where is your treasure?

where is your treasure?

your safety?

in the bank

or in You?

where is your Father?

your Source?

your Provider?

in the bank

or in You?

where is the eternal

the infinite

possibilities,

Life?

in the bank

or in You?

where is your faith placed?

in the bank

or in you?

where is love?

in things

in others

or in you?

where is God/Reality/Heaven?

faraway

in the future

or in You?

follow the simple directions...

all roads point to Home

all roads

point

to you

You,

the center of all that is

radiates outward

shining

the Star

of Truth

giving

giving

giving

no accident

glory is not a mistake

radiance is not an error

glory is strong

and bright

and beautiful

your radiant smile

is not

an error

it's not lucky

it's not something you can ever change

or that will ever end

it's not a misinterpretation

shining light is strong

luminous

it's only if you can't see it

it's only if you deny what is yours

that could possibly be

the mistake

is it one or is it two?

two strong candles

whose fire is the same

is this one

or is it two?

the same content

identical components

source

process

life

two strong candles

melt by the same fire

into one

next to you

in the flame

in the light

we both soften

bend

lose form

there is only the warmth

the only thing that ever dies

is the cold

the distance

the dark

coat of flesh

yes, i wear the coat of flesh

that reeks and vomits and blames and rages at what is

i've been a hypocrite

i own it all

who can deny he is human?

who can possibly claim he is more loving than another--

having hated less

and found nothing wanting?

only someone still scared to death of what is

of

complete honesty

truth

who wills but to turn from/avoid

the horrified mind

the insane confusion

dread

of anything

only here

can i finally be strong

i acknowledge

my mud

my confusion

it's simply a cloudy mind

and from here

no longer avoiding anything...

Clarity

dawns

dripping

ripe

juicy

the ruby red grapefruit

sits plump

in the sun

on the kitchen counter

its here now

full

ready

always

for me

the clay

our thoughts

are ripe

juicy

they appear

unendingly

falling

from the tree

simply arrive

serving themselves to us

no where to go

our door ever knocked at

Hi Joy

here i am

see me

question me

Self employed

working from Home

i need do nothing

but answer the door

the bushel basket

is brimming!

everything is a question

everything

is a question

what do you really believe?

do you really believe what you say?

do you really believe what you think?

is it true?

in the face of this "tragedy"

in the face of this "mistake"

in the face of this "event"

in the face of this "crisis" (opportunity in Chinese I think)

you never thought about it before?

well,

now

you have no choice!

this moment

and every instant

is the time

FOR

decision

that's why we're here

which side

are you on?

Love Life Abundance Spirit Vision Oneness Wholeness All Inclusive Defenseless Laughter Infinite Nature Reality Eternal

or

denial of Love...

nothing

black hole

fear

emptiness

scarcity

lack?

What are You?

Love

or

fear

and in the end....

in reality

there is no choice

no matter what you decide

no matter what you think

Love is

holding everything safely

rest now, dear Child,

in the silence

fossils don't know how to dance :-)

see

the fossils

buried

in your mind...

the ancient

lifeless

forms

taking up space

"i am a body"

"you are to blame"

"something is wrong"

"if only..."

these fossils

chain us to them

holding us tightly

in the past

to death

they hold no life

they are dead

and buried

see them!

and life is no longer

bound

by limits

of any kind

fossils

do not

keep us safe

fossils

do not

know how to dance!!!

they simply lay there

doing absolutely nothing

while we

worship them...

crazy!

unharmed

mommy mommy!

tommy beat me up!

(the ego still screams to me....)

oh

really,

are you sure?

are you breathing?

yes

are you walking?

yes

are you talking?

yes

are you still you

with all your gifts

and joy

and life

and thoughts

and poetry

and jokes

and friendship

and infinite possibilities?

yes

are you still Spirit

created by Spirit

forever unchangeable

no matter what your body looks like?

yes....

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

thank you...

loss

pain

suffering

is

only

the

imagining

we

are

no longer

what we are....

tommy/the world

can never

beat us up!

wordless

without pre-conception

i am born now

everything

brand new

awe

wonder...

without

pre conception

i have no substitute

for this

birth experience

now

no past

no luggage

birth

now

opening

to the new

world....

for giving

no pre conceptions....

hmmm...

