layers

to vacuum the carpet

isn't enough...

the real dirt

lies underneath

the carpet

today

we would pull back the carpet

and get to the bottom of it....

ohhhh....

i fell in love with my son today

though he is dead

i met him

again

for the very first time

i saw him

without my violence

without my fear

without my veil

i saw him sitting there

playing video games

without my hate

of violence

i saw the Love

that sat in the chair

oh dear dear dear

Son of God

i am so sorry

i ever

gave you my jacket of guilt

to wear

what a heavy garment

for an innocent child

i love to know

it touched you not

i love to see

you shining yet

i love to see the Love of God

shining in you now

reflecting back at me

thank you for your Power, tiny Child

thank you for your Holiness

thank you

for saving me

from my lies

thank you

for this birth

of

Truth

no word

today

i would do no harm

i would let go of all my violent thinking

dictating

how the world should be

i would vacation

for a few moments

from

all

my

ideas.....

sometimes it's time...

sometimes it's time to just

sit out the dance

sometimes it's time to watch

the party from the corner of the room

sometimes it's time to sit at a table

by yourself

with yourself

loving yourself

it may look like you're alone

to others....

but you know

you have stunning company :-)

peek a boo :-)

what can you really see?

looking at my face

what can

you

really

see?

can you see

deep deep deep down into

the

light

of my soul?

can you see

this thought

as it sparkles

in this moment

of creation?

can you see the substance?

can you see this inner experience

i am having right now?

can you see... beyond these words......

to the other world

that is coming through right now?

can you feel

this bridge

to Eternity?

what

can

you

really

see?

only this....

you

being

me

;-)

stuttering

when love

seems to stutter

don't be fooled

behind this breathing space

is the deepest reverberation

hitting the walls of your mind and heart

and pulverizing the ancient petroglyphs

nothing left

now there is room

for Love

to enter

whenever Love

seems

to stutter

do not

be fooled

you are the ocean of Love Itself

have you ever seen

a wave

stutter?

undone

willing to shift

ever so slightly

and let the Love of God literally

come pouring through

the tiniest of cracks

and it is all undone

the dam is penetrated

the flood of Love

the gushing

immeasurable Power of Love

of the Entire Universe

of All Creation

does the rest

comes crashing through

the dam but crumbles

dissolving forever

without a trace

and every thought

we ever think

is met

with waves

of Love

Truth

and

understanding...

Cinderella!

...i would free myself

from slavery...

dictating all i should and shouldn't do

dictating all my needs and wants

dictating what i am

what the standards are,

the rules for behavior

constantly grading it

evaluating it

demanding "i" do more

be more

stop this!

start that!

sooner!

slower!

Cinderella! Cinderella!....(shrieking).....

i would resign

from the wicked stepsister

and

oh oh oh.....

just rest

and.let.Her.be.

what.She.IS.

freedom

abolition

has anyone ever

not done what you wanted? :-))))

...not done

what you

thought they should do?

has anyone ever

not acted out your fantasy?

then you do

believe in slavery!!!...

you believe

that someone is here

to do exactly as you think...

as you dictate

in your mind...

we believe

we OWN people!

we

are

slaveholders

in

our

mind

today

we would

free.our.slaves.

let them live

their own lives

have their own thoughts

their own truth

and we free them

so that our own light

can shine

again

in our mind

ever so slightly

what a surprise!

i draw open the blinds

and before my eyes

God

what we have named "a drop of water"

left from the rain

in the morning sun

catches me

it's pink

i shift ever so slightly

it's yellow

green

blue

lavendar

yes

it's

ALL

there

all the colors

all possibilities

in this pinpoint of light

and it is i

who but shifts ever so slightly

to see it

how very very very close are we

to such a sparkling new perception

it's all already there

so magnificent

so radiant

so breathtaking

we open the blinds

and all possibilities

are sparkling

just waiting

such a surprising beauty

and as we shift but one hair's width

in our position

is more beauty revealed

today

only this:

be willing

to shift

ever

so

slightly

sickness

the communication device can't be sick

and the message isn't sick

so what is sick?

