meeting yourself

lonely

feels so good

it feels so good

to give it a name

to be with her

hold her in my arms

come sit with her

"thank you for sharing your whole existence with me

i am so sorry for throwing you out

for abandoning you

for trying to pretend

you didn't exist

squishing you into a dark container

in the bottom of my mind

while wearing you on my body

carrying you in plain sight all over town

not knowing

your harmlessness

believing only in no escape

from this hell

this predicament...

the answer now

is in front of my face

the moment has arrived

the secret to happiness

eternal life

love

inner peace

the ultimate end of all forms of war

be

with

all

your feelings

it won't kill you

on the contrary

it is the only place

you will ever find

true

lasting

peace

you

meet

you

there is nothing to fear

just sit with it

give it a name

acknowledge it

"know thyself"

what am i feeling?

i am feeling....

now

i am back home

i am oozing with...(self knowledge)

she settles back down now

stillness

the ripple almost gone

what a quaint little ripple :-)

i'm feeling lonely

lonely...

and alive

so full and overflowing

only something very alive

could feel at all

these strong strong strong feelings

are a sign of life,

not death

curious

now

of this arena i have run from

blockaded myself out of

all my life

what exactly are you?

what exactly is this feeling?

i open to it

investigate

inhabit it fully

here is my complete rescue

everything returned to me

no speck of myself

damaged

or unacceptable

but

precious

valued

wholly recognized

let loneliness

sing her heart out

and your song

is returned to you

there is no song

that is

wrong

to

sing

only a bandage over the mouth

will feel like death

but it is inevitable

the bandage

must

fall

life sings

and

sings

and

sings

all the notes

amen.