laughter

will sin's absurdity

be seen

at last" (acim...)

kookiness

remains

as God

created it!!!!:-)

today we celebrate

the kookiness of the

ego thought system...

and

that kookiness

in the hands of the Jolly Spirit

is our freedom

the very idea

that guilt = love,

that sacrifice

loss

and deprivation

are "gifts"

we give to another.....

chow baby!

and goofiness only!

we love

that Kookiness remains

to light up

Life

in a way sacrifice only opposed

kooky

zany

off the wall

goofy!

we thank God in this kooky moment

we are so free

to be as kooky as we wish

and happier than anything "normal"!!!

there is nothing my kookiness cannot do!

take nothing

seriously

in this brand new

kooky

year

love love love,

Joy

talk!

the ego just wants to be heard

and we keep trying to

suppress it

let her speak her doubt

let her

confess

her loneliness

let her

shout

her sins that plague her

day and night

and when she

has finished speaking

silence

will

be

heard

the auditorium

forever unhurt

by the actors

on the stage

simply listen

simply listen

let the words

fall

catch

his words

like a game of catch

he needs you

he needs a receiver

to love

to accept

everything

he is

without judgement

right or happy?

if you choose to make someone wrong,

you will have nothing left

even if he is wrong

about himself

tell him he is right

agree with him

find it

in you

to see his way of looking at things

if he is fearful

deny not what is true for him

see it as a stepping stone

to his way home

and yours

here

you have intersected

on this single stone

only if you desert him now

could he be alone

it is not his dreams you would take from him,

but your own dreams

of rightness

of other

of differences

give it away now

see this brother

is you,

your mirror image,

not one hair changed

you must embrace your terror

before

she will leave

terror demands a hug,

not denial

only a hug

will calm

the beast

seek no more

to be right

give up your right to be right,

and your right to happiness

will return...

you

there is a place in you

where time has gone

and left you beauty

un disturbed

un confused

straightened out

all gaps

in understanding

bridged

there is a place

in you

where beauty

reigns

never fails

to shine

never

not for a

fraction of

an instant

is peace

in question

nor

does beauty

fail

harmony

never

fails

to work

joy is

forever

uncompromising!

her toes

so very light

on the ground

her laughter

as natural

as sunlight

can be heard

all hours

of the day

and night

dancing on

dawn forever

on the horizon...

star light

i

let

the star light

reach

me

i must

open

my windows

for the starlight

to enter

to penetrate

through

me

all defenses

laid aside

only openness

remains

now

the starlight fills it

continuously entering

and traveling on

to all parts of the Universe

lightyears away

here

and extended everywhere

all at once

Bethlehem

Bethlehem

this Child

is your Defenselessness

seek nothing in the world

to place

your faith in

it will fail you

hold on to nothing

for there is nothing here

seek no counterfeit

identity

what higher

function/identity

could you possibly

have

than

the Holy Son of God,

Defenselessness Itself?

there is nothing

more precious

than this

merry Christmas

inner smile

only happiness

can be said to cure

anything else

is a statement of lack

my life

verifies

the truth

light

is

truth

lightheartedness

carries nothing else

but Itself

where ever it goes

and so brings lightheartedness

to every thought

every person

every situation

laughter has no worries

its as natural as can be

like a waterfall

it spills out

in the sun

in the ice

in the clouds

the hottest day of the year

holds as much laughter as the iciest

because

the warmth

is not of this place

deep below

the blankets

of gravity

lies

levity

always

smiling

Mona Lisa

knows

the

joke.....

always ask

Humor

for the

correct interpretation....

and if you can't find any

just wait....

because

it is there

and you will

see it

eventually....

the hunter

the ego is hunting always

for your flaws

we see the hunter

lay down

our arms

and say yes!

here it is!