it must be my willingness that is sick

my willingness to hear love

to respond to love

to give away/share love

to speak love

to think

loving thoughts

i shut off my receptivity to love,

to God

i turned off the phone

and not hearing that i was loved

i ran away and hid

i see where i am

sitting homeless under this bridge

and i see the Sun has never stopped shining

no one for a moment

has stopped loving true heartfelt

communication

everyone is your Friend

the Universe is a very friendly place

when i don't cover my ears

in my own heart

there is only one kind of sickness

and that is "heartsickness"

and the only remedy

is Love

thank God

that is what

we are made of

and we would prevent

all mental illness

by giving it away to everyone

we know

we are the rain

l love the rain!

the rhythms playing on the roof

the trees, the streets,

especially on my gutter....

the moisture

seeping in

to all the cracks

the swelling

the uptake

the acceptance

and receptivity

with GLADNESS

and rejoicing

don't you love the icy cold drink

on a hot summer day?

there is no question of acceptance of

what feels so good!

so the rain

is here

and now

we must have

ordered it

it's brought

to our table

free of charge

our Secret Admirer,

the Holy Spirit,

watching with glee

as it freely

showers us

sings to us

reminds us

of the Ancient River,

the flood of Love

gushing through our veins

through our Hearts

through our Being

it is us

that rains upon the earth

so mercifully

so generously

so fluidly

with all we are

holding back nothing

and receiving all

we pour out...

direct communication

direct communication of light

from Father to Son

here is the Purpose

of all that is

of this day

and all days

minutes

hours

the One Moment

there is no future

in which to accept the Truth

that you are Light

there is only Now

are you Light

or not?

you have already proven

the answer

because to be "not Light"

you would not even be reading this!!!

i love you,

Joy

thank God for Light!

we dedicate this day to Light

to candles

that remain burning

in the wind

despite the 100mph gusts

despite the rain

despite the torrents

despite the despicable characters

lurking in the dark corners of our mind

shouting obscenities and outbursts of insanity

we dedicate this day

to illumination

from the center out

the strength of Truth

of Wisdom

that no age has diminished

so much as a grain of sand

we dedicate this day

of clouds

to the Sun

that contributes to their very presence

by its own warmth

contributes to their expansion

to their evaporation

that at the perfect time

the Light of the Sun

the Clarity of Reality

bursts forth

in such strength

and boldness

that no doubt

remains possible

we dedicate this day

to Light

without question

because Light

is

unquestionable!!!

amen, brother!

the holy virus!

yes, you did read that right...

if all is Love

doesn't that include viruses....?

think of those innocent little parts of the Universe

sitting there doing nothing...

and we separate them out

and give them this big ugly name .....VIRUS! (skull and cross bones!)

we took our inner fear

and tried to place it outside of us

but

there's only One Cloth

we've heard this before

it's ancient

just like the "lowly virus"

the Holy Virus :-)

the Gift: Joy, today is a day of silence/alias laryngitis, etc etc etc.....

Is this not the most ancient and holy of wisdom?

Isn't silence the place we go

to be

with God!?

Holy Virus to me, "I am with you.

I am for you--not against you...

Today

be still

today

rest

today

let go of your plans"

today be with God

no talking

no interactions with the world

with distractions

just you

and God

in silence

deep

24 hours

48hours

can you take it?

72 hours

of the ego not talking.....no commercials for it's greatness!!!!:-)

96...

hours of peace...

of intimacy

with God

ask your deepest questions

speak no word of your own

120

hours

of

Clarity...

and the scrappy little ego voice says hilariously....

"but what about my paycheck....

i don't get "paid" if i don't "work"....?!!@

oh you dear sweet little innocent child...

(whose view of the world is but from the perspective of a tiny mouse....)