????....

curious.....

interested...

unattached

totally connected...

floating

above and below equal

no pre conceptions

i watch

as the world is born ...

round trip ticket

before mo tion

before no tion

stillness

before body,

the thought of motion,

of going somewhere

else

leaving

stillness

calls for some con trap tion

to pick you up

and take you far away--

a vehicle

it's called

a daydream

because You

can never leave

what you are

Stillness

now we still the vehicle

use the vehicle

for the return trip

a dream is inherently

a round trip ticket

you eventually

simply

have to

wake up!

riding the crest...

who would i be

without the thought

something can happen at the wrong time?

i would but rest

in perfect stillness

to take in

the glory

of Heaven

having all that is right now

i would see

the Universe exists!!!

and is coming at me

and to me

all the time

thoughts/ideas

come to you

we don't go out to get an idea

we have ideas

that tell us

wht to do

thoughts are given

eternally appearing

no effort on our part

nor can we start them or stop them

creation is

regardless of our beliefs

we are lived

we are thought

we are breathed

relax

watch

enjoy

the ride

at the crest of the wave

balanced

poised

riding the peak experience

forever held

above the fray

the rumble

the wrestled and pinned down undertow

this froth for me

this light for me

this air, breeze, mist

for

God's Son

penetration of the divine

through and through

completely marinated

slopped and splashed with Love

dripping

rinsed

taken

in...ward

to Wholeness

(nothing can happen

at the wrong time...)

sailing!!!!

who would i be

without the thought

something can happen at the wrong time?

oh oh oh

i would see

the boat is always here

waiting for me

the moment i am ready

it is for me

and cannot leave

without me

the eternal ride

of peace

no friction at all

completely smoothe water

it glides

the boat simply waits

for you to leave the shore:

your solid misbeliefs

behind

step off the past

that held you for so long

leave the familiar

concepts

the old you

the ancient dreams of victim

wounded

missing parts

incompletion

and now!!!

the boat just walked through the door

the person in my life

is

my boat

he has come

and is here now and always

for me to board my love

to give/share my wholeness

that's how we sail

easily along

the holy relationship

is

but a boatride

without giving

we are sunk:

try to take

anything from a boat

and all you have is a hole

for the water to come in

and you both must go down

Boats/people are for-giving

herein lies all Peace

see the sailboats everywhere...it's really quite a ride:-)))

what do i really want for Xmas?

are you concerned

with the wrapping paper

or the contents?

God is

inside

the box

the fancy paper

will never satisfy you

Love is reflected

everywhere

you see it everywhere

or you don't see it at all

Everywhere is the mirror;

there is not a single mirror

for love

the whole world

is your mirror

how are you looking today?

open the box

look inside...

God is laughing there,

with you....

(all i want for Xmas

is God's laughter...:-)

See

be somebody

work hard

get somewhere

oh oh oh

what cruel unkind words

i am

so much more

than any one person

than any role

than any status

any income

any job description

career

any one position

oh oh oh

the dear innocent Child

Spirit

Enthusiasm

Life

is so so so much more

be something

no no, i say unto you but this,

SEE

what you are

all power in Heaven and earth is you

all glory

is

given you

you

are the Love

the real

the eternal

you

are the Song

that springs eternal

that is our very deepest love

the sweetest drink

the only quenching

we can ever know

know

thyself

know

what we are

let the call to be somebody

be what it is:

misguided meaningless nonsense

Only Spirit

is your Nature;

it is not

the bristle of a toothbrush (some specific title)

the Ocean

the Ocean

the Ocean,

Listen now

to the dearest Voice,

you are

and love it

with all your heart

spaciousness

we are

the stillness

the Space

for God

the open mind

be you spacious

open all the doors and windows

to the sun

the fresh air

the breath

freely in and out

open spaciousness

spacious skies

spacious mind

make room at the inn

simply

hold the space

allow space to be

between thoughts

words

actions

allow

allow

allow

space

to be

it is not the getting or filling

that nourishes us

but the space

give yourself lots of time

today

you have

all of it!