take what you want

i am Infinite

the more i give to you

the richer i am

i have nothing to hide

so healing

is

inevitable

give whatever anyone asks of you

show all of yourself to them

and so learn

that giving/opening

means only increase

friendship

friendship

rich

gravy

and

the

deepest

darkest

ingredient

buried under all the flavors

a carpet

the twisted

yarn

standing

upright

on the

floor

all night

to keep the cold away

from bare feet

friendship

rests

snoozes

in the

hammock

gently

bouncing

while the feet

run

around

friendship

the

crumbling

dirty

mortar

between

the

bricks

holding

tall towers

in the dark

and

in

damp

dark

cellars

under

moss

and

mold

and

trickling

seeping

moisture

friendship

drying out towels

hanging

in the sun

the breeze

blowing

through them

right between

and

inside

every

thread

of

cotton

no place

un ex posed

to

the

wind

and

the

heat

and

the

music

of

the

drippling

storm

now

soaking

wet

through the wall

breaking

through the wall

the veil

of plaster

just like drywall

in the old bathroom

something unseen

is scraping

through

the fists not mine

are

doing it

yes

something

unseen

but felt

like

i don't have the word

from the inside

it blazes

and charges

and then

it is done

a new view

a higher spire

to peek at

the streets

the comings

and

goings

of thoughts

and colors

and harmonies

and rhythms

and patternings

and repatternings

and repatternings

and repattterningings

like

in the old

kaleideschope ( i like this better.....)...a new....pattern////....lllll.....

laughing

and

laughing

and

laughing

all the way!

measuring love

the ego/personality believes

that love isn't possible without the body/it

it's all about what the body does

or doesn't

do

how much you smile

or call

or email

or shop

or work

how close or how far away in space

how much you touch

and how frequently

and how well :0=-)

love is quantified

you have to prove you love

by your actions

or it's not true:

love is a lie!

Love will not be accepted

as a Fact

until you do this little thing,

like say, "i love you"

carved in stone

the ego's laws state/demand

(oh yes, the ego's "love" is very demanding!)

if you do not say these three words or....

Love does not exist

WOW!!!!!

what a tiny tiny tiny idea

(a tiny mad idea....)

what a shabby

substitute

for

the Real Thing...

for

Infinity

what would you say to God today?

what would you say to God today?

everywhere you look

is your opportunity

whatever you

tell yourself

about it

whatever you say

to others

it is your view of God

looking at you

between the lines

between the lines

from far beyond this thought system

nothing rubs it

nothing scratches it

nothing irritates it

it is so pure

untouchable

invulnerable

it simply comes to shine

so we can see

what we once thought was love

was not

the end

inherent

in the beginning

now

we simply

walk out of the graveyard

leaving death

behind

forever

look In

look in

in

in

in

how can i look inward

while i am looking outside?

what impossible goals

they both become

to have two opposite goals

is to have constant war

constant failure

always unhappy

never achieving anything

nor ever coming any closer

just the hell

of constant

opposition

effort

against itself

no wonder we feel exhausted

war has been our career

today

the soldier

sees his fate

can only be

death

for there is no end to war...

you must choose

one

completely

or war/warrior

is your position

right and crazy....

your defenses hold tight to the shield

and screaming

will not let it go

or lower it

so love can penetrate

God wills you know

your Self

and you

but cling

for fear of death

to your self image

"i can't trust the universe"

is the image we have made

and from inside this image

it is all we can see

but in Reality

no such image exists

You are Everything

There is nothing you do not have

right now

no person

place

or thing

is outside your

affection

appreciation

and approval

we would not

defend against

the Friendliness

of the Universe :-))))

Invite all you see

to open

in the complete safety

of no judgement

against yourself

death

did he actually go

or

did

he

stay?

in my mind

he lives

forever

i met a 25 year old

a few days ago

and my heart

had a dream

of what might have been

had he stayed

he would be 23

but oh

he is so here

in this newer person

i am now

i have lived

not died

he is still

my saviour

from thoughtlessness

he is so a force

a power

in who i am

this moment

did he actually go

or

did

he

stay?

of course

he is here

as me

my heart is open wider

my evolution occurs

with him

my mirror of autism

still

reminding me

to grow

no one

ever

leaves us

it is done

it is not true

you are pitiful,

but such a bright light

and beautiful

you are

but the phoenix

rising from the ashes

oh darling of the Universe

with eyes that see

and ears that hear

and a heart of God

where lives only truth

this

is the wonder you are

not an image made by guilt,

but glory!

is your name

fields of glory!

only this

is you

let no other thought fool you

it is not so

This is but Jesus

and in Jesus mind

there are not two,

but One

only this

this is Life

this is the Wisdom

that speaks to you

day and night

from deep deep deep

within

this is the Presence

of the ages

ever present

no death possible

i have overcome guilt

i did it for you

it is done

i am the Way Shower

i watched it melt away

simply watching

she no longer held any sway

over me

could not persuade me

to jump

on her wagon

to worship her

to believe

she held out anything

i wanted

i saw through her

to the other side

to what was beyond

what life is without her

and no more

did she exist...

