i miss "you", i think, but it's me that i want...

i miss "you"
i think,
but it's me
that i want

and i'm here
every moment
whether i want to be
or not

there's no place i can go
where i
am not there

what was i thinking
in the old nightmare?

there's not one single instant
i am ever alone
with or without
my computer or phone

i don't need
a voice
on the other end of the line,
to ask and to answer
every question of mine

hello joy, how are you?
now just sit with that,
go in
and notice
every creak and/or crack

just what is occurring?
and bring your mind back

where was i going
when i thought i needed "you"?
just sit very still...
what's inside you?

the birds and the air
and each breath of mine,
don't throw me away
like an old valentine

there's someone who loves you
and will never leave Home,
Her Name is the same
as my very Own

this Wise One,
who's lived all her days here with me,
beside the bitter,
beside the  sweet,
besides my son's grave,
beside the murk,
 beside the "loss",
this wise one
came free,
in the same very instant
that took place my birth


this Self that has traveled
each crack in the road,
is the Friend i can't part with,
can't be bought or sold

She knows me like no one,
i love you she calls,
there's no place she won't catch me
and cushion my falls

i love this dear Is-dom,
and lover
of life,
Why oh why,
would i reach for another?
this Self that i am
isn't hidden in my brother

She's here right now
and i am so glad i'm learning
i don't need to experience life with endless yearning

next time i feel lonely
and think i need "you"
i'll remember in truth,
there's no where else i need go