120

hours of deepest wisdom

of freedom

of Love revealed

of Self Realization

and you think you are not getting paid!

how many dollars could ever equal such a gift!

the thought is nonsense

resurrection of Original Beauty...

do you really only desire 120 hours....

the Holy Virus...

think again

what time

is for....

no greater gift than this....

contemplate

contemplate

everything you think you know

someone taught you

(are you absolutely positive catsup is made of tomatoes...

are you absolutely sure that it's a tomato...?

not part of God, which is completely indivisible and indistinquishable from all that is..

not part of the earth

not water, sun, and air

not Love

not candy

not a mirror of your heart....

who told you?

was it a valid source?

who was their source?

are you a valid source?

of all the things you think you know

how much of it is certain

and unchangeable?

if it isn't certain

without doubt

completely

unchangeable

it isn't true

what do you know now?

how valid is your source?

only validity

has value

contemplate

who

is

your

Source

and what

does It know?

about you

about Itself

about Reality?

contemplate

guidance

it is always right there

every word you need

every thought

every direction

is written crystal clear already

in your mind

so luscious

so lavish

is your guidance

it but bubbles over

with abundance

for you

opportunities for joy

and rejoicing

and joining

and celebrating

forgiveness

perfect clarity

where once there was doubt

indecision

and clouded thinking

smoky and drugged

now the new birds

pour forth

all around you

singing and singing and singing

your praises and delight

they bring to you

companions of incomparable wealth

filled to overflowing

with wisdom

and knowledge

and helpfulness

and wholly empty of fear

so that there is nothing you can ever do

that they will not uphold and support you

from ever falling.... again

double vision

God is

crystal clarity

crisp sharp acuity

like nothing we've ever seen

we've been seeing double

seeing everything with a ghost image

and we don't even know it

we think it's the normal

way to see

because we always have

two images

one good one bad

a good side and a bad side

to everything

everyone

every situation

it's double vision

it's a distortion of reality

Reality is single-sided

One Thing

crystal

clear

sharp

Love is

Nothing else is

there are not two sides to Love

there are not two ways to see it

anything but this is double vision

corrective lens are prescribed

resist nothing

"live from inspiration,

not obligation..."

resist nothing...

what a way to go

how fast could we move

by resisting nothing

rubbing on nothing

no friction

like lubricated metal parts

freely zipping along

no sticky shoes

on the dance floor

that hold you up

and trip you

shake hands

and smile

to all of it

love all your friends

the quiet

the dark

the masqueraded

the punk

the elitist

the summer wench :-)

the rain goddess

the merman

Zeus

and

Athena

every possibility

every thought

in all of the Universe

every novel

every tale

every song

and every scrap of garbage

is but a figment

of our imagination

love the theater...

love the writer...

Love

the Source

resist

No

Thing

and your Thoughts

will fly

of themselves

to God

speed of light

why is it someone seems to leave your life?

one reason

so you can move toward God

faster

the space invites

a higher vibration

a higher frequency

of communication

with your Self

and Others

it invites in

the perfect catalyst

for shared

exponential growth

it invites

awareness

of the speed

of Light

Now

stillness

we do not make demands

we simply wait

i let go

and there is

only light

in my stillness

is the world's

there is nothing more valuable

that i can do with my time, my mind,

my life--which is not mine

in doing nothing

are all things accomplished

do you want world peace?

be still

do you want freedom from

financial turmoil?

be still

do you want the end of divorce

and only deep lasting love?

be still

do you want to love yourself

completely forever

without the possibility

of ever ending?

be still

do you want to freely embrace

all news headlines,

every scrap of gossip,

every old pattern,

and teaching from

the orthodox church?

be still

only this

here is the Answer to all

movement away from God

be still

right where you are

in God

off the beaten path :-)

"you think

that without the ego

all would be chaos.

I assure you that without the ego

all would be love." acim p?

without the ego

bursts forth liberty

as all rules

restrictions

conditions

simply fracture

and fall away

out of time

out of space

out of the past

out of illusion

out of romantic fairy tales

to the now

the one

the only

infinite moment of Possibilities

roaring with warmth

so incredibly flexible

to expand

and include

every lark

every spontaneous joyous bird

that flits into your awareness

to jump off the boxcar

at the open meadow

to lay down

in this moist oozy fragrant swamp

to be lifted

so naturally

over your head

lifted out of your mind

out of your train of thought

to an atmosphere

of invisibility

where you lose sight of your self

and

dis....a p p e a r....

and zing

into

an

expansiveness

of

unknown

ecstasy....