only Clarity

crystal ball

people take off

their masks

the instant

you do

the mirror

is a fact

watch yourself

as you

look

around...

here is everything

you could ever want to know

about yourself!!!

generosity exposed

generous:

far far far more

than just enough

generate: create

opening:

i am able

to receive

opening

the world reflects/i perceive

openness

open heart

open mind

open hands

open pockets

generosity of spirit experiences generosity of spirit

the bars are gone

nothing between us

at last

i hold no stake at your throat

because

i hold no stake at mine

there is only One Way to See

things in the Light

everything is totally exposed

Truth is totally exposed

Love is exposed

at last

under the pain

under the covers

of war

and deprivation

scarcity

of you and me

under the illusion of divorce

and the continual scraping of old wounds

that never seem to heal

Love is exposed at last

the ancient river of blood

has gone dry

for where it came from

was darkness

and as the door of my mind

and heart

opened

wider

and wider

and wider still

the Son

could find

no more places

to hide

fully exposed

at last...

we laugh!

at last

at last

i am filled

defenselessness is my drink

the absolutely sweetest drink in all the world

here is no attack at all ever

no fear

absolutely clear water

not one microscopic impurity

nowhere the light isn't

under what seems to be everything else

lies defenselessness

perfectly still

nothing else can possibly hold any attraction at all

behind everything you ever think you want

lies defenselessness

where all suffering is completely washed away

come

lay down

all your homemade recipes

for sweets

and desserts

defenselessness

continues

to rise

and hold open

your mind

God is

we are

filled

at last

emptied of all

that never was

stillness watches

stillness watches

all things

without judgement

stillness sees only stillness

wholeness

the necessity of every small part

in relation to the whole

this moment in time

this change of thought

this "lesson"--seeing it is not so....

everything

in service to the Light

oh dear Master

of my Soul

Who is in charge

and is asking me in every moment

is that true?

the Wisewoman Spiritkeeper within

always there,

"is that what's really going on?"

her holy eyes know

and see

of course

it is not

a grocery store

a date

a beach

a cat

but a question

of truth....

what are you?

Spirit

or

flesh?

and from the Depths

the Answer

always

echoing

echoing

echoing

Home

Home

Home

remember

your Home....

stillness

bargains

what bargain

can take the place of God?

something for nothing

is a plan of guilt--

stealing

and so hell

and damnation

i give nothing,

but take what you have

poverty thinking

demands poverty be maintained

a black hole

but wills to suck in

no comfort can ever be found here

this is the dream

that must be recognized

for what it is

death can never

bear life

and

you are not dead

crucifixion is only an idea

in your mind

an error in your perception

of Reality

Joy being the Source of Creation,

where can crucifixion be found?

Joy but holds out her hands to you

She wills but to touch

your Heart

so gently

so lightly

the Hush of Heaven

is all

you

ever

hear....

and so

it is

through the eyes of a fool

what is lunacy,

luna see?

but to see the light

shining

in the darkness

and the path that is our own

primitive societies,

pre-civilized,

called their

strange thinkers

strange seers

but shaman

seeing the world through

the eyes of a lunatic

someone whose axis

is shifted just a few more degrees

than average

is to see everything

from a new perspective

looking in through an open window

instead of looking out

from inside the mind of the dreamer

sleep is revealed

what is strangeness

but a different point of view(ing)

habit eats breakfast everyday at a table

sitting down

never

experiencing

what it is

to sit

on a cloud...

rising indeed from the bedcovers

and instead of placing bare feet

on to the cold stone floor

the fool unfolds her wings

and is lifted

without effort

to break her fast

in the clear blue sky

high above the level of all problems

with a vista

that bends

around

all curves...

rotation

of the mind

must occur

for a full

view

of

reality...

this is the

revolution

inside

each

of

us

slowly

slowly

slowly

we turn....