doorstep of her birth

resting

floating

on the still

clear

water

held

forever

in my birthplace

i can never leave

this stillness

born of stillness

it is my nature

my inheritance forever and always

this is my Home always

my growing up

my true acceptance of my real role

that i was born for

my name is Stillness

given

by God/Reality

i have finally come to see

my role in life

in the world

my purpose

my endless gift

the treasure i am:

stillness

the world over

finally she has returned to the doorstep

of her birth

and seen her future

as Herself

innocence

no change

ever

the pristine stillness...

only at you, God

i would not look ahead

nor behind

but only at you, God,

only at you

Joy of Being

sit still

to receive

how can you open a package

when you are on the run?

what is your goal:

some unknown fantastic destination

or the beautiful baby girl

in your hands

right now?

stop, please,

I love you

take this in

allow it to be true

for you

as you

show me how,

Love,

show me how

it takes a minute

to scratch through

the black crayon

on top of the colors underneath

remember always

you are worth it

pink

has never lost her luster

nor

have you

mousy advertising

no new ideas!

crazy little mouse

running frantically around

screaming

scared for his life: the tiny mad idea/thought

is not new...

just like advertising:

having nothing to offer...no new content;

only the ancient mistake

it's only tactic is to do

everything to get and keep your attention,

to convince you of its false claims

to shock you

louder

faster...more and more commercials per hour,

catchy...so it sticks in your mind (uses great music to help you remember and associate it with something good...

deceptive advertising

"cheaper"

unbelievable prices!...you bet they are unbelievable!

the cost is the unawareness of your life

your happiness

everything you truly value hidden from you

in exchange for this tiny idol/substitute/belief/fantasy/complete alienation

colorful

and funny

with the same old message:

you are not enough

you will never be enough

try this

try this

try this!

NOW!

do not delay!

hurry

hurry

hurry!

do not stop !!!!

to pause

and ask yourself if

this is what you really want

or if these claims hold any truth...

be not still

do not contemplate

take no time

to ask

just GO!

NOW!

LEAVE!

whatever you are doing

whoever you are

whereever you are

RUN away

as fast as you can

to the nearest store/outlet

and GET

a new cover/outfit/distraction

cover up

the emptiness

again

and

again

and

again

do everything you can

NOT

to look inside

run away from Home

forever

be you bankrupt!

the announcer within and without

advises over and over and over

today

we would see

this mousy/lousy plan

for what it is

and

pause

but an instant

rest

be

you/we already are

Heaven (have everything)

ahhhh....

topsy turvy

topsy turvy

which way is up?

tumbling around

under water

i am not sure where the light is

it comes at first in flashes

a peek into Eternity

a head above water!

oh

oh

oh

air to breathe!!!

all the time!

WOW!

who would have thought...

from underneath the sea...

that the whole sky existed!

enlightened to this

i can never return

to breathe

through gills

walking on solid ground

my feet

are no longer flippers

freedom is not

imprisonment

within a body

once you have flown

you will never walk

the same way again

loss is not possible

sacrifice

is not

love

the movie maker

holds all the parts

in his mind

and far more than all the parts

of this one movie

so the movie maker

is but one particle

in the mind of Love

one particular transmitter

to all the others

signals

awareness

light

shining

reflectors

we rest

in the mind of Love

and allow its messages

to be received

imbibed

and expired: breathed out

given away

shared with every breath we take

dear Friend

my weightlessness is yours!

have this with me!

