without the past

without the past

all is Paradise

Home is a place

there is no desire to leave

the more you are there

the more you see

the fruits multiply

visitors may come to you

you welcome them

and listen

and watch

the colors change

hear the notes

the changing melodies

and keys

there is no one who comes

who is not a blessing

every stranger that arrives

has come to be your friend

to meet you

and you them

to see their innocence

to understand them

and see the oneness

the robes of different colors

fall away

as we talk

the language may sound different

but the one meaning

whispers always on...

on the cusp

the star is shining in the night

yet still

the dark surrounds us

the path is not yet clear as day

we cannot see the end

yet in our hearts

the call remains

to come

from there

to here

we take one baby step

and then one more

and

only as the step is taken

does the light

grow clear....

All is Joy

There is nothing your holiness cannot do!!!! (L38)

Nothing!!!

take this in.....sit with it in quiet..

here

is

all

healing

the whole planet is healed in this moment

in this peace

in acceptance of this Truth

in your innocence

is

nothing else

no possibility of guilt projected outward

no attack

no harm visible

all

is

innocent

perhaps asleep,

but oh so innocent

oh so glorious

oh so free

we share not

our brother's dreams

or our own

we let

them evaporate

in the light

of truth

There is nothing my holiness cannot do!

birth!

we

are the Christmas lights!

we

are the lights we string upon the tree!

we

are the tinsel

the colors

every ornament you see

is but our mirror

Hi Rudolf!

we

are the guiders of our sleigh tonight/today

with our nose shining so bright

we

are the angels

who sing the good news

we

are the wise men

we

are the North Star

within us

is everything

we need

the innocent infant

untouched

so holy

just born of God

not one spot upon us

to hide our joy!

merry merry Christmas now

this moment is the holiest moment of your life

celebrate

our birth

it

is

now!!!!

eyes of God

all eyes

are lights

see the eyes of all beings

all over the world

all shapes

colors

sizes

some closed

some open

some halfway in between

now

your eyes

in the mirror in the bathroom

and in every face you see

looking back at you

your eyes

are the stars

that light this earth

your eyes are the stars

that see with wisdom

your sparkling eyes

can literally light up

all the eyes that look upon them

just by what they are

your eyes

right

now

are showing God

to the world

only with gratitude

do they see at all

today

we use our eyes

to say thank you

let's all be Home

for Thanksgiving...

hmmm...

inspiring--this word/letters...are but symbols sitting in the Space....

we

are

symbols

in the

Space

what meaning

do we hold?

would we convey?

that is the question

what do we symbolize?

what is this much larger thing

behind us?

what to we stand/stand up

for?

beyond this concept

what is?

and the answer that came:

Laughter!

yes! i definitely sign on

to be a symbol of laughter/lightheartedness

of Joy

beyond

costumes/limits

of expansive thoughts

on a scale

we can't imagine...

i would symbolize

the unthought up

unknown

the vista

the fresh air

the breeze...

of unearthly

delight!

we

but

laugh

away

our

bodies/ego thoughts......

hmmm.....

Lovingstuff

listen

in each space

for this stillness

this peace

pay attention to the spaces

between the words

between the thoughts

is Presence

not emptiness,

but the holder

the raw Source

Substance

primordial Origin

the Lovingstuff

from which you overflowed...:-)

bankrupt

the ego is bankrupt

it lives on borrowed time

guilt is debt

it holds nothing

i no longer look to debt

for riches

giving up the belief in the thought of debt

my Godmoney/Joy runneth over

how silly to think

i could ever have

found satisfaction/joy

in debt...

all i want for Christmas...

on the tenth day of Christmas

my true love (Me) gave to me....

freedom from the thought "i need...."

who would i be

on the tenth day

of living without the thought

"i need...."?

without the ego's constant commercials

detours

delays

joy only increases

think of Heaven

constantly

thoughts

only of Heaven

swelling

embracing

chasing you down in

in the grocery story

you reach for a can of beans

and all you can see

is joy

you turn down the next aisle

and only angels

are pushing their carts

you arrive

at the cashier

and you so happily

and gratefully

hand her your cash,

not yours

ever

not even for a second,

but God's currency

you shine Love

without any concept of

"energy shortage"

or

"environmental ( your mental environ)

degradation"

no impurities

to block

the Light

only brighter

and brighter

and brighter

breathless

weightless

oppositeless

free

I love me

without the thought of guilt!!!!!!

merry merry Christ-mas now!!!!