Mount Self

the mountain emerges

from under the snow

feel the massive movement

within your mind

yes, truth rises

again

like no other

tiny idea

Truth fills the scene

the Mountain

holds it all

all else rests upon this

mountain

whereupon the commandments

live

there is but God,

no other gods are possible

this

is the mountain

i am

simply Light

without anything else

at all

aromatherapy

Truth is true

there are no alternatives

no different "rooms"

no body of you

different

from the body of this

and the body of that

containers partway filled--

some more

some less

but always holding

different

ingredients

Only Truth is true

each bottle

overflowing

with

the same Life

filling the air

with

the delicious aromas

that do ignite

our fire

and make it grow

brighter

the aroma of Truth

even without our awareness

it is all

there

ever

is

Joy is open

Joy opens wide her door

and here is Eternity at last

Heaven's gate

has never been closed

no fence at all exists

the truth is seen at last

imaginary thoughts

are not real

Holiness is the only judgement

that is true

earth quakes

the earth

quivers

and shakes

quakes

the towers

crumble

and fall

the world is rocked

where fear has tiptoed away

what remains

where fear has gone?

no hard fast rules

no nets for catching people up

no entrapment

nothing to trip up on

only

crystal clarity

sparkling in the sun

perhaps at first

we have to squint

because our eyes are so used to

dark thoughts and deception

drawn blinds

but now

there is no denying it

any longer

birds do sing in our hearts all day long

unstoppable

and the Light

of constant Joy

is not a figment

of our imagination...

without the past

without the past

all is Paradise

Home is a place

there is no desire to leave

the more you are there

the more you see

the fruits multiply

visitors may come to you

you welcome them

and listen

and watch

the colors change

hear the notes

the changing melodies

and keys

there is no one who comes

who is not a blessing

every stranger that arrives

has come to be your friend

to meet you

and you them

to see their innocence

to understand them

and see the oneness

the robes of different colors

fall away

as we talk

the language may sound different

but the one meaning

whispers always on...

on the cusp

the star is shining in the night

yet still

the dark surrounds us

the path is not yet clear as day

we cannot see the end

yet in our hearts

the call remains

to come

from there

to here

we take one baby step

and then one more

and

only as the step is taken

does the light

grow clear....

All is Joy

There is nothing your holiness cannot do!!!! (L38)

Nothing!!!

take this in.....sit with it in quiet..

here

is

all

healing

the whole planet is healed in this moment

in this peace

in acceptance of this Truth

in your innocence

is

nothing else

no possibility of guilt projected outward

no attack

no harm visible

all

is

innocent

perhaps asleep,

but oh so innocent

oh so glorious

oh so free

we share not

our brother's dreams

or our own

we let

them evaporate

in the light

of truth

There is nothing my holiness cannot do!

birth!

we

are the Christmas lights!

we

are the lights we string upon the tree!

we

are the tinsel

the colors

every ornament you see

is but our mirror

Hi Rudolf!

we

are the guiders of our sleigh tonight/today

with our nose shining so bright

we

are the angels

who sing the good news

we

are the wise men

we

are the North Star

within us

is everything

we need

the innocent infant

untouched

so holy

just born of God

not one spot upon us

to hide our joy!

merry merry Christmas now

this moment is the holiest moment of your life

celebrate

our birth

it

is

now!!!!

eyes of God

all eyes

are lights

see the eyes of all beings

all over the world

all shapes

colors

sizes

some closed

some open

some halfway in between

now

your eyes

in the mirror in the bathroom

and in every face you see

looking back at you

your eyes

are the stars

that light this earth

your eyes are the stars

that see with wisdom

your sparkling eyes

can literally light up

all the eyes that look upon them

just by what they are

your eyes

right

now

are showing God

to the world

only with gratitude

do they see at all

today

we use our eyes

to say thank you

let's all be Home

for Thanksgiving...

hmmm...

inspiring--this word/letters...are but symbols sitting in the Space....

we

are

symbols

in the

Space

what meaning

do we hold?

would we convey?

that is the question

what do we symbolize?

what is this much larger thing

behind us?

what to we stand/stand up

for?

beyond this concept

what is?

and the answer that came:

Laughter!

yes! i definitely sign on

to be a symbol of laughter/lightheartedness

of Joy

beyond

costumes/limits

of expansive thoughts

on a scale

we can't imagine...

i would symbolize

the unthought up

unknown

the vista

the fresh air

the breeze...

of unearthly

delight!

we

but

laugh

away

our

bodies/ego thoughts......

hmmm.....