feel this delight

this barenakedness: my hiddeness exposed

this freedom

from ancient constraints/believing

feel

my

joy

thankyou

thankyou

thankyou

for yourlight

yourhelp

ourjointwill

how easy this all is

when there is only one team

and the purpose is clearly seen

the perfect child

the perfect child:

autism

suicide

the perfect child

is not the heisman trophy winner

not straight A's

handsome

with girlfriends

and a resume

the perfect child

is not the stepford child

the success

the glory

the required smile

and popularity

i can claim

can bask in

as a result of my holy parenting

the perfect child/friend/spouse/mirror of all kinds

does wear

the crown of thorns

my thorns

the perfect child

in the perfect life

in this perfect city

and perfect family

shows me

perfectly

what beliefs i hold

and will not let go of

that pierce

and nauseate

and poison

my perception

the perfect child

shows me

the game plan

where to attend to

where the defense is

the blockers

the goal tenders

that keep love at bay

always waiting for

another day

another game

another performance

to see

if love

will ever show up

the perfect child

touches

every scrape

every bruise

shows me

where i am hurting

so i can own it

the perfect child

leaves no facet of me

hidden

no place left to hide

we finally must heal

there are no orphan thoughts

finally

growing up

i recognize

they all

are mine

and welcome them

back home....

the perfect child

takes me there...

and so it is

unstuff the turkey (me:-)

it's okay

to be unhappy

it's even help-full

to be unhappy

unhappy is how

we learn

what makes us happy

and what doesn't

oh oh oh

how stuffed i have been

to want everyone in my life to be happy all the time!

give everyone a break, Joy,

a thanksgiving break

today i finally realized

i'm grateful

for unhappiness

it's honest

it is real

it is true intimacy

when someone can tell you

or you can admit to yourself

how deeply unhappy you are

when you feel that way...

it is a true gift of trust...

i let down all my walls

in front of you

bare naked

i cry

and you

are there

feel no shame in anything less than

total happiness

we are

as we are

in this moment

and only honesty

will take us home

where we are free

to finally be

what we are...

re-lief...re-leaf

re-lieved

of guilt/mis-take

is

to be

re-lived

literally

to come alive

again

free

to shine

express

unblocked

undenied

unobliterated

unhidden by jilted feelings

the stone rolled away from the grave

the light

hitting every angle of rock

inside

the cave

the dead man

arises

lit

from within

this light

has never dulled

for a moment

this light

gave all life

this light

gently carried you

through all the misty mornings

and terrible thunder

in the night

this light

even held your hand

as you drove the knife

into your very own heart

inhaled the poison gas

that stopped your body's

breath

but never

for an instant

has this Love

not held you safely

in its everloving Arms

never for an instant

have you not been

what you are

never for an instant

has joy not been your sail

and your mast not

a cross of crucifixion,

but an upward spire

ever re-minding you

that you are not

of this world alone

and your eyes

are a gift

to behold

the newborn

innocence

right here

right now

in the very mud

in which you stand

see no one

nor any situation

as anything less

than the greatest

pearl of wisdom

you could ever receive

everything

is for

your greatest joy

in ever awakening

appreciation,

Joy

attendance

without hopelessness

the tender green tips

push through the soil

emerge

amidst rocks

in shadows

no knowledge of future rain

or weather patterns

they simply arrive

come what will

hello hello hello!

never stopping

life appears

and appears

and appears

constant blooming

opening

unfolding

unfold your thought...

what is inside it?

under it?

behind it?

what do you feel?

unfold it all the way

explore it--

walk its peaks

its valleys

its hidden caverns

is there a past occurence

still dripping there?

maybe even a river

or a flood...

are you holding up the dam...?

is there a closet

that remains locked?

is there discomfort

that calls for a listener?

life

calls you

to attend

right on time

everything happens

right on time

bodies begin

bodies stop

right on time

the moment of conception

the outward picture/symbol

of an inward condition...

there is

only

the present

the thought/concept

on stage in this moment

how can it possibly be "wrong"?

it's just

what is

in your mind

right now

can you plan

when an idea will come to you?

can you plan

when an idea will leave you?

when you can't think of it anymore?

breathe...

watch...

our function

is to look,

without judgement

someone "leaves"

it must

be a gift

i don't know

where his body went...

but i know

he never really

can leave me...

he lives with me forever--

every instant of love

is now part of me

that continues

to grow

and be given

to everyone in my world...

i can never forget

what lives

as me

i will not to repeat the mis-takes

i made

with this student/teacher

i see what i did

and the world/i

now benefits

forever more

from my realization...

everything happens

right

on time...

for

everyone

connecting

how can you possibly snap a band

that connects you to Reality/Love?

what but a comedy

could suggest such a concept?

can you really make us believe

your story

that somehow you are not connected

to earth

to your brothers?

let's see you not breathe

for a moment

your story is all made up--

imagined

where is the proof?

take just one footstep

that is not governed by gravity

do you see how foolish your thought

looks

to God?