Home

pain and pleasure are the same

it's purpose is to make the body real (acim t579)

dear God

let my hands be empty

i would not twist and turn

my life

to fill it with the pleasure

i think i need

how barren is this thought

of Spirit

Strength

God

Glory

let my mind be willing

to question

every tiny scrap

of my beliefs/desires

i am blinded by the world

by my senses

i think they tell me what is good

and true

and beautiful,

but

they only echo

my beliefs

i would

now

be empty

wholly empty

of all the world's/body's values

let this Space

BE

let it expand

to all i am aware of

where no ego/separation/division

is possible

Home

given

everything

is given you

where do you think "your" ideas

come from?

do you actually think

"you" make them up?

how is it so?

they but come to you

always

they enter your awareness

you may see it in a book

hear it from a mouth

hear it in "your" mind,

but "you"

are simply

a communication device

you

are a messenger

you

are given

the message

to deliver

everything in your life

reflects the message

concious of it

or not

you are one big

neon sign!

re view

yes

every single thing i see

represents/reflects a belief

it shows me

what i believe

i look at but a list

of my beliefs

i review,

look back

upon them

to see

if i would still desire to suffer

or raise to doubt

give up support of

question

the belief of guilt/punishment/hell

the belief that something

could harm God

change God

anger Peace

would i admit my error?

would i admit that my mistaken idea/belief

had no effect on Reality?

and allow Joy into my Reality?

would i be willing

to accept Joy?

that's what every single

object, person, place, situation

and circumstance

asks you

now?

that's why it's in your life!

that's what every single thing

is for?

that's the purpose of every second!

that's

why

you

were

born....

what

do

you

believe?

that

is

your world!

what

do

you

want?

that

is

your

world?

what

is

true?

you

or

God?

trance end dance

all the objects, too,

were made from the same clay...

but they all pretended they were not.

they all believed they

were something different--

and so everyone thought he

needed what everyone else had

and was completely convinced

that he didn't already have it...

in a hypnotic trance

each identical particle

couldn't see this was so

it was all so very strange....

love

denied

without our story/trance/dream/sleep....

truth is obvious

we are OneThing

Love is

my Name is Yours, sayeth the Lord...

and that

is not strange at all, but true

and Reality

seen at last

for what it is

loved Itself.....

in love with everything

in love with everything

without denial

beauty shines

i sat and stared

at the color blue

painted on a piece of wood

it was just so incredible

i hadn't enjoyed it so much

since i was a kid

i loved blue so much then

my two favorite turquoise skirts

my tiny treasured turquoise coin purse

my blue sweater

and fuzzy blue troll hair

my furry blue winter jacket

our blue mercury station wagon

and the pattern of holes on its blue ceiling

now

falling in love

with blue

all over again

we are

in love

with everything

without denial

joy

is

now

and everywhere

without denial

out

the only way out

is to question

the prison walls:

your beliefs

touch the monster

you must

face the fear(perception, illusion)

and go through it,

like a cloud

to see it is not a heavy

impenetrable

wall

to see it does not exist

running away

avoidance

distraction

keeps the illusion solid

and immovable

in your own perception

touch the monster directly

and you are free of fear

now is

there nothing

to fear...

sliding down the mountain....

there is no substitute for peace (acim text 499.2.7)

i lower myself

underneath

the crust

below

the surface

it gets easier to move

form is less solid

i am not the thing

i was at the surface

perhaps "on top of the world"

is as far as you can get from God,

from center

from the molten ongoing creation:

formlessness

opening to light

far beyond the world's light

perhaps "on top of the world"

is not where i want to be;

does not hold peace,

but fear of falling...

no,

instead

i would let go of the world

sink inward

and let

this

that is

closer than my body

save me

from what i thought

i was

doesn't make sense

this whole play is a facade

it is not what i am

no part of this script is true

there is a hole in it that can never be filled

such a view of reality

is not intact

is only in part

How can Reality be missing a part?

ask yourself this often today

it makes no sense

Reality must be all there is,

but this script can never satisfy,

therefore it cannot be

the whole story

the facade is melting

away

only being

is true

total surrender

i would be off this mental wheel of trying/wanting

to "get"

of scarcity

of lacking

of always having some need that needs to be fulfilled...

there is no end to this...

on the wheel

i give up

i let go of all my

values

games

baubles

trinkets

rewards

aims

goals

distractions

all of "my" road

my thinking

i do not want this...

I DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING!!!

what i am

where i am going

what i am doing

what i am here for

i do not know the way to You

i do not know the way to Heaven

i do not know what will make me happy

i completely give up

i sit

and wait

to be told

and now

the Presence can

fill me

now

am i free

to

be

it

the child's unknowing

is filled

with the Father's

Presence

off the wheel

there is another world

i am here

to be the Light

of "not trying"

having giving up "my" plan,

God is

how to sew

my Mother taught me how to sow

there's nothing wrong with me

i can sew a button on a shirt

patch a knee

and hem a skirt

i can change things in my life

take them up

shorten them

or lengthen them

add a button

strengthen a connection

or open a zipper

and let something that is not working

slide away

i can let deception

roll off the table

on to the floor

and watch it disappear

down the alley

there's nothing wrong with me

i can speak

i can communicate

i can sit in stillness and ask

the Holy Spirit/my Own Wisdom

for the Truth

i am the bridge

from one corner of my mind

to the other

i can bring the two sides together

holding each other's hand

and see

that the little child's unknowing

is filled with the Father's wisdom

there is nothing wrong with me

though i may sometimes

lay on the ground

and see only a worm's eye view

the memory of my wings

remains

always

to unfold

at my request...