Lovingstuff

listen

in each space

for this stillness

this peace

pay attention to the spaces

between the words

between the thoughts

is Presence

not emptiness,

but the holder

the raw Source

Substance

primordial Origin

the Lovingstuff

from which you overflowed...:-)

bankrupt

the ego is bankrupt

it lives on borrowed time

guilt is debt

it holds nothing

i no longer look to debt

for riches

giving up the belief in the thought of debt

my Godmoney/Joy runneth over

how silly to think

i could ever have

found satisfaction/joy

in debt...

all i want for Christmas...

on the tenth day of Christmas

my true love (Me) gave to me....

freedom from the thought "i need...."

who would i be

on the tenth day

of living without the thought

"i need...."?

without the ego's constant commercials

detours

delays

joy only increases

think of Heaven

constantly

thoughts

only of Heaven

swelling

embracing

chasing you down in

in the grocery story

you reach for a can of beans

and all you can see

is joy

you turn down the next aisle

and only angels

are pushing their carts

you arrive

at the cashier

and you so happily

and gratefully

hand her your cash,

not yours

ever

not even for a second,

but God's currency

you shine Love

without any concept of

"energy shortage"

or

"environmental ( your mental environ)

degradation"

no impurities

to block

the Light

only brighter

and brighter

and brighter

breathless

weightless

oppositeless

free

I love me

without the thought of guilt!!!!!!

merry merry Christ-mas now!!!!

Home

pain and pleasure are the same

it's purpose is to make the body real (acim t579)

dear God

let my hands be empty

i would not twist and turn

my life

to fill it with the pleasure

i think i need

how barren is this thought

of Spirit

Strength

God

Glory

let my mind be willing

to question

every tiny scrap

of my beliefs/desires

i am blinded by the world

by my senses

i think they tell me what is good

and true

and beautiful,

but

they only echo

my beliefs

i would

now

be empty

wholly empty

of all the world's/body's values

let this Space

BE

let it expand

to all i am aware of

where no ego/separation/division

is possible

Home

given

everything

is given you

where do you think "your" ideas

come from?

do you actually think

"you" make them up?

how is it so?

they but come to you

always

they enter your awareness

you may see it in a book

hear it from a mouth

hear it in "your" mind,

but "you"

are simply

a communication device

you

are a messenger

you

are given

the message

to deliver

everything in your life

reflects the message

concious of it

or not

you are one big

neon sign!

re view

yes

every single thing i see

represents/reflects a belief

it shows me

what i believe

i look at but a list

of my beliefs

i review,

look back

upon them

to see

if i would still desire to suffer

or raise to doubt

give up support of

question

the belief of guilt/punishment/hell

the belief that something

could harm God

change God

anger Peace

would i admit my error?

would i admit that my mistaken idea/belief

had no effect on Reality?

and allow Joy into my Reality?

would i be willing

to accept Joy?

that's what every single

object, person, place, situation

and circumstance

asks you

now?

that's why it's in your life!

that's what every single thing

is for?

that's the purpose of every second!

that's

why

you

were

born....

what

do

you

believe?

that

is

your world!

what

do

you

want?

that

is

your

world?

what

is

true?

you

or

God?

trance end dance

all the objects, too,

were made from the same clay...

but they all pretended they were not.

they all believed they

were something different--

and so everyone thought he

needed what everyone else had

and was completely convinced

that he didn't already have it...

in a hypnotic trance

each identical particle

couldn't see this was so

it was all so very strange....

love

denied

without our story/trance/dream/sleep....

truth is obvious

we are OneThing

Love is

my Name is Yours, sayeth the Lord...

and that

is not strange at all, but true

and Reality

seen at last

for what it is

loved Itself.....

in love with everything

in love with everything

without denial

beauty shines

i sat and stared

at the color blue

painted on a piece of wood

it was just so incredible

i hadn't enjoyed it so much

since i was a kid

i loved blue so much then

my two favorite turquoise skirts

my tiny treasured turquoise coin purse

my blue sweater

and fuzzy blue troll hair

my furry blue winter jacket

our blue mercury station wagon

and the pattern of holes on its blue ceiling

now

falling in love

with blue

all over again

we are

in love

with everything

without denial

joy

is

now

and everywhere

without denial

out

the only way out

is to question

the prison walls:

your beliefs

touch the monster

you must

face the fear(perception, illusion)

and go through it,

like a cloud

to see it is not a heavy

impenetrable

wall

to see it does not exist

running away

avoidance

distraction

keeps the illusion solid

and immovable

in your own perception

touch the monster directly

and you are free of fear

now is

there nothing

to fear...