"i am king--

and i declare

i

am not

taken care of!..."

ha ha ha ha!

look again, dear child!

when have you ever gone

hunting for air

or water

or invented seeds

of your own

to grow

your own food...?

perhaps you think you came up

with the blueprint

for friends....

oh oh oh

it is time for waking,

dear one

i hold you in my Heart

where only Love

is the Harvest....

never never never never

can there be

lack

of any kind

thanksgiving

is

the only sound

on

and

on

and

on

and...

connection

i am connection

what are hands for

but to touch?

eyes

to see

everything about me says

you are free

you are free

you are free

you are innocent

here is the invitation

the irresistable invitation

to the world

to me

symbols/pictures

of my beliefs/concepts

to come home

to be cleaned off

showered in love

the ancient soot

lifted by the breeze

and all my shining friends

sit happily before me

and i am delighted

Tell your brother,

he is free

today!

and you

will rejoice

treat yourself....

year round

Easter eggs....:-)

free transportation

Clarity

Radiance

spreads Her Wings

takes flight

lifted up

she spirals

glides

coasts

feel God

carry you

relax

ride the wind

ride

the flow

ride

the stream of Joy

of Laughter

It pulls you

toward it

irresistable

relief

from stress

strain

effort

thinking/believing

you

are in control

listen: God is singing

your favorite song

you are my Baby

I'll always love you

One Song

we all love

Ride it!

share it!

let it spill out of your pockets

all day

as you traipse the world

that all may find it

and keep it

and rejoice

we can play now

free

transporation

in

every

moment...

You are it!

no hug

no kiss

no kind word

no compliment

no raise in salary

no reward

of any kind

no trip

no physical condition

can ever make you feel better (or worse)

than you do right now

it can't give you anything

you don't already have

nothing can make you more than you are right now

you'll never be more

than you are right now

stop waiting for the "relationship"

with anything,

for the future,

to give you the love

you are denying yourself

You are it!

You are the Love--

All of it!

that's how simple the answer is

to every problem

You

are Infinite Love

You

automatically go out to all that is

You

can't stop this

You

can't change this

herein

lies the Peace of God

thank you,

Reality

one big wet kiss

a string

connecting you

to God

you cannot ever leave your Source

awareness of God

is in your mind

forever

the Thought of God

can not be put out

no matter what you think

do, or say

nothing you can ever do

can change this

you are powerless against God/Reality/your Nature

awareness of Love

remains

forever

awareness of Love

appreciation of Loveliness

awe

remains

your natural condition/state

thanksgiving,

the stars in the sky

but symbols

of the endless thanks

we give to our fatherRealityLove

of our joy

our celebration

our kisses

to what is

One Thing

kisses

Kisses

all over

everywhere

everything

the world/Us:

One Big Wet Kiss

:-))))

all things

our Fatherhood

of all that is

hallowed

Whole

all inclusive

is thy Name

all inclusive

is thy Will

Whole,

integrity

in everything

all things---pointers

stepping stones toward/of truth

no other possibility exists

everything

a messenger

of light

neon signs

only truth

only authenticity

exists

"i am fear"

but says,

please...give

me

some love

Love,

i know you are there

i call on you now

i call you forth

i would see you

now

i remember you

Love

Wholeness

i call for the return of naturalness

open eyes

the whole picture

the whole universe is very involved

in everything

have you forgotten how much energy there is

in

existence?

oh my my my

what is this joke

of energy

shortage?

there is no one

that can sit still

while this music plays!

my heart never

misses

a beat

only this is true

nothing else is

there is no shortage

of bliss...

conduit

i looked in the mirror last night

and i was struck

by such beauty

and i realized i had nothing at all to do with it

this beautiful being/creation

body

mind

spirit

i am but an observer

a listener

a willingness to hear

to question

to act

to follow

the simple direction

a conduit

for wisdom

light

understanding

to act it out

to live it

that's all there is to this path

it's really very simple

listen,

and

follow

the simple direction

artificial perception

artificial perception

names

division

are we animals

if we eat only plants...?