why doesn't God answer me?

why doesn't God answer me?

are you awake or asleep?

only Love will answer you truly

who can really ask a question

while he sleeps?

have you ever had a conversation

while you were asleep?

can you really hear

what your spouse is saying

while you are watching the game on tv

or cooking dinner

or focusing

on anything else?

shhhh....we are thinking...

can't you wait until later....?

i don't want to talk right now

so it is with us

as we walk the world

with our little game plan...

i'm a little busy right now, God.

i'll talk to you on the weekend...

after the party.... :-)))

it's impossible to get an answer

when we aren't really interested...

i am heaven

i am Heaven

light and peace (peach, i wrote and this is good, too...)

and joy

abide as me

angels hover near and all about

just so ready

sparkling

clear

clean

and radiant

with light

the moment we are willing

to open our mind

and see them

this is you

all clean

all clear

already!

just like opening the garage door...

behind door #3...

it is flung open

and

there

is the amazing you

never touched

brand new

never harmed in any way

never lacking one sparkle

Only God

only angelic

only bursting with light

and beauty and joy

for all the world's happiness

this

is Reality

this very instant

right where you sit

you need do nothing

God is!

grace is certain

grace is acceptance of truth

willingness to act on it

to trust everyone

everything

yourself

to be what you are

no doubts/denial of what you are

question doubts

question denial

question uncertainty

are you absolutely certain

you are uncertain...;-)

you're certainty

is guaranteed by God/Reality/Egolessness

who else would you trust?

you or the Voice of A Course in Miracles

science or the Voice

the school you went to or the Voice

past humans or the Voice

you or your experience of healing

and release

of greater joy

of grace

of egolessness

clean of all doubt

pure

clear

wholly harmless

wholly loving

wholly healing

perfect peace after

shock

suicide

dead body

depression

guilt

this is the resurrection

this is the proof

there is nothing more powerful

than God

no ego/evil thought

has any power

to effect Reality

grace

open road

we are lead by Joy,

not force

of course

the path is joyful

joy is the absence of all fear

all denial

all obstacles

think of a highway

all covered

with blockades

the easiest

most attractive

most natural

quickest

most effortless path

would be to

move through

the space

free of obstacles

so identical

is the path

of joy

in our mind

and heart

it is the open space

that draws us

we are lead by Joy

by openness

by defenselessness

any other thoughts

are blocks

Joy is our destination

and the path....

i love this

purring

what is "om...."

but the giant purring

of the Universe...?

one big furry cat

sunning herself

in the warmth

of the window

she does nothing

but soak it up

so, too, our only job

is to lay there (no interference...)

and soak up

God's love :-)))) (purr....)

heartsong

two hearts

vibrating as one

one thought

resonating

from within

all of us

right now

are resonating

together

amplifying joy

simply turn off

all the other channels

and feel it....

feelings

feelings are so helpful

if we listen to them

instead of judge them

or resist them

they are our truth

if we start feeling fat, it's lovely....

it's the truth that you really want to eat less

or move more...

it's telling you exactly what you want

feeling good

feeling joy

is so lovely

it's a compass

a magnet

that forever pulls us

towards perfect happiness

if we feel lonely

we bring our attention to it,

instead of trying to runaway

or distract

or stuff

or medicate

or cover up

we go right up to it

and ask

is it true?

can i be absolutely certain

i am lonely?

and having come home to myself now

looking right in the mirror

the answer is no

i am here with me

i am amazing joy

i am freedom

i am defenselessness which i love more than anything in the world!!!

and knowing/remembering this truth

experiencing my true Self once more

i am feeling lonely no more

but

joyous

secure

and overflowing

with the emptiness and freedom that comes

with the end

of judgement

all feelings are helpful...

opening to heaven!

when your mind is open

the whole world is open :-)))))))) (i love yous, baby!)

completely undenied

unveiled

free

it is you

you only see your belief

openness projects openness

(picture this tower with windows and the sunlight is streaming in and fresh air is everywhere

and you just feel so open and clear and there is not one thought anywhere in sight that even hints at something different. like a bird you are free to fly anywhere...the feeling of openness

extends outward forever into this clear blue sky....this is your identity....thoughts are free to come and go through these windows....they but float freely in this happy state of mind...