sliding down the mountain....

there is no substitute for peace (acim text 499.2.7)

i lower myself

underneath

the crust

below

the surface

it gets easier to move

form is less solid

i am not the thing

i was at the surface

perhaps "on top of the world"

is as far as you can get from God,

from center

from the molten ongoing creation:

formlessness

opening to light

far beyond the world's light

perhaps "on top of the world"

is not where i want to be;

does not hold peace,

but fear of falling...

no,

instead

i would let go of the world

sink inward

and let

this

that is

closer than my body

save me

from what i thought

i was

doesn't make sense

this whole play is a facade

it is not what i am

no part of this script is true

there is a hole in it that can never be filled

such a view of reality

is not intact

is only in part

How can Reality be missing a part?

ask yourself this often today

it makes no sense

Reality must be all there is,

but this script can never satisfy,

therefore it cannot be

the whole story

the facade is melting

away

only being

is true

total surrender

i would be off this mental wheel of trying/wanting

to "get"

of scarcity

of lacking

of always having some need that needs to be fulfilled...

there is no end to this...

on the wheel

i give up

i let go of all my

values

games

baubles

trinkets

rewards

aims

goals

distractions

all of "my" road

my thinking

i do not want this...

I DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING!!!

what i am

where i am going

what i am doing

what i am here for

i do not know the way to You

i do not know the way to Heaven

i do not know what will make me happy

i completely give up

i sit

and wait

to be told

and now

the Presence can

fill me

now

am i free

to

be

it

the child's unknowing

is filled

with the Father's

Presence

off the wheel

there is another world

i am here

to be the Light

of "not trying"

having giving up "my" plan,

God is

how to sew

my Mother taught me how to sow

there's nothing wrong with me

i can sew a button on a shirt

patch a knee

and hem a skirt

i can change things in my life

take them up

shorten them

or lengthen them

add a button

strengthen a connection

or open a zipper

and let something that is not working

slide away

i can let deception

roll off the table

on to the floor

and watch it disappear

down the alley

there's nothing wrong with me

i can speak

i can communicate

i can sit in stillness and ask

the Holy Spirit/my Own Wisdom

for the Truth

i am the bridge

from one corner of my mind

to the other

i can bring the two sides together

holding each other's hand

and see

that the little child's unknowing

is filled with the Father's wisdom

there is nothing wrong with me

though i may sometimes

lay on the ground

and see only a worm's eye view

the memory of my wings

remains

always

to unfold

at my request...

why doesn't God answer me?

why doesn't God answer me?

are you awake or asleep?

only Love will answer you truly

who can really ask a question

while he sleeps?

have you ever had a conversation

while you were asleep?

can you really hear

what your spouse is saying

while you are watching the game on tv

or cooking dinner

or focusing

on anything else?

shhhh....we are thinking...

can't you wait until later....?

i don't want to talk right now

so it is with us

as we walk the world

with our little game plan...

i'm a little busy right now, God.

i'll talk to you on the weekend...

after the party.... :-)))

it's impossible to get an answer

when we aren't really interested...

i am heaven

i am Heaven

light and peace (peach, i wrote and this is good, too...)

and joy

abide as me

angels hover near and all about

just so ready

sparkling

clear

clean

and radiant

with light

the moment we are willing

to open our mind

and see them

this is you

all clean

all clear

already!

just like opening the garage door...

behind door #3...

it is flung open

and

there

is the amazing you

never touched

brand new

never harmed in any way

never lacking one sparkle

Only God

only angelic

only bursting with light

and beauty and joy

for all the world's happiness

this

is Reality

this very instant

right where you sit

you need do nothing

God is!

grace is certain

grace is acceptance of truth

willingness to act on it

to trust everyone

everything

yourself

to be what you are

no doubts/denial of what you are

question doubts

question denial

question uncertainty

are you absolutely certain

you are uncertain...;-)

you're certainty

is guaranteed by God/Reality/Egolessness

who else would you trust?