forgiveness

forgiveness

is when

you remember...

your Ecstasy

light

to speak your truth

means

to share

your Ecstasy

sickness

there is no thought

that is sick

that is not helpful

that does not direct us,

guide us,

POINT US BACK TO GOD

pain is but a call for relief

pain is a visitor

i welcome

because she is here

She must have come to bring me love

so i sit with her

and open to the gift

please, friend,

what loving thought have you

come to share with me?

what buried memory of God

will you help me open to today?

thank you blessed "attacker"

for the truth

you call me to live

like passionate lips

there are

so many positions of

Love:

each curve on a branch,

the thousand different ways

your eyes can embrace us,

the infinite shapes your

Mind can draw,

the spring

orchestra of scents

the currents of light

combusting

like passionate lips

the revolution of Existence's skirts

whose folds contain other worlds,

your every sigh that falls against

His inconceivable

omnipresent

Body.

(thank you dear Hafiz)

coffee love

so just now

five minutes before i need to leave the house

to teach a class

i set my coffee cup on a book on the edge of the counter

and

bam!

drop!

big bang!

it goes everywhere

all the way across the room

into tiny tiny drops and bits

i am amazed at the power that

sends these drops whizzing so far through space

and I think to myself

ok

i am going to love this

it happened

it's perfect

and i see that

it looks like all these different

things so far apart

and different shapes

and drips and splashes

and i see

it's all the same

just coffee and milk

from the same cup

One Thing

Love

all from the same cup

no matter how far the distance/separation seems

no matter what the form appears

no matter how dried up

or sloshy

and everywhere in between

there's only One Thing!

much love,

to all of you/me/God

fearlessness

I am in love with Joy/Fearlessness

there is nothing else i want

it holds Everything

this Song of Fearlessness is my true Self

i would share with the world/me

we let the masks fall

the costumes

the words

the thoughts

the conversations

the debates

we let is all just slide away

and shining fearlessness

radiates through every part of our being

forever

freely

joyously

lifted

everywhere

in sight

live it

"i need to live

whatever realization

i have now,

rather than seeking something

i don't think

i have....

the belief

that something phenomenal

has to happen

is actually a postponement

preventing you

from allowing yourself

to just rest

in who you are

already."

chemeli gad ardagh

from the book

Ordinary Women,

Extraordinary Wisdom

without "I"

who would you be

without the thought

of "I"?

silence

beauty

radiance

infinity

timeless

opening continually

every expanding

ever spacious

...

free...

blank screen

everyone you meet

every situation

is a blank screen

for your projection

what is it you want them to be

for you today?

would you like to see Jesus?

would you like to see laughter?

would you like to see perfect clarity,

someone who has no doubt,

no fear at all

about anything?

it is done already

if you truly

desire this

you will see

your heart

open it now

and look

inside...

closed eyes

have you considered

that you might completely

wake up

today?!!!!

if not,

then

you must be

sound asleep.....:-)

kitties

even a cat

who hides under the bed

is LOVE

she is doing exactly what she needs to do

she is taking care of herself

listening to her call for safety

she doesn't judge

argue

or criticize

herself

she follows the simple directions

run

under

the

bed

stay there!

until

you

FEEL

like coming out!

she listens to no one else

no

matter

how much

they

coax

she hears

but

One Voice

she is doing

exactly

what she needs to do

in that moment

she is INNOCENT

and we love her dearly

whether she is sitting on our lap

or hiding in darkness

under the bed...

Dear God,

help us be as kind to ourselves,

our friends, our family,

as we are to our kitties :-)))

shadow puppets

shadows of leaves swaying in the breeze

on my blind

remind me of the theater

of shadow puppets

this world

is just showing you

your mind

you believe it is possible

that something/love could disappear

could go away sometimes

and come back again

that love is not constant

steady

certain

sure

ALL there is

a body is not love

whether a body is present or not

has nothing to do with Love

how you see/think of this body/person/thing

in your mind

is EVERYTHING

it asks you only

has Love disappeared

from your mind?

is the stage of your mind

empty

of Love?