being now made up of only plant material...

and plants in turn

eat soil

and sunlight

are we not sunlight?

and soil?

heat and light

energy

constantly transferring...flowing

100,000 miles per second

the real world

and thought even faster...

do we really think we have any idea

what we are

what is going on

what we are thinking--

being

thought

the energy that comes to us

and through us

just light light and heat and air

and now we see

but it is but the projection

of sunlight from somewhere behind us,

an image of light shining out toward us

a symbol

of radiation

freely given us

freely supporting all that lives

nothing receives more

nor can "take" more sunlight/love

than any thing else

there is nothing you can ever do

to earn more of it

than you have right now

no debt possible

as within

so without

no debt possible

no black hole

only continuous radiation

of light

warmth

nourishment

the sun

is you

is there any situation

you can really concoct

where you don't have

enough power?

an empty lap

an empty lap

allows things

to come to you

literally

to fall

into it

sit still today

without your "treasures"

wait

for light

to fall

on you

without your "treasures"

it is

you

are it

clarity

transparency

i see through my ruse...

i don't really enjoy

the martyr story

the woe is me

oh nobody loves me

i have been slighted

let me show you your guilt

your wrong doing

that causes my suffering

what ancient lies!

the only cause of all the sorrow of the world...

I live fully now

as fully as I ever have

created of Joy

my lies have never changed the truth.

Thank you, Reality.

empty lap

clarity

Joy

Always

all perceived problems

all perceived problems

a door

that opens

to the night sky

to the stars beyond

the darkened bedroom

beyond thoughts of walls

see but

the infinite light

shining

bursting forth

but falling

across the sky

giving itself to you

for you

look not at the walls

you have built

have surrounded yourself with

have separated you from

all of Heaven

let but the breath of Song

gently blow in

through the cracks

hear now the song

of the falling stars

you cannot see yet

waken to their light

within you

and let them

but shine out

to all the others

for joy!

you

are

the star studed heaven

twinkling in the slumber

that all might gently waken

to the awe

that is

Daddy!

thoughts are things,

they are children

children cannot harm

their parents

no matter how loud

and fierce they act out

the parent knows

it is just

mistake

of ignorance

innocent

little child

calling for love

for your attention

hear me! it says

acknowledge this feeling i have right now!

i need you, Father

i know you are there for me

Love,

Stillness,

Security

Beauty

please please please

show me beauty again

I can't see it right now

and i want to more than i can say

i want to be happy

read me a story

with happy ending

tell me a joke

make me laugh again!

tickle me!!!!

i need your help...

re assure me,

Daddy!

no thought you ever have

no matter how desperate

or gleeful...

can ever hurt you

or change you in any way

be no longer confused

that the child can hurt you--

she calls only

for your tenderness

and understanding

you are the container,

not the thought

you

are far far far bigger

infinitely bigger

than this one thought

give her now

the Love

you love

to love

stillness

stillness remains

undisturbed

forever

stillness

can watch

catastrophic

cataclysmic

thoughts

imaginings

it sees them as they are--

just a concept

just a thing

a toy

a mind playing--

but never seriously

believing Its very Being

the Watcher

could ever lose His Peace

over it

could become

this idea

preposterous:

an idea

of the mind

could actually change

its creator--

become cause

of Its Cause

transparency

of water

of mind

is its

nature

a thought

a rock

a float toy

does nothing

to affect the nature of water

so angry thoughts

guilt

hurt

pain

have no reality/no existence

in the Nature of God

Love

Being

we see the toys

we toss around

we toss into our concept of God/Reality

we look at

instead of the clarity of truth

and we but remember

we are playing

its preposterous to think for a moment

anything we could ever do/think

could actually change

the nature of clarity

what we are

as

Clarity

created us

God is Network

i let the Network be

the Web

all parts connected to all parts

everything available to everything

( it is impossible "i"/any one point is ever more or less connected

than any other)

nor a "king"

a ruler

more important

more valuable

more influential

than any other point

democracy

justice

equality for all

every particle of light

every wave

every electron

every impulse

just signals

communication

flashing out

no difference

in what is behind it all

the pulse

of life

breathe

laugh

see now

look intentionally

God is in everything I see

it is truly impossible anything is separate from the whole

for even one instant

Love roars within us all

equally

with dominion

over any other image we conjured up....