you or the Voice of A Course in Miracles

science or the Voice

the school you went to or the Voice

past humans or the Voice

you or your experience of healing

and release

of greater joy

of grace

of egolessness

clean of all doubt

pure

clear

wholly harmless

wholly loving

wholly healing

perfect peace after

shock

suicide

dead body

depression

guilt

this is the resurrection

this is the proof

there is nothing more powerful

than God

no ego/evil thought

has any power

to effect Reality

grace

open road

we are lead by Joy,

not force

of course

the path is joyful

joy is the absence of all fear

all denial

all obstacles

think of a highway

all covered

with blockades

the easiest

most attractive

most natural

quickest

most effortless path

would be to

move through

the space

free of obstacles

so identical

is the path

of joy

in our mind

and heart

it is the open space

that draws us

we are lead by Joy

by openness

by defenselessness

any other thoughts

are blocks

Joy is our destination

and the path....

i love this

purring

what is "om...."

but the giant purring

of the Universe...?

one big furry cat

sunning herself

in the warmth

of the window

she does nothing

but soak it up

so, too, our only job

is to lay there (no interference...)

and soak up

God's love :-)))) (purr....)

heartsong

two hearts

vibrating as one

one thought

resonating

from within

all of us

right now

are resonating

together

amplifying joy

simply turn off

all the other channels

and feel it....

feelings

feelings are so helpful

if we listen to them

instead of judge them

or resist them

they are our truth

if we start feeling fat, it's lovely....

it's the truth that you really want to eat less

or move more...

it's telling you exactly what you want

feeling good

feeling joy

is so lovely

it's a compass

a magnet

that forever pulls us

towards perfect happiness

if we feel lonely

we bring our attention to it,

instead of trying to runaway

or distract

or stuff

or medicate

or cover up

we go right up to it

and ask

is it true?

can i be absolutely certain

i am lonely?

and having come home to myself now

looking right in the mirror

the answer is no

i am here with me

i am amazing joy

i am freedom

i am defenselessness which i love more than anything in the world!!!

and knowing/remembering this truth

experiencing my true Self once more

i am feeling lonely no more

but

joyous

secure

and overflowing

with the emptiness and freedom that comes

with the end

of judgement

all feelings are helpful...

opening to heaven!

when your mind is open

the whole world is open :-)))))))) (i love yous, baby!)

completely undenied

unveiled

free

it is you

you only see your belief

openness projects openness

(picture this tower with windows and the sunlight is streaming in and fresh air is everywhere

and you just feel so open and clear and there is not one thought anywhere in sight that even hints at something different. like a bird you are free to fly anywhere...the feeling of openness

extends outward forever into this clear blue sky....this is your identity....thoughts are free to come and go through these windows....they but float freely in this happy state of mind...

a friendly mind/belief sees the world is a very friendly place

Heaven blesses all it looks upon because it is healed

Heaven was given us

creation is,

continues

now

in this moment

are we born

God is now

the beginning is now

your origin remains

all power in heaven and in earth

this is the decision

you make now

to accept this as true

and experience freedom and joy

now

or

to deny this truth

and experience the illusion of imprisonment

right now!

good enough

who or what would i be

without the thought,

i am not good enough?

i would be overflowing with goodness!!!!!

just absolutely shining

i would be

exactly

what i am

wholly

and completely

without any attack upon it!

glory i us!

overflowing with grace

healed

and healing

completely released from denial, lies, deception....

and offering this truth

to all the world/thoughts!!!!

constant generation

thoughts simply come

there is nothing we have to do...

we can't stop thoughts from coming

we are

in spired

spirited from within

far deeper than the body

we are channels

in which thought flows (new word: flought :-)

through

exactly as we make no effort

to let oxygen in

nor do we try to hoard it

or grasp on to it

and never let it go.....(how crazy that sounds!@#)

it is done

for us

the nature of life/love

is flow

supply

abundance

this is the miracle of life/love

endless supply

creation

of which we do not originate

we simply live

in a constant generation of love

it is us

we are boundless!

we relax

and notice

it everywhere

the real miracle

the real miracle

is

the Love

that holds me

in Its Arms...

since time began

through all my dreams

tantrums

arguing

demanding

hallucinating

fantasizing

grasping

and deathly thoughts

of desperation...

the real miracle:

mirrar--to see

is that

none of it

ever occurred

held safely

in the Palm of Love's Hand

adored in every moment

which is Eternity

i simply

took

a

very

very

very

short

nap...

the real miracle

is the love

that inspires them (acim p3)