a friendly mind/belief sees the world is a very friendly place

Heaven blesses all it looks upon because it is healed

Heaven was given us

creation is,

continues

now

in this moment

are we born

God is now

the beginning is now

your origin remains

all power in heaven and in earth

this is the decision

you make now

to accept this as true

and experience freedom and joy

now

or

to deny this truth

and experience the illusion of imprisonment

right now!

good enough

who or what would i be

without the thought,

i am not good enough?

i would be overflowing with goodness!!!!!

just absolutely shining

i would be

exactly

what i am

wholly

and completely

without any attack upon it!

glory i us!

overflowing with grace

healed

and healing

completely released from denial, lies, deception....

and offering this truth

to all the world/thoughts!!!!

constant generation

thoughts simply come

there is nothing we have to do...

we can't stop thoughts from coming

we are

in spired

spirited from within

far deeper than the body

we are channels

in which thought flows (new word: flought :-)

through

exactly as we make no effort

to let oxygen in

nor do we try to hoard it

or grasp on to it

and never let it go.....(how crazy that sounds!@#)

it is done

for us

the nature of life/love

is flow

supply

abundance

this is the miracle of life/love

endless supply

creation

of which we do not originate

we simply live

in a constant generation of love

it is us

we are boundless!

we relax

and notice

it everywhere

the real miracle

the real miracle

is

the Love

that holds me

in Its Arms...

since time began

through all my dreams

tantrums

arguing

demanding

hallucinating

fantasizing

grasping

and deathly thoughts

of desperation...

the real miracle:

mirrar--to see

is that

none of it

ever occurred

held safely

in the Palm of Love's Hand

adored in every moment

which is Eternity

i simply

took

a

very

very

very

short

nap...

the real miracle

is the love

that inspires them (acim p3)

Sanity of Joy

Only

pure Joy

will give you

a sane decision

Joy is my Father

my mama

my inheritance

can you see what i am made of?

what does Joy look like?

she moves very freely

almost floating

through every possibility

every situation

she can sit very still

beside you

or on your lap

she can massage

your tied up thoughts

she can peacefully wait

outside your door

when you are ready to come out

and play again

joy can be the shining star

in the darkest of your nights

that silently holds you

even when you don't know

she is there

she can look like a newborn infant

but she will also be there

with you

beside its grave

there is no place

no appearance

no moment

joy will not show herself to you

at your invitation

who would you listen to?

your joyfriend

or de niar?

only Joy

is sane

joy of question

i question

everything i ever learned

and joy returns

rises like she has always done

throughout time

how ridiculous

we ever thought

we could stop Joy

from rising....

the Womb

what have i been denying?

this rich

endless

source of nourishment

constant

no instant of separation

no imagined abandonment

no fear

possible

resting

growing

expanding

being

without thought

without self conciousness

mother and infant

One Being

so

it

still

remains....

beginnings

i am returning

to the womb

the creation

the raw material

the wordless

the speechless

emotionless

predawn

here

is all known

no one has ever

really left

this place

and gone out into the world

to strike out

on his own....

i am

returning

to the womb

vastness

stretches out

forever

far far far beyond this

thought....

slathering

some of us

slither

and slather

together

we love the same thing

and lots of it

we love the luscious song

of praise

and thanksgiving

and trees growing right up

out of the living room floor

we love the extraordinary

the surprise!

that the past

never showed us

we would that the tv

would simply light up

turn itself on and

Jesus Himself

would step out

live

as if he were there all the time

we would that Martians

were our neighbors

meeting us at the mailbox

to tell us of their extraordinary

voyage to get here...

we know each other

when we meet

because there is no hesitation

at all

we see the sparkle

in our eyes

and climb inside....:-)))

free as cats

freedom

opens all doors

doors flung wide open

to freely come and go

to visit

with oneself

neighbors

and strangers

who are strangers no more

no one is a stranger to yourself

my house is your house

we abide in the same mind

the same House

the same Heart

my couch is

the couch where you sit

for there is not

one difference

between us

only someone

who wants imprisonment

in a separate body

would imagine

there is

cats jump up

on our lap

they too are our mirrors

today we would love each other

as much as our pets......:-)

gift of silence

i let stillness be

i love the stillness

silence speaks

it fills the room

with peace

and wholeness

it expands

it fills

it is power

wholly unopposed

full of happiness

well being

charity

gratitude

God

Life

i let silence

teach me

i am whole

only silence

can teach me this

i can only receive

be taught

listen

from silence

talking--i can't hear

speaking is not silence

speaking is only appropriate

and helpful

after silence/listening :-)))

and not a moment before

today

i would focus

on the open window

the open ear

i would listen

to all the music

the muse

of silence

i wonder what she would tell me

if i gave her the whole day.....

perfect stillness

perfect stillness

no thought to disturb the surface of this water

no motion

no going

here

and

there

no

questions

no

answers

just sparkling beauty

when all else stops