full moon or crescent

only one is true

Love

is where all decisions

have already been made

all alternatives to Love

appearances

illusions

have been laid aside

delusions of

wanting separation

apparitions

of benefits

dangling before your eyes

tantalizing

mesmerizing

hyp no tized

potions

"importance"

here

all ways

all Hallow's eve

on the eve

on the brink

...of getting

more...

that one magic thing

the spell

to complete you

the brew that heals

the ancient wound

Come Home, Son,

it is already done

behold now the Living Christ:

you are Love

far beyond bones,

flesh, skeletons

Spirit is

undeniable

no black bat

can ever hide the moon,

forever full

though but a crescent

in sight

we know a circle

is forever round,

and laugh

at the child

who belives

but the slice...

whispered

tenderness does not evolve

tenderness came with me

remains

as me

shining as a star

tenderness created me

tender

perhaps creation was whispered

into existence

whispered into God's Holy Ear

and tears of joy, us,

rolled down Her Face

sparkling

clear

innocent

not a bang at all

not explosion

but opening heart

a wave of peace

like a smile

that shines from your face

and warms my heart

without any effort

at all

total gentleness

heals

simply

by being

what it is

a better mother

who would i be

without the thought

i should have been a better mother?

i'd have compassion for your pain,

for believing your thoughts,

your sleep,

your innocence

i'd see that's not who you truly are,

that it's not personal;

it's just a concept

being acted out

in stillness

i'd say

it is not so

peace

stillness

relaxed

breathe

see the joke underneath it all,

the impish grin

you're right...

how silly to be upset over this...

neither of us really want this

let's go play

outside in the sun

that's what we both want--

just to be happy

take my hand,

friends again

at last

Family

One Father

Love

the scolder

calling for love

scolding myself

not good enough

not good enough

not good enough

i tried to get rid of it on you

if only you would change

i would be happy/healed

mistake:

instead i said over and over and over to you

not good enough

not good enough

not good enough...

a thorn in my side,

sin...

i would give her a hug

oh dear precious one

lay down your sharp knives

slicing yourself to bits

for something that is not true

your worth is God's

your spirit undefiled

pristine

forever unharmable

unalterable

the radiant pearl

Love

Comfort

Home

Safety

Nurture

Security

Cradle

Rest

dear One

lay down the blade

your dream is madness

lay down

lay down

lay down

into my arms

let your tears fall

into my arms

let the ache fall

into my arms

let your weariness tell its story

hot air dispelled at last

oh dear One

it is not so

the blindness is cold now

just rest awhile

let the blabbering

the blubbering

subside

let the throbs

the tales

the heavy heavy chains

lay now on the ground

open your Eyes

see Me

oh dear One

see only Me now

i see You dear One

the tenderness

is undeniable

rest

dear One

You

are

Whole

silly

Jesus,

how can i see this dead body differently?

just because you look away

across the street

how silly is it to interpret this

as meaning

that i am not right here with you

still standing right beside you

always

unmoveable

though you look

everywhere else

but

straight at me

i am in you

seek not outside you

for you will not find me there

gullible

gullible

i let Love be

let arrows come

and hit

softness

and fall

limply

to the ground

gullible

open to all mouths

thoughts

ways

as harmless

as joyful

as possible

as helpful

the fool

not knowing anything at all

i open

to see

what is

without understanding

without background

without study

without a future

without reason

and profit

and kickback

and ego boosting

morale

without image monitoring

am i free

light

as a feather

manueverable

ever toward

happiness

though all sense

would teach it is folly

this heavy scroll

is tossed to the wind

ancient commandments

sink slowly

to the bottom of the sea

the ink

dissolving

transparently clouding the water briefly

before clarity returns again

and all evidence

of past prison bars

is vacant

where once the heavy iron

strangled

my lightheartedness

gull ible

free

to fly

home

to myself

and you

and

joy

innocence

prances

again

in mind

and on earth...