then

now

is the time

to

show up

stop talking

Joy is where You came from

where You live

in the Heart of Joy

and

the only Destination possible

Joy wraps Her joyous Arms around You

smiles endlessly

and sings and sings and sings

Listen

Can you hear Her?

if you can't

seem to hear Her...

stop talking

wings

love doesn't just sit around

although she can

if that's what you need

love sweeps through the streets

of our mind

trickles down our cheeks

rises each morning with the sun

and tucks us in each night

reading a love story

to all of us children of the world

Joy doesn't just sit around

though she does sit

very

very

very

still

even while dancing

and lighting

up

the

room

peace is not boring :-)))

"love will blaze a pathway through your mind of Itself..." (acim p?)

one step

i open, Father

here

is Heaven's Gate

there is but one step

from here

to there

there is but one thought

that could ever seem

to hold us back

the one step

is

to

open

our

eyes

for before us

is

all of Heaven

Father,

i raise my eyes

to see

only You

it is

but Your Face

i look upon

in every moment

amen

together we rise

together

we rise

together

we breathe

together

we exhale

and the world is moved

and shifted

flipped on its back

feet in the air

all the soft places

vulnerably exposed

so ready

to be fully met

with only

softness

open

the closest word i can find for God

is

open

opening

opening

opening

opening

continually opening

to all there is and beyond

wider

farther

ohhhhhhhhhhh

so

open

everywhere i look

i open to it

the wider i open

the more radiance

is visible

the wider i open

infinity is everywhere

instead of one point of view

there are a million

and all of them are

wholly loving

how can i possibly accept everything,

accept

Eternity

if i am not 100% open?

whatever single thought you are attached to

would you not rather have/love Everything

Openness wills only Openness

Heaven is wholly open to everyone

everything

everythought

so

wide

wide

wide

OPEN

oh it feels

SOOOOOOOOOO

GOOD!!!!

to be OPEN!

wide arms

wide open palms

fingers stretched out to completely reach out and touch

and extend love

without the darkness on the inside of a shut tight fist

there is but connection

only possible

in the divine expanse of openness

Ahhhhhhhh......

singing

the miracle

is

our rebirth

absolved

from

nothing

light

but

shines

forever

only this is true

Joy is a born singer

nothing can interrupt

this Song of Joy:-))))

day and night

our Heart

sings of God

to God

no story has any interest,

next to Joy

face it:

we simply

LOVE Joy!

there's nothing

hard about it

God owns me

God owns me

owns the rights

to my creation

i am copyrighted by God

nothing can ever change

where i came from

or what i am made of

no subsitutes exist

nor have ever been conceived

One Possibility

One Thought

radiates

All that is

everywhere you look

if you ever have a doubt

remember

that thing in front of you

is copyrighted by God

it's innocence

and yours

are

guaranteed

fruit happens

i stand before a giant tree/bush with a million deep green leaves

and full ripe round blue berries

just hanging in bunches

off the branches

and i ask

what is the wisdom i need today?

don't you see?

fruit just is

i do nothing

and from somewhere deep within me

somewhere i can't see

i don't know how

i don't even know when it's happening

i don't think about it

and fruit comes forth

full and juicy

and just hangs so ready

for everyone to eat

what is my fruit?

Joy is your fruit

from somewhere you don't know of

and in a way you are not aware of

Joy

is always

creating

and flowing through your whole being

out into the world

and simply

offers itself

to everyone

who is hungry

there is no payment

no exchange

Joy expands and expands and expand and expands...

that's the whole story

i LOVE this!

there is no person, place,thing, situation, or time

that can give you more happiness than any other!!!!!!

I AM JOY!

now

am i free

to be happy!

only loveliness

only loveliness

i am my own Mother

of Joyful Thoughts

and i love my Children,

my Family of Thoughts

Joy is

and beyond my farthest thoughts

there are more

and more

and forever more

thoughts begetting thoughts

all in the Universe of Joy

the stars too numerous to count

so the Experience of Joy

so the depth of space

mirrors our never ending capacity

for Joy

and awe

Joy is

the clock never seems to stop

we seem to move through space

we think it makes a difference

it doesn't

JOY IS