roots do bloom

roots do bloom

but not without the root

how far fetched an idea

a thought like that is

funny, yes

look at me!!!

look at me!!!

way up here

i did it!

all by myself!

isn't that the supreme cry

of a child?

the adult knows better

the adult

has everyone to thank--

so many they can not be counted

or individually named

for without any one person

in her life

she would not exist

how did she even get here?

can she claim credit for this

miraculous momentous occasion

let's start here,

and so she sees

she has nothing

to claim credit for at all...

only gratitude for being

and all that surrounds her--

that abounds and supports her

in uncountable ways...

have you thanked

King Soopers lately?

without food on your table

what else would get done...?

or Conoco?

without your car

what would get done...?

or Xcel?

without your lights,

computer, stove

and refrigerator...

let's give credit

where credit is due

there is no one person

to thank

how scrimpy

and scarce a view of gratitude

today

let's recognize

the Interconnectedness of the Whole

we are all One Thing Together

and

nothing at all

alone

i have never done anything

all

by

myself!

Reality.

Roots

do

bloom,

but never

without

the roots...

forgiving Reality

today i would forgive Reality

and let Joy

be known again

silence

where once my story held sway

without guilt

the better way is clear

the opening

is held up

held out

glowing

for you

everywhere

the green of grass

the blue of sky

without any guilt

shines

toward you

fills you up

rushes in to meet you

the freshness is yours

the open blueness

the space

extending out so freely

and flexible

forever

swooping, gliding, floating

transported

the swirling skirt

arcing from pleat to pleat

then softening

into nothing at all

perhaps a whisper

perhaps a breath

perhaps a wing

or the buzzing of many tiny vibrations

happiness

flying shooting blessing every possible

pathway

of thought

Reality

eyebrows

have you noticed

the way a man sometimes

raises his eyebrows...

one side higher than the other...

without a thought of it?

it just happens

did you see it?

reality going on all the time

and we miss it

because we're off in some story

some future event

the next errand on the list

the word our husband said last night

the bill in the middle of our head

blocking

the miracle

right here

right now

today

breathe

slow down

stay in one place just a few moments longer

see the way he tilts his head

and you didn't even ask...

beauty

everywhere

going on

without

your "control"

notice

value

"i can heal you

because i know you.

i know your value

for you,

and it is this value

that makes you whole. "(p186t)

what is the value of Love

God

perfect peace

a tranquil mind

the end of war

constant Joy

Life?

can you really prefer/believe

something else

instead?

an imaginary future

instead of valuing

what is

right now?

without a future

the only door

to Joy

is

now

open open open open

to

what you are

greater than all of time

all the stars, galaxies, moon and sun

all the oceans

all imagination

all dreams

is Reality

Love

the greatest Mystery of All

let's face it

turn inward

where infinity

expands

forever

all

value

within

you

looking...

do you see

that everyone

just wants your attention

your love

your ear

your heart?

do you see

when you even look

at a cat

she purrs?

the particle

is moved

by the observer

we move ourselves

when we but

notice

when we but look

within

and

oh

the dear One

tender eyes

(tender-izes...:-)

Everything...

before you arrive

the path is lit

before you arrive,

You

are there

before you arrive

at any conclusion

the Answer is already known

only Love

exists

before we talk,

we are One

before we conclude,

agreement is certain

before the handshake,

the hug

before the hug,

the heart beats

simultaneously

no difference ever

heard

between your heart

and mine

one gift

over and over and over and over

forever

Song

of Joy!

living

now

as

you

even

before you arrive!

God's Face

under every footstep

light shines upward

there is no step

you can take

where kindness

won't hold you

before you place your foot upon it

already it supports

your lightness

already it sees you

and rejoices

at your coming

this way

taking this very step

on God's Face

gently would we step

gently would we speak

gently would judgement

fall away

from our heart

if only we remember

God

is

in

everything

we

see

touching us

in every moment

we are

Light

